I started my day like usual get my son up and off to school then meditated or prayed for an other day clean and serene and i noticed that i have been getting more good than bad lately things are getting better i have a few health issues i have to deal with but that is a small thing compared to the fact that i have'nt used since june 9 2008 and i am working a good program i have a great phone list a real ballbuster for a sponsor (but that is what i need) and my family is coming around and at least talking to me so all in all life is good and i thank god and this program for that and take it one day at a time i know that i have alot of work to do yet but i have a loving god who is and always be with me so yes today was a good day rocky
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some of us win some of us lose with god and this program i will be a winner
coming up on 6 months rocky, way to go, Blue - 1/2 a cake! It's blue so we don't have to be. When we are blue, we can be like BB King, so you don't have to sing the blues to see blue skies. The color of our Basic Text. Hopefully, we've seen one, opened one, better yet, read one by now. 6 months no blunts. How do we get it? We read the Basic Text.
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The fundamental delusion of humanity , is to suppose that I am here and you are out there .
I just got six months last week and now all of a sudden I feel really weird now. I feel this void in my life, lonely, lost, inadequate. Like I am not successful in recovery at all that I have failed at using and doing recovery. I want this to go away I hate this. How long does it last? I had a great week last week and this week sucks. What the heck is going on with me someone please advise me.
Sitting in a rehab right now. Man, i told my colleagues at work that i was going to the shaolin temple for two months to learn the shaolin art.
feel like an ass. did not tell my doctor about my addiction and got prescribed a pain killer that i tripped on. went back to my choice of drug. tuked my way through got six months of sobriety (albiet - dry drunk type away from meetings) and folk decided i needed rehab- used out of defiance and threw away six months of clean time......
anyway, one day at a time again. getting out soon. pray for mr.
Don't be hard on yourself, it takes what it takes. This just indicates two things, one you're and addict and two your program needs improvement and you're doing that. Look on the bright side, you still have your job and lot of other things I'll bet. It's a journey not a destination. I know people get sick of hearing that, but what it means to me is that my program is working when I'm enjoying working it with other recovering people. I floundered for 2 years in and out, while going to meetings. The last thing that I thought about was the lack of fellowship, that I had been utilizing. I barely had a sponsor and no clean and sober friends to hang out with. I solved that by moving into a recovery house with 3 people that had several years. Their joy, happiness, and functionality was contagious and pulled me through to 3 years. I was 29. You are at a great age to get clean and sober. So much opportunity for you. You've just got to put you and your recovery first. Prayers are sent
