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public service worker needs help getting off suboxone!
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Hi, I have been clean from suboxone for three weeks now. My husband tho is still on suboxone and is having a real tough time getting off. He works with the public five days a week, and at this time of year business is sometimes non-exsistant. He wants to get off the suboxone, but cannot afford financially...
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domestic issues
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i have been with my wife for over 20 years she was there when i was'nt i have had so backslides and i know that i have to earn the trust but like any addict i want what i want now but enough is enough i can't take the jealous suspicion any more i have helped to get a new na meetin house in order latly and putting in...
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New to this
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My name is Carla and I am newly recovering from being chemically dependent. I have 90+ days of clean time and have not had this for about 10 years. It feels great to be a new person again and love when others can see the change in me. I attend 2 meetings for sure each week and am currently working the steps. Ju...
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life as a new mom
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I feel like i shouls be changing diapers for most of my sons life he has lived with my mother for lack of attachment on my ebd and my addiction outta control as well as my moods i was in and out nut houses and just ynstable all around this is definetly helping with the depression but that too started when I to...
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Struggling
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I don't even know what to say. I am scared to begin this journey/program and I am scared not to. I know I need to find a meeting to go to, but I am terrified of that. Honestly, you guys on this board are my only link to any sort of recovery right now. I know, I know. That is not enough. I need a meeting and a sponsor...
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I am not alone
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Guilt, lying, shame. Hurting those we love the most. Trying to stop because we are strong enough to do so on our own. WOW!!!! Out of sheer desperation I typed in NA online and was led here. At first I just read the posts, then decided to post myself. Told myself that if I do this, I don't have to go to a live me...
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About the whole "God"thing....
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I have believed that there is a"God" all my life, yet despite my many efforts I could not find him within myself. I have come to think, there must be some defect in me, I just can't seem to find what some other people have. When I have attended church or tried to read the bible or other religious...
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JFT January 27 Learning how to live again
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January 27Learning how to live againWe learn new ways to live. We are no longer limited to our old ideas.Basic Text, p. 56=We may or may not have been taught right from wrong and other basics of life as children. No matter, by the time we found recovery, most of us had only the vaguest idea of how to live....
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Dave R
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My sponsees don't listen to me, and keep leaving the group!
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I have had a number of sponsees (about 25) and almost all of them simply do not hear a word I say. I feel so helpless and frustrated! As of last week I had six. As of today I have two. 1. Last week one came straight out of detox. I met him at the meeting. He listened patiently while I suggested cheap places to sta...
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i cant take it anymore
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i cant take this shit anymore.....im trying to do the right thing an i f it up..im done...this is what im going to be for the rest of my life..f it -- Edited by BigV on Sunday 22nd of August 2010 09:58:40 AM
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AA's narrow focus
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A recent post got me thinking about this.that in some ways AA members have it a little easier than NA's. But in some ways it's harder. LOL I know how foggy that sounds, but allow me to explain.AA says "no alcohol" no exceptions. A very clear, absolute message. There is NEVER a good reas...
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OK, I surrender
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I think I am going to go to my first meeting tomorrow. I am freaking out. It says it is a closed meeting and has a T I think--for like topic. I don't know. I am so nervous. I am nervous I will see someone I know (I know, I know. They are there too, blah blah blah), but, and this is going to sound arrogant, but this i...
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JFT January 26 Self-centeredness
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January 26Self-centerednessThe spiritual part of our disease is our total self-centeredness.Basic Text, p. 20=What is self-centeredness? It is our belief that the world revolves around us. Our wishes, our demands are the only ones worth consideration. Our self-centered minds believe the...
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just when I thought things went well
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just found out today that my son pysical therapist has confined him to a scooter he will only be 18 in sept life isn't fair isn't it enough that I suffer not my child too~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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What Now?
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I am new to this idea of online meeting. I am in tas and there is only a couple of meetings a week. Today was my first day with $ in my pocket I didn't score speed. I am on done too but I cant just stop taking that and I cant go to rehab with my kids. I have always been scared to start going to NA cause I am on the progr...
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Sort of struggling with things...
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As far as staying clean goes - i am doing that. I feel the best i have felt in a LOOONG time right now. Thank you to my HP! My struggle comes when i think of being in this program for life...as in, going to meetings every week, etc. I really can't see myself doing that. I tend to think i can stay clean on my o...
