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How do you deal with regret and shame?
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So last night, i started to think about my ex-girlfriend, and i was so overwhelmed with shame and regret i couldn't sleep, oh man.. she is the most amazing girl, but i was horrible to her, i always asked her for money, and took all her pain meds when she had surgery once, and lied to her, i lied to her so much,...
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god my higher power and best friend
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god my higher power and best friend by jayson cole god is my dad being that my real dad was never there and left me to deal with this cold cruel world all alone and god is the only one who has been pulling me thru it all. when i was four years old my r...
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september 27 just for today
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September 27 Right Back Up "There is something in our self-destructive personalities that cries for failure."Basic Text, p.77 "Poor me; woe is me; look at me, my life is such a mess! I've fallen, and no matter how hard I try, I continue to fail!" Many of us came to NA singing this s...
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september20 just for today
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this is jayson cole i changed my named September 20 Courage To Change "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."Serenity Prayer Recovery involves change, and change means doing things di...
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september26 just for today
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September 26 Seeing Ourselves In Others "It will not make us better people to judge the faults of another."Basic Text, p.37 How easy it is to point out the faults of others! There's a reason for this: The defects we identify most easily in others are often the defects we are most familiar wit...
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Beauty of Autum !!
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Hi all, i had to share what I read today !!! Autumn's Beauty The birth of autumn is an event missed by many. Autumn reveals itself slowly, hovering on the edges of our consciousness until its crisp breezes are strong enough to pierce our summer clothing, and we notice for the first time the transformati...
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i still get stoned...
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but in a whole different sorta way today :) when i was little my grampa was a carpenter and i would use his hammer to crush rocks..i remember my amazement at the sparkle and many different colors.. skip ahead a few years to forgeting what real joy and happiness is i found a different kind of rock that dam n...
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peace with the past
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You are reading from the book The Language of Letting Go. Peace with the Past Even God cannot change the past. --Agathon Holding on to the past, either through guilt, longing, denial, or resentment, is a waste of valuable energy - energy that can be used to transform today and tomorrow. "I used to...
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Congratulations Keli !!
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WAY TO GO Keli on 60 MIRACLES on the 20th !!! Green - Clean & Serene. FROG = Fully Rely On God! The color of money. We aren't spending it on dope anymore. Green for GO! Go to a lot of meetings. The grass is greener on the NA side. Now we're mowing it instead of smoking it. 60 days. How do we get it? We go to meet...
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Clean for another day.. i guess..
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So i walked god knows how far to this place where there is an NA meeting, (no subway stops near there), it was in this huge cathedral, but i couldn't find where to go in to the meeting, all the doors i tried were locked, and on my way walking back (threw a sorta shady area) a homeless man stopped me and asked fo...
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september 25 just for today
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September 25 The Fourth Step - Fearing Our Feelings "We may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic."Basic Text, p.29 A common complaint about the Fourth Step is that it makes us painfully conscious of our defects of charact...
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I AM
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I AM by JAYSON COLE I am! Cold winds blow against me and I know that I am only one step away! I am on my own and none understand Where I have been! I am alone though I am among many! I am a ADDICT
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i'm scared i'm going to use again.
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my boyfriend and i are having a rough patch and school/college stuff is back in full swing. and i'm stressed. the shit with my boyfriend is really killing me. i called my dealer today and i asked if could get some stuff, but then i realized i don't have the money. but i'll do whatever it takes, and it's so w...
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Why do we feel as a failure (passing it on)
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the whole idea of failure, including the painful sense of self it creates, is a lie you need no longer live with. Truth #1 The truth is... nothing in life can stop you from starting your life all over, at anytime, because the true fabric of life is a cosmic weave of ceaseless beginnings. That's right. The...
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september 23 just for today
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September 23 Dealing With Gossip "In accordance with the principles of recovery, we try not to judge, stereotype, or moralize with each other."Basic Text, p.11 Let's face it: In Narcotics Anonymous, we live in a glass house of sorts. Our fellow members know more about our personal lives...
