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Truly a journey of self-discovery
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It's getting a little easier.....finally. I've been doing lots of recovery reading and find myself highlighting just about every paragraph because it seems as if every single one of them was written for me. Control issues? YES....have always had them. I rebel. I hate authority. I will listen...
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JFT January 7 Recovery
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January 7 Recovery "Narcotics Anonymous offers addicts a program of recovery that is more than just a life without drugs. Not only is this way of life better than the hell we lived, it is better than any life that we have ever known."Basic Text p. 103 Few of us have any interest in "reco...
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A moment of reflection!
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This morning,we bury a friend I have worked with for over 30 years and I spend time in reflection knowing that life is a precious gift,given by the grace and mercy of our Higher Power and that we who share the common illness of addiction are truly blessed to even one more day as the only thing we really earn...
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JFT January 6 How does it work?
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January 6How does it work?I used to think that I had all the answers, but today I am glad that I dont. =What are the two favorite words of most addicts? I know! Unfortunately, many of us arrive in NA thinking we have all the answers. We have a lot of knowledge about whats wrong with us. But in and of it...
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Sick and Tired
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Sometimes God has to smack me in the head to get my attention and I hate it. I found this board only yesterday and while I can honestly say that I haven't abused any drugs in 20 years, I can't say that I haven't taken any or that I've even had a program. I find myself having the strangest thoughts today. Th...
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This disease does not discriminate...
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It's been 18 days since my relapse - 18 days that have felt full and meaningful. My first NA meeting began with reading from the literature - I can't be bothered to move right now, so I'll give you the gist of it... Basically addiction can lead to two big things - jail time, and death... I know there's a thi...
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agrravated.
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I was on my facebook and one of my friends posted a status saying that my old high school needs a rehab class. which i agree because 90% of the people that go to that school are on drugs. mostly weed but anyways, there was this huge argument and as i was reading it, it just made me so angry! of course there was m...
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WE CONTINUE TO MOVE FORWARD
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Our 24 year old son, a recovering Heroin addict,was not sent to jail last night.As a father and a parent, I am relieved. As an addict, I pray that the impact of his taking personal responsibility is being ingrained in his process.He was able to work out some kind of agreement with probation(not get...
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JFT January 5 Recovery at home
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January 5Recovery at homeWe can enjoy our families in a new way and may become a credit to them instead of an embarrassment or a burden.Basic Text, p. 104=Were doing great in recovery, arent we? We go to a meeting every day, we spend every evening with our friends in the fellowship, and every weekend we...
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JFT January 4 The love of the fellowship
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January 4The love of the fellowshipToday, secure in the love of the fellowship, we can finally look another human being in the eye and be grateful for who we are.Basic Text, p. 92=When we were using, few of us could tolerate looking someone in the eyewe were ashamed of who we were. Our minds were not occu...
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Finding online sponser
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I am 44yrs male,1month dry 1month into recovery.I travel a lot mainly in Europe.I would like to find an online sponsor from feb 2011.I attend meetings in uk at the moment but do have issues with 12 steps but believe in the fellowship and the fact that i need the support it offers .if anyone is out there who...
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Meaning what we say!
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Morning everyone,1st day of New Year ,back to work business of the holidays are over and time to settle back in and move forward.Please sit we me for a minute as I reflect on a friend of 30 years,I worked with,passed on New Years eve,heartattack at 59(boss called me at home)...Tonight we also find out i...
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Glad I'm an addict!?
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Seriously, sometimes I'm glad I'm an addict. Might seem like a strange thing to say. Sometimes in my interactions with normies discussing or sniveling about this and that and then not having a clue what to about handling their life challenges I find myself glad I'm an addict with a roadmap, our St...
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Doing the Steps and doing it now
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I came to N.A. for the last time i started my steps and worked thoroughly and accurately with the steps. You have to be willing to do these and if not willing than do them anyway as this is a life and death program and I choose life. When it came time to do my 4th I went over the hurt and anger and feelings and sex...
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JFT January 3 Our greatest need
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January 3Our greatest needWe eventually redefine our beliefs and understanding to the point where we see that our greatest need is for knowledge of Gods will for us and the strength to carry that out.Basic Text, p. 48=When we first arrived in NA, we had all kinds of ideas of what we needed. Some of us se...
