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My Story
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Until now I really didn't have this thing sorted out and yet I want to be transparent, honest if you will, about who and what I am. So here goes. My name is Jim. I am a Christian, born again believer in Jesus Christ and have been since 1975. I am a drug addict. Opiates as in codeine, vicodin, percocet, o...
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Using Dreams
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Well tomorrow is day 30 for me. I thought that I was going about things in an orderly manner. Then WHAM! A friend decided to tell me yesterday that she had just been perscribed my drug of choice for pain. Just her lightly talking about it seemed to make a big moster wake up inside of my head. I have a couple is...
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Spiritually Clean?
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Hi, everyone. I heard a term recently, "Spiritually Clean" and just wondered what you all thought it means. Just looking for your input and wanted to know what someone else thought of it.
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I NEED EVERY ONE OF YOU...SO PLEASE KEEP POSTING!
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I know that my addiction is a disease that I will have the rest of my life. I am so very humbled and greatful to have my fellow "posters" to share my journey with, traveling alone lets my disease progress. I acknowledge that with the help and support from each and every single person wh...
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Light at end of tunnel
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Due to recent budget cuts, and the rising cost of electricity, gas, and oil The light at the end of the tunnel has been turned off. We apologize for the inconvenience. Uh oh........
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Is Ipecac Relapse??
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I just want You guyses opinions on the issue. I have a sponsee that is bulemic and uses Ipecac syrup to aid in making herself vomit. for those of you that dont know, Ipecac is a first aid product , that most people keep around just incase a small child injest a poisious substance, and makes you vomit in ca...
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Sponsorship- A Two Way Street
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When I was new I remember hearing about sponsorship being a two way street. I thought that meant I would be able to help my sponsor by telling him what HE needed to do sometimes! LOL! With the perspective of time I now have a little different understanding. I have the priveledge of sponsoring a few men who...
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The freedom of choice
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My name is Kathleen and I am an Addict. The biggest lasson that I have learned over this past month, was that I was absolutely powerless over people, places, and things. 27 days ago, I made a choice. I chose not to pick up that day. The next day I made another choice. Again I chose for the second day not to pic...
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A Big Weekend
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Hi Everybody, I'm posting because I will be away from the computer for a few days. This weekend is our Central Indiana Area Convention and for the first time in a few years, I'll not be involved in service, just a convention goer. I'm taking an extra day off to get ready because I fully intend to ENJOY this...
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Pray about my job situation
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Good morning, I have an interview Monday morning about a job that I can possibly transfer to. I am running of time off and desperately need to move into a job that allows me to continue to having an income. My employer has offered me the stuff to get short term disability started. I and my family can mak...
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Short term disablility?
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Anyone used short term disability during recovery? I have it as a possible option but I don't want to create a problem bigger than the one I am currently facing. With my savings and short term disability I think we can make it through the weeks I must not be working in the medical field. But like I said I don...
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Relapse
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Going with the poetry theme from the last post. I thought that I would share a poem someone gave to me: There is a monster who lives in my head. He talks to me softly, he wants me dead. He tells me this time, I'll stay in control. He tells me not to let anyone know. He convinces me that nobody cares, He whispers...
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reaching the bottem
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I want what I want when I want it
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Being new to recovery, I am starting to learn who I really am. These are the hard days, some of me is not so good. I know that working the steps will help me change that, but, for now it is hard to see. My compulsivness is very shocking. I find myself doing non drug related things with the same focus that I used...
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Started Using Again
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I am new to the site, but I need help badly. I am a pain pill addict and started using after being clean since March. I went through Suboxone and decided to stop taking it after it made me stop getting my period. I was fine off of it after the initial withdrawal, but have been severely depressed. I foun...
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Opiate Addict
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Hello Everyone, I've read through some posts here and can truly relate to a lot of you. I'm glad I found this board and wanted to quickly introduce myself. My name is Kristin (AKA Kris for short) and I'm an opiate addict. My bottom was a little over two weeks ago when I was arrested for prescription fr...
