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Hey Guys,
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I haven't been posting much so i thought id just give an update. I have 140 days clean today, It has been a ride . Not a great one at times . Not a bad one at other times. I'm continuing meetings Two a day on most days. I'm working on a first step though i must admit i'm dragging my ass on it. That brings littl...
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desperate
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This is all new to me but I recognize that I need help. I;m not sure where I belong. I am 50 and gave up an eating disorder 2 years ago after 35 years.Worked hard and feel proud. But now I find I get fits of rage and I take a benzo or sleep aid to calm down and I turn into a raving suicidal ragaholic and I have total b...
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terrified of the thought of losing him
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My name is Kristi. I am an addict. i was married a couple years back to a fellow addict. enabler to each other. long story short, it ended terribly. I got 2 dwi's, he was kicked out of the Marine Corps for drug use. it's a sad american story. i moved away to Illinois and started working at Olive Garden. I met h...
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Where'd yawl go yawl go out and get a life or something LOL
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postings down whats up wit dat? I had a nice weekend with family my little niece got baptized they live in San Francisco area, bad thing was my niece had the flu and she gave it to just about everyone, she's afraid of me so I didnt get to hold her so i'm a clean bill of health but darn near everyone else has got i...
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it never rains it pours
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well it seems thst breaking my hand is not enough i have been felling like shit latly and today i wake up to my legs swoillen up about 3 times the size they should br soo the dr to find out that my liver is in distress whatever that means and that i am in some real shit here so if you all will pray for me i woulde rea...
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Oprah's Show on Monday
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Don't know if anyone watched the Oprah's show today, but it was about heroin addiction in Richland County Ohio...that's my birthplace and has been my home until the last few weeks! There was a lady named Merry on there, I was friends with her in early recovery. She went to prison and I lost track of her. T...
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Hope, Surrender, and Acceptance
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"Recovery begins with surrender." Basic Text Pg 86 Living hopeless is a way of life for an addict. When I came to NA it had been a long time since I had felt any hope. I wanted to believe that I could experience the kind of life that I saw others in NA enjoying, but once...
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An addict with a message....
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http://www.doughallock.com Poke around and listen to some of his songs. Quite transparent and meaningful. Has been clean for a couple of years, in recovery. -- Edited by BigV at 12:42, 2008-10-20
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Nothing will make him quit.
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I'm at my wits end. I'm sick of all the crazy bullshit my friend brings around and things he does because of his addiction. Problem is if I tell him to leave and leave me alone. He still comes around and so the only solution is to call the cops. If I call the cops, he'll get popped instantly. And why sho...
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Amen
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LAst night while meditating I had this word POP into my head. A men is normally how I say this word last night it was brought to me in a different way, sounds like Ah men and I said this over and over ahmen ahmen, WOW that sounds much more aribic that way, hmmmm I thought to myself why do we say this word? So this...
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"Be still like a mountain and flow like a great river."
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BigV
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when your huts on fire
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When your hut's on fire
The only survivor of a shipwreck was washed up on a small, uninhabited island. He prayed feverishly for God to rescue him. Every day he scanned the horizon for help, but none seemed forthcoming.. Exhausted, he eventually managed to build a little hut out of driftwood to protec...
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ryrym
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i can use some help......
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Hello all. I just recently moved from a place that had hundreds of meetings a week to somewhere that has very little/limited meetings. Needless to say, I am somewhat disconnected from my old network. The people that I were close to seem to have somewhat forgotten about me. So i am finding myself gettin...
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Frustrated
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So my allergies have been driving me crazy so I took a Benedryl last night. As soon as it kicked in I started thinking how good it felt and I went right back to that altered state baloney where I think hey I wonder what two would feel like? Or three? Didnt take any more but as soon as I woke up this AM I was thin...
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its the meth thats killing me
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I,have been to two meetings in two days still no clean time and I feel like hell any advice for a idiot
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It is Only Temporary
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"Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever." Lance Armstrong What a wonderful message that can be applied to recovery. Recovering addicts are the ones...