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46 today
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And i'm feeling GOOD lol. though I felt like carp last night I bounced back like a trooper and am ready to kick some bu&& today at work LOL I hate working on my Birthday ( accept the things i can not change) BAH HUMBUGERS SO I give you all permission to party down ( no drugs or alcohol please) just hav...
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Ow.
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So i drove 15 hours today from denver to illinois, and i have to drive another 17 hours tomorrow, my body is so sore, that's why i haven't been posting, but when i get to where i'm going and sort out my life, i'll be back on, just checking in to say hey to everyone!
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september22 just for today
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September 22 Keeping The Gift "Life takes on a new meaning when we open ourselves to this gift."Basic Text, p.102 Neglecting our recovery is like neglecting any other gift we've been given. Suppose someone gave you a new car. Would you let it sit in the driveway until the tires rotted? Woul...
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How do you know if you're ready?
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I know what will happen if i use, and i know what has happend when i did use, and things have gotten pretty bad, but i feel like at my lowest point, i'm 1 step above my bottum, if i went out and decided to forget recovery and started using again then i know it would be my bottum, no job, no money, not in school, an...
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september21 just for today
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September 21 Prayer "Prayer takes practice, and we should remind ourselves that skilled people were not born with their skills."Basic Text, p.45 Many of us came into recovery with no experience in prayer and worried about not knowing the "right words!" Some of us remembered...
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Close call
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The desire to use hit me today. It snuck up on be because it has been gone a while. I am out of town. I spoke at a professional coference today and I was so nervous I thought I was going to puke. After I got started with my presentation, I got more cormfortable. I did good.. some might say great. It was a huge mil...
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this is jayson cole
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i had to change my name b/c the guy that i warned everybody about found out my password on everything. but he get to me and i will not use again.
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september 19 just today
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September 19 Fellowship "In NA, our joys are multiplied by sharing good days; our sorrows are lessened by sharing the bad. For the first time in our lives, we don't have to experience anything alone."IP No.16, "For the Newcomer" When we practice using the steps and the other to...
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Character
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Character Defects: 1. Are basic human traits that have been distorted out of proportion by our self-centeredness, causing enormous pain to us and those around us. (It Works How & Why Pg.62-63 & Step Working Guides Pg.57) 2. Are indicators of our basic nature. (Step Working Guides Pg.57) Ch...
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love bites
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so its like this.....my x and i have been broke up for over a year, i have missed him way too much, didnt have closure and was stuck so lots of praying ect. 3days ago he phones first thing in the morning Big shock! he is leaving his current girlfriend,(she is drunk) can he stay with me. i say yes. ( i know, not s...
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Is there one "most" important thing?
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This program of ours is diverse and all inclusive. But I sometimes wonder if there is one piece that stands above all others if the addict is to have the best shot at recovery. I'm not sure if there is "one" piece that reigns supreme, but it seems to me that without a sincere and daily relations...
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Hi Blithe Spirit !!!
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Hi Blithe,,i just read the birthdays post. Glad to know youre going on 22,,,and yes,,sometime s I do feel like a fossil,, till someone like you comes along !!! I also had the previlege of meeting Tom from US with 37 years clean in Nepal the year early on. there was also some with 22,25,28,, I guess thats th...
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Amanda has 5 months Clean!!!
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Congratulations and Way to go Amanda on your cleantime!! Any day clean for an addict is a miracle!!! Clapping!!
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Just a little story and what this program gave to my sister
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My sister turned 40 and her gift that day was she was to have a child. Her husband is 50 Her husband has been clean near 20 years and my sister near 12 . This is each of theres first child and what an angel sent from heaven, what greater gift could be given ? We all have gifts coming to us as long as we do whats ind...
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Subcommittee meetings in member homes - okay or not?
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The topic of whether or not an area subcommittee meeting should be held in a member's home is a hot one in my area. I thought at one point I had come across this topic in the Concepts, but now I can't find it and wonder if I've seen it someplace else. I know it was in the policy of my previous area, but is it discu...
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