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Triggers
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OK, so I am just now realizing what my "triggers" are. How weird is this. I can feel a slight beginning of a migraine creeping up on the right side of my head (where I always get migraines when I have them) and this sense of euphoria comes over me. The slightest bit of pain that I feel used to signa...
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interesting turn of events
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well my mom lashed out at m son and he called last night in hyterics so now he says he wants to live with mommy yea I know AN 17 year old that still calls mom mommy I love it so atm he is here with me as well as my roomie and me kinda crowded in this one bedroom apt the other apt is bigger but if this emains permananen...
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JFT January 25 An added gift
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January 25An added giftWe see it happening among us every day. This miraculous turnabout is evidence of a spiritual awakening.Basic Text, p. 51=We watch them walk in to their first meeting defeated, their spirits broken. Their suffering is obvious, and their desire for help even more apparent. ...
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new to NA
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Hi my name is Jay and I am 30 yrs old. I have been using drugs and alcohol for the past 12 years on a daily basis. I was addicted to oxycontin for a long time but that got too $$ so I turned to heroin. I went to a treatment center this past july/ august and was so happy to have 45 days of clean time. Unfortunately, o...
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making friends
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so i am posting for the first time ive been clean for two years now and it seems that everyone has their own lil groups of people and they go places and do stuff outside of the meetings im very shy and have a hard time doing that plus i dont work full time and dont have a car either so sometimes i feel left out. i a...
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JFT January 23 Serenity check
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January 23 Serenity checkLack of daily maintenance can show up in many ways. Basic Text, p. 95 = Ever had a perfect stranger remark about how great the weather was, only to reply It stinks? When this happens, we are probably suffering from a lack of daily maintenance in our program. In recovery, life c...
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night terrors
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I woke up in tears and screaming this morning night terrors are back glad the room mate was with his girl he has been most of the weekend so my mind of course feels like a race track I am trying to tell it "slow down turbo" but nothin avails I was doing great had hope some faith with the move which no...
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JFT January 24 From isolation to connection
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January 24From isolation to connectionOur disease isolated us... Hostile, resentful, self-centered, and self-seeking, we cut ourselves off from the outside world.Basic Text, p. 4=Addiction is an isolating disease, closing us off from society, family, and self. We hid. We lied. We scorne...
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We believe that our Higher Power will take care of us.
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We believe that our Higher Power will take care of us. If we honestly try to do God's will to the best of our ability, we can handle the results of anything that happens. Seeking our Higher Power's will is a spiritual principle found in the steps. Working the steps and practicing the principles simplifi...
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Reflecting back,can make the difference!
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Morning! Woke again this morning ,house was 52 degrees,pipes gelled up again.We moved into this house in August after we sold our home where we lived for about 25 years.lOVE OUR RENTED HOUSE FOR NOW,BUT BACK TO OIL HEAT(HAD NATURAL GAS,EXPENSIVE,BUT NEVER RAN OUT!)Anyway,when I think back to the ti...
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Group conscience at home group business meeting--a possible change in. .
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Anyone with any expereince(strength and hope I KNOW I need. . !?# )in dealing with a home group re: a group conscience vote which now possibly appears unwise(re: changing the format of a meeting). The concern was that the meeting wasn't growing and therore not attracting new home group mem...
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I am no longer a victim.
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Morning!! As I was going thru some spiritual readings this morning the increased realization that today I no longer am a victim of my disease but through the mercy and grace of the God of my understanding I am an active agent of change.My life is shaped by the choices I make and by remaining God centere...
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NA Basic Text...gratefully engrossed
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Hi, I'm an addict and my drug of choice is whatever gets me off. For 18 months I have been going to AA (no NA in my area) and have been clean/sober for oh hey...7 months yesterday! Anyway, after attending outpatient group I saw the HUGE need for NA in my area and am starting a group. Our first meeting is Feb 1s...
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Indian snake scenes !!!
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Hi all, Thats a cobra, instant killer poison snake Im holdin. This happened on the full moon nite of 19 Jan/11. I was with someone special,,,, (pics are not very clear because it was taken with a 5mp cell phone camera)
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