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Finding my God
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I present a quote: The government sets the example. Said by Supreme Court Justice Brandais in his opinion of a ruling, quoted again by Timothy McVey right before he was sentenced to death. My sponsor of 18 years, when I expressed outrage that someone who used that day is asked not to speak at the meeting...
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Anyone else having problems with the server
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Having problems with page loading, posting, editing... on two different computers.
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Taoist parable :"Who knows what is good and what is bad."
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"...an old Chinese farmer lost his best stallion one day and his neighbor came around to express his regrets, but the farmer just said, "Who knows what is good and what is bad." The next day the stallion returned bringing with him 3 wild mares. The neighbor rushed back to celebr...
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BigV
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God's Will or Self-Will
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Hi Family, I'm Dan, an addict in recovery. I wanted to ask for some help in a certain area, but I'm somewhat reluctant because I feel like I should know the answer. My mind tells me I'm supposed to be the guy others come to, not the one seeking help. This may sound silly, but I've been around here long en...
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A FUNERAL FOR MY USING........WOW!~
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I do know I have a creative mind but this is just down right kooky! I was re reading my steps/going over them before me and my sponsor have a chance to see the work I have done. I am working out of the HOW and WHY work book. Actually she is also quite busy with a brand new baby, I talk to her everyday and I did st...
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Greetings Ken H :-)
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Hi Ken, long time my recovery brother. As soon as I started logging in here again after a little lurking forawhile, you kept coming in my thoughts. So, how are you? You still in China/South East? Miss you, Hugs and love.
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new sponsor
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I am an addict my name is David Hi family I am having issues with my sponsor. I am not getting what I think I need am wondering if i should look for a new sponsor. I picked my sponsor up at the first meeting i went to after being released from jail. I barely know him and am feeling that I did not make the best choi...
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Looking for a Ride to Serenityfest in Myrtle Beach, SC 10/23-26
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I'm just getting back into mtgs. after a relapse. My home group is "Courage to Change" in Clinton, SC, a small group with not many females, none that I know of that are going. I prefer to ride with FEMALES (for obvious resons, I am one and need to keep my focus on recovery, etc.) Since we ar...
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One of my cats is an addict
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Have learned over the last few weeks that one of the characteristics of the addict mindset, point of view, is we are stimulus augmentors. We not only seek stimulus, we embellish, inflate, whatever word you want to use, that stimulus. To put it simply, we make mountains out mole-hills in a way that ca...
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Shame
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Shame is that dark, powerful feeling that holds us back. Yes, shame can stop us from acting inappropriately. But many of us have learned to attach shame to healthy behaviors that are in our best interest. In dysfunctional families, shame can be tagged to healthy behaviors such as talking about feeli...
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fear - what are we so afraid of?
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We weren't afraid to take that first pill, or drink that first drink were we? Why are we afraid of things, like people or places? We constantly need to remind one another that fear is normal but with the ability to ask the God of your understanding for guidance, we can face everything and recover. Its...
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Spirituality in the Ordinary
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I had a shit-ass bad day. My mother-in-law is a greedy, cantankerous, lying, lazy b*tch...yes, I just said all that with a straight face. Anyways, she and I got into it today; my family now lives in her house and I'm rather stuck having no money and no friends down here. My options: leave my husband (whom...
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newb
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So my counselor requested that i go to online na meetings or forums or whatever 30 minutes a day. I've been here a few days, just looking around, I've been clean 8 days, used for 10 years.....there was a 2 year interval where I was clean but that was a long time ago. Right now I'm taking adderal which is basi...
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Beth
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New Scenes in my life,,a recovery payoff !
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Im waiting to bring my daughter Anja here too,,being an NA baby she needs to enjoy this too. After 20 years in recovery,,,just when i was beggining to think life had shown me enuff,,and i was beggining to resign me to being semi-retired,,like meetings,sponsor sponse, little service,music,events,...
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