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Relapse
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Going with the poetry theme from the last post. I thought that I would share a poem someone gave to me: There is a monster who lives in my head. He talks to me softly, he wants me dead. He tells me this time, I'll stay in control. He tells me not to let anyone know. He convinces me that nobody cares, He whispers...
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reaching the bottem
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I want what I want when I want it
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Being new to recovery, I am starting to learn who I really am. These are the hard days, some of me is not so good. I know that working the steps will help me change that, but, for now it is hard to see. My compulsivness is very shocking. I find myself doing non drug related things with the same focus that I used...
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Started Using Again
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I am new to the site, but I need help badly. I am a pain pill addict and started using after being clean since March. I went through Suboxone and decided to stop taking it after it made me stop getting my period. I was fine off of it after the initial withdrawal, but have been severely depressed. I foun...
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Opiate Addict
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Hello Everyone, I've read through some posts here and can truly relate to a lot of you. I'm glad I found this board and wanted to quickly introduce myself. My name is Kristin (AKA Kris for short) and I'm an opiate addict. My bottom was a little over two weeks ago when I was arrested for prescription fr...
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Introducticons
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My name is Jim and I am drug addict. I am hooked on vicodin and am in day 2 of cold turkey. I have to talk to someone even if its virtual someone. Day 2 clean. Yesterday morning it was second by second. By today is moment by moment. NO drugs available. I made sure all were gone. I've used vicodin for...
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Ok extremely stressed out and at the end of my own rope
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and I guess thats why I forgot to show up and chair my meeting last night. I did work late it was a LONG DAY prepped and painted a whole 3 bedroom house with one guy helping, got home layed down then ate dinner got into a fight with my girlfriend broke up with her and I cant remember much of anything else yeste...
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Sunrise,,, its a new day dawning !
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Yes its just one day more to go for me to get on the flight to UK. Its a dream come true,, study and probably work part time in a foreign country. Ill get my masters. Then theres J. my beloved,,,I get to meet her at last,, after an internet and phone dating/chatting/sharing relationship of nearly one year....
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A F'D up person called my house 4x!
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Hi everyone, I am in a bit of a querry! I surrond myself with positive people, people who do not use drugs and who found a new way to live.... My husband is also in recovery. After the 3rd call I said to him how did you get our number? Was it from NA? He said "Yeah you dont care" completely se...
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Look How We've Grown!
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From the NA Website: Rate of growth Because no attendance records are kept, it is impossible to estimate what percentages of those who come to Narcotics Anonymous remain active in NA over time. The only sure indicator of the program's success is the rapid growth in the number of registered Narcotics...
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Magic
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I was thinking about the magic of NA. It is a place where it is not about a person. It is about the group. I do not go there to get told what I should do. I go there and get to see miracles manifested in addicts who are strong in their recovery. I see people that I can model. I also see some people who will find st...
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I am Recovering!!!
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Writing the chapters of my life....I want there to be a lot. I'm about to get cosmetic surgery and I'm very excited about it....I've wanted it "forever" I must give the pain meds to my husband to dispense to me....it's codeine, very bad for me, but Ive decided to not try to be superwoman. I d...
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Spoke at a rehab last night...
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I spoke at a rehab last night, and it was my first time inside of one. Wow was it heart wrenching...65 addicts and only a handful shared after I spoke. At the end when there was 10 minutes left and no one would speak up, I wrapped up by saying there was no magic words I could share that would fix their problems...
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Hurt ,wondering if my marraige is over ?
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I have a few year clean and so does my husband we used together and we got clean together but some times he can be so hurtful ,Its such old behavor it pisses me off ,I see him acting so good around the meetings and people in the program but with me its so different ,I find my self asking after 16 years is it over ,...
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God of your understanding
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I am struggling with this concept right now. If you read some of my previous posts I often fear the punishment of God. I grew up Southern Baptist and still hold on to my foundational beliefs. However, I am having a hard time grasping the concept that God continues to stick by us when we keep making the s...
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Why is it that some don't feel guilty?