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JFT January 2 Take a deep breath and talk to God
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January 2Take a deep breath and talk to GodSometimes when we pray, a remarkable thing happens: We find the means, ways, and energies to perform tasks far beyond our capacities.Basic Text, p. 46=Coping successfully with lifes minor annoyances and frustrations is sometimes the most difficult ski...
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Rockin' in the New Year!
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Joys of not only another day clean and working God centered and in the solution but feeling excitement for New Year ,if so graced by God,beyond this day...I say "being Powered by God, with the "soldiers of life"and thousands s of addicts to the right of me and thousands of addicts to th...
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Retreat (AA) in June in Youngstown NY-seeking info
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Yes, I know which board I'm on--but maybe someone has some info--I am seeking details about a retreat said to be held on spiritual lands in upstate NY in June, for AA-anybody know anything?
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Having a real tough time...
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Hi, I'm Deb and I'm an addict. I'm really in a bad way today. I'm recovering from pneumonia and have been on steroids for 5 days...ugh. My depression is really suffocating me. I have Bipolar Disorder so the steroids really mess with my meds. I feel as if I am at a crossroads and cannot seem to take a ste...
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JFT January 1 Vigilance
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January 1VigilanceWe keep what we have only with vigilance...Basic Text, p. 60=How do we remain vigilant about our recovery? First, by realizing that we have a disease we will always have. No matter how long weve been clean, no matter how much better our lives have become, no matter what the extent...
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Happy New Year
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Hello my family - I am grateful the past year I got to be a part of this site and getting to know some folks. I feel connected - I feel validated - I feel encouraged and supported - Thanks to all - I wish and pray that all stay clean another day - And may the new year bring you assurance, love, gifts of the spirit...
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23 years,, thanks yall.
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Hi guys, im sorry I completely forgot to share this with yall at FB. I completed 23 years clean on 21st December, far away from my home group and Fellows. I was in Andamans (still am), some lovely islands on assignment, fun and romance. On that anniversary day, i was not very ok, not the best recoverimng a...
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How much more stupid can I get ?
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Goddamnit !! I fit the joker bill perfectly,,,, I think Im going to move aroud here and inrto myself to people as "Hey, myname is Rama and Im a joker and an asshole!!!" The Basic Text says that somethin in the personality of an addict cries for failure. This is the space where Im at right now. My...
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My point of choiceless awareness !!!
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My friends and fellow addicts, Im certain of one thing as a result of looking at my own behaviour in these past few days; I am angry.... I was walking along the beach, on a lovel day, ut feeling sad, foolish and sorry for myself..I prayed and prayed.. Then I let it all go and I had a thought 'Hell, Ive been ang...
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just an update b4 the new year
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This escort thing is almost harder to stop doin dope something alwayd drives you back with me being disabled it sux cause money is always an issue and my mom and I looked at newer apt for me so i cannot be found or bothered where I can sneak in and no one knows I am there I will feel safer in many ways The DRAMA in...
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Step Two
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I was reminded today about the necessity of working a thorough step 2.There was a meeting and someone with a number of years clean was in a rage. He was talking about being 'dissed' and the "law of the streets" with all the violence, revenge, and anarchy.I didn't hear him once mention power...
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JFT December 31 Being or service
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December 31Being of serviceWorking with others is only the beginning of service work.Basic Text, p. 59=Were in recovery now. Through living the program, weve attained some stability in our lives. Our faith in a Higher Power has grown. Our individual spiritual awakening is progressing comfor...
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This is addiction; it's true nature...
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I AM YOUR DISEASETo all who come in contact with me, I wish you death and I wish you suffering.Allow me to introduce myself; I am the disease of addiction! Cunning, Baffling, and Powerful! Thats me. I have killed millions, and I am pleased. I love to catch you with the element of surprise. I love pretendi...
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omg i feel i turned my drug addiction into food
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All i wanna do is eat. its drivin me outta my mind. i got out of rehab after 9 weeks november 9th. i havent used but all i wanna do is eat. i mean is this normal or wut? i dont know wut to do. has anyone ever gone through this? i understand this isnt a weight loss site ut this is only since ive been in recovery. PLZ H...
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seems all I wanna do is sleep
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I really just don't have the energy to stay awake nor the desire my mind has been racing about mindless stuff so no real problem other than the cars but shit happens I 'll do what i can to get them taken care of might take a year to save the money to fix the new car thankfully I had not sold the Nissan now I gotta r...
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