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Introducticons
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My name is Jim and I am drug addict. I am hooked on vicodin and am in day 2 of cold turkey. I have to talk to someone even if its virtual someone. Day 2 clean. Yesterday morning it was second by second. By today is moment by moment. NO drugs available. I made sure all were gone. I've used vicodin for...
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Ok extremely stressed out and at the end of my own rope
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and I guess thats why I forgot to show up and chair my meeting last night. I did work late it was a LONG DAY prepped and painted a whole 3 bedroom house with one guy helping, got home layed down then ate dinner got into a fight with my girlfriend broke up with her and I cant remember much of anything else yeste...
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Sunrise,,, its a new day dawning !
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Yes its just one day more to go for me to get on the flight to UK. Its a dream come true,, study and probably work part time in a foreign country. Ill get my masters. Then theres J. my beloved,,,I get to meet her at last,, after an internet and phone dating/chatting/sharing relationship of nearly one year....
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A F'D up person called my house 4x!
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Hi everyone, I am in a bit of a querry! I surrond myself with positive people, people who do not use drugs and who found a new way to live.... My husband is also in recovery. After the 3rd call I said to him how did you get our number? Was it from NA? He said "Yeah you dont care" completely se...
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Look How We've Grown!
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From the NA Website: Rate of growth Because no attendance records are kept, it is impossible to estimate what percentages of those who come to Narcotics Anonymous remain active in NA over time. The only sure indicator of the program's success is the rapid growth in the number of registered Narcotics...
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Magic
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I was thinking about the magic of NA. It is a place where it is not about a person. It is about the group. I do not go there to get told what I should do. I go there and get to see miracles manifested in addicts who are strong in their recovery. I see people that I can model. I also see some people who will find st...
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I am Recovering!!!
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Writing the chapters of my life....I want there to be a lot. I'm about to get cosmetic surgery and I'm very excited about it....I've wanted it "forever" I must give the pain meds to my husband to dispense to me....it's codeine, very bad for me, but Ive decided to not try to be superwoman. I d...
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Spoke at a rehab last night...
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I spoke at a rehab last night, and it was my first time inside of one. Wow was it heart wrenching...65 addicts and only a handful shared after I spoke. At the end when there was 10 minutes left and no one would speak up, I wrapped up by saying there was no magic words I could share that would fix their problems...
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Hurt ,wondering if my marraige is over ?
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I have a few year clean and so does my husband we used together and we got clean together but some times he can be so hurtful ,Its such old behavor it pisses me off ,I see him acting so good around the meetings and people in the program but with me its so different ,I find my self asking after 16 years is it over ,...
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God of your understanding
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I am struggling with this concept right now. If you read some of my previous posts I often fear the punishment of God. I grew up Southern Baptist and still hold on to my foundational beliefs. However, I am having a hard time grasping the concept that God continues to stick by us when we keep making the s...
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Why is it that some don't feel guilty?
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I know this might sound like a silly question, but why is it that when I use I feel guilty the next day, but when my baby's father- who has had many upheavals as a result of drugs- uses he does not feel the same guilt?
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Inspiration for All
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I have carried this comic for years....hope a newbie or even an oldbie can get a smile from it. Dean, I'll post a pic of my jungle I roam soon as my husband gets home with the digital camera
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NUMBNESS FROM CRACK COCAIN????
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I HAVE BEEN CLEAN SINCE MAY 2008, AFTER USING FOR 2 YRS. I AM EXPIERICING NUMBNESS ON THE LEFT SIDE OF MY CHEEK AND JAWLINE. HAS ANYONE HAD THIS PROBLEM AFTER BEING A CRACK COCAIN ADDICT??? -- Edited by oh thank heaven at 09:33, 2008-09-07
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Letting Go
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Now that my brain is no longer fuzzy, I am begining to see the gifts that I am given each day. I have a lot to be greatful for today. I am in awe at the chance that I have for a beautiful life in recovery. I was told something by a new friend today, he said "when you look at the past, forget about the details a...
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