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I know this might sound like a silly question, but why is it that when I use I feel guilty the next day, but when my baby's father- who has had many upheavals as a result of drugs- uses he does not feel the same guilt?
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Inspiration for All
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I have carried this comic for years....hope a newbie or even an oldbie can get a smile from it. Dean, I'll post a pic of my jungle I roam soon as my husband gets home with the digital camera
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NUMBNESS FROM CRACK COCAIN????
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I HAVE BEEN CLEAN SINCE MAY 2008, AFTER USING FOR 2 YRS. I AM EXPIERICING NUMBNESS ON THE LEFT SIDE OF MY CHEEK AND JAWLINE. HAS ANYONE HAD THIS PROBLEM AFTER BEING A CRACK COCAIN ADDICT??? -- Edited by oh thank heaven at 09:33, 2008-09-07
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Letting Go
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Now that my brain is no longer fuzzy, I am begining to see the gifts that I am given each day. I have a lot to be greatful for today. I am in awe at the chance that I have for a beautiful life in recovery. I was told something by a new friend today, he said "when you look at the past, forget about the details a...
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Beginning.
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Hey folks, im doing alot of reading lately, its time to get some of it off my chest . This may be an excercise in total selfishness but im noticing a healthy influx of newcomers in here and maybe it can help them as it seems to be helping me. It seems after getting over the initial shock of " kicking &...
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Recovering addict,,,Guru,,hahaha !
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Hi Folks,, a snap fom about 8 months ago. I was praying detachedly for something ,,,prayers are answered. Wanted to share my get up of then,,,,,,,
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new found freedom
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Tommorrow Sept. 5th is Allens bday there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. I should have handled things different; although my therapist says I did what I had to do to get my point across and to stand up for what I want. I keep my self busy with my new job and my new friends life is going okay I am...
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HE said that I wasn't good for him
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I have posted before about my A bf and our tendency to use together despite my intention to always refrain... Well, he apparently has now hooked up with the girl he was arrested with for needle drugs. He made the comment to his family that she was good for him as she was clean now and working and that when...
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LIVING UNTIL WE DIE
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It's no fun living in a rut. If you've been clean for a while, you probably know what I mean. Five days of work followed by two days off that are used to prepare for five more days of work. And so the weeks, seasons, and the years go by. Oh yes, I'm staying clean, going to meetings and working steps, even spons...
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Life and Death Before NA
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Dear Family, Before coming to NA I handled things so different. I was a garbage head. Any problem that rised I popped a pill. Smoked my way through, or even drank anything if I couldnt get those drugs. Over this LABORDAY WEEKEND 4 years ago my father died. I was Xanaked up through the wake and funera...
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I am 104 days clean today and I really need some sober friends to talk with
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I went to an AA meeting tonight and I guess it has got me feeling a little frustrated. I know I always started my using through alcohol and it has always been there, but I felt so out of place. Man, I guess I have been feeling that way though anyway. I dont know! I just want to feel comfortable in my own skin. No...
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song titles to help express how I feel can you figure them all out??
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I hurt so bad I hate the "pain" I turn it into rage knowing " I will never be the same" just wanting to know "how forever feels" knowing you are " bet...
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An Intro to my fellow addicts!~
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Hello family! I just stumbled onto this board and have read alot! Although I am not "new" to NA been introduced in 1983.....I put 8 years together and decided I needed more pain! I moved out of my original state (NJ) got married and today I celebrate 6 months and 8 days! I am here to tell you re...
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The Mystery of God
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Hi guys, I found this quote and just wanted to share it. There is a Mystery that many call God, Manifesting as Universal Love, a set of Laws, and a Great Process. That Process works through each and all of us, and that Process is perfect. As we discover this fundamental truth in the journey of our lives, we...
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August 31, 2008 - Gratitude
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"Hopeless living problems have become joyously changed. Our disease has been arrested, and now anything is possible." Basic Text p.102 The NA program has given us more freedom than we ever dreamed possible. Sometimes, though, in the daily routine, we lose track of how much we've been...
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