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THE HOSTAGE BEGGING FOR FREEDOM
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THE HOSTAGE BEGGING FOR FREEDOM By Jayson Cole The hostage that could see no way out No matter how much he would scream and shout Locked away in a cell so deep A cold steel door no sign of a key His cries could not be heard by the world outside As he longed for the day that he might die Im the depths of his cell I he...
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a year ago today
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hello family just thought i'd share a little today is my belly button birthday and i'm so grateful i get to spend it clean and sober!!! my last birthday was truly awful!! Looking back it seems like it was more of a deadday than a birthday...i spent it in a crackhouse.. i was bonerail thin, had been up for da...
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I Need Help!
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Something I shouldn't be doing, but I really care so here goes...
Well, I'm a recovering Alcoholic/Drug Addict.
You could say I was a pretty high bottom person and it was meeting my fiance that saved my life. He introduced me to the program. He had 5 years off of crack/cocaine/pain pills/alcohol,...
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more of the same and worse
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Well it seems that im in the proces of becoming so detached from my soul by being in active addiction that im scared iŽll never get recovery. Iv been trying for over 3 yrs now and can only manage up to 2-3 months before relaps and thats with meetings, now im travling and havnt been to a meeting for ages and fe...
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BRETT, SANDRA, MAGELLAN, GALEON !!!
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Anyone heard from Brett, Sandra or Megellan? Been sometime since they posted here it seems... Hey guys & gals, miss you
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Scared
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Things have been so out of control. I feel like i'm drowning. I didn't go to school the last couple days at the end of this week, and i think i missed a quiz, and i'm spending money i don't have like crazy, and i can feel myself slip deeper and deeper into the cycle, i want so badly to call up that guy i met at the m...
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september7 just for today
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September 7 Resentment And Forgiveness "Where there has been wrong, the program teaches us the spirit of forgiveness."Basic Text p.12 In NA, we begin to interact with the world around us. We no longer live in isolation. But freedom from isolation has its price. The more we interact with p...
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daily journal how it helps
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When we're confused or in pain, our sponsor or people in meetings sometimes tells us to "write about it." Though we may groan as we drag out the notebook, we know that it will help. By laying it all out on paper, we give ourselves the chance to sort through what's bothering us. We know we can ge...
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Day one!!
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I am new to this forum or any forum for that matter. I guess i'v known for a long time that I was an addict, but never took the steps for recovery. Well here's my first step. I am and alcoholic/drug addict. I think I hit bottom this weekend when my husband was out of town and I just went nuts!! I spent sooo...
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Almost 48hr's sober
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Now i'm getting frusterated. I'm edgy and just flat irritated. I usually start drinking around 4pm (after work) and I know that I can't. Yesterday was easy because I felt like crap from the night before. Today, on the other hand, I feel good and am ready to party. I'm not going to though. I wonder if...
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Day 1 out of the way. (again)
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So, my parents booked me a plane ticket to come home to visit for a weekend a month from now, and i didn't really have any input into it, and i know that i'm not supposed to worry about anything but today, but i think that it is a REALLY bad idea that i go back home to visit this early in my recovery. I mean i go bac...
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september 6 just for today
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September 6 Regular Meeting Attendance "We have learned from our group experience that those who keep coming to our meetings regularly stay clean."Basic Text p.9 The NA program gives us a new pattern of living. One of the basic elements of that new pattern is regular meeting attendance....
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september 5 just for today
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September 5 Not Hopelessly Bad "We find that we suffer from a disease, not a moral dilemma. We were critically ill, not hopelessly bad."Basic Text p.16 For many of us, Narcotics Anonymous was the answer to a personal puzzle of long standing. Why did we always feel alone, even in a crowd, we w...
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Too many opinions
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Hi Family, I would like your opinion on my comments. I have not been using the NA book as much as I should. I am pulling most of it from my own experiences and thoughts which may not be too good. I would appreciate any comments that will help me to improve myself and help others. By the way my feelings don't g...
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Freedom
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I have a pair of wings on my back to symbolize the freedom I feel in sobriety but I have yet to feel completely free until this moment. An old drug dealer/"friend" called me and the only reason I answered was because I didn't recognize the number. Of course I recognized the voice as soon as he sa...
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Family Emergency Please Read
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Dear Family, I am sorry that we have not been in the rooms for the past 2 weeks. We have had a death in the family, Johns sister. We will be able to provide more information when we get home. We have been in Virginia taking care of family in the time of crisis. We will still be out of town for a few more da...
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Congratulations JustMe on 2 years CLEAN!!!
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WAY TO GO JustMe on your 2 year milestone!!! YOU ROCK NA :) Keep Coming Back!!!
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Happy 4 months clean Ken!!!
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Way to go Ken on 4 months CLEAN!!! Love and Hugs to ya brother!!!
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september 5 just for today
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September 5 Not Hopelessly Bad "We find that we suffer from a disease, not a moral dilemma. We were critically ill, not hopelessly bad."Basic Text p.16 For many of us, Narcotics Anonymous was the answer to a personal puzzle of long standing. Why did we always feel alone, even in a crowd, we w...
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can't get into meetings on chat page.
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for some reason I cant get into 10 o clock meetings and need to be there any suggestions?
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september 4 just for today
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September 4 Cluttered Spirits "We try to remember that when we make amends we are doing it for ourselves."Basic Text p.40 As long as we still owe amends, our spirits are cluttered with things we don't need. We're carrying the extra load of an apology owed, a resentment held, or unexpressed...
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Congratulations Jayson on 60 MIRACLES!!
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WAY TO GO JAYSON on 60 MIRACLES!!! YOU ROCK NA :) Love and hugs to ya brother!!! Green - Clean & Serene. FROG = Fully Rely On God! The color of money. We aren't spending it on dope anymore. Green for GO! Go to a lot of meetings. The grass is greener on the NA side. Now we're mowing it instead of smoking it...
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:)
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we all have a weakness for some reason i can't copy and paste this... have you heard the song 'Dig' by incubus?? check out the lyrics totally fits with recovery and our "we" program
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40 days clean
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And today my remodeling/redecoration is officially finished. The walls are painted, the new curtains are hung, and the last painting has just been put back on the wall. PHEW. And I got my bank account opened yesterday morning and the account number and everything is locked away in a filing cabinet so...
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I'm ready to take my recovery seriously
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Before I say anything further, tonight was pretty messed up, and i ended up flushing the rest of my dope down the toilet. i don't really know where to start, it's funny how not having a working car keeps me from getting to meetings, but doesn't keep me from walking downtown to get dope. I'm pretty sure a l...
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hey all
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Hey fam. I haven't been able to get on the computer as much as i wanted to lately. I just wanted to stop in while i had a sec and let everyone know i am still here. congrats to everyone on the anniversery's. well i have to get going this work thing is wild, it takes so much more effort when its legal but it is so mu...
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read this all/i have a warning to all
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this goes out to all and exspecial the newcomers. there is this guy(STEVEN) that been in here a few times. the one that says he knows me. will i do know him and i wish i never did. he was my drug dealer and more. will hes not clean and hes in here to see who he can get to talk to him about getting them drugs. s...
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amends
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sorry for not posting for awhile and not participating. its a character defect i work on........! tahir, you are so nice to notice! i hope everyone is gonna have at least one blessing today and lots more if possible. i think i will write out my gratitude list today
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prisoner once no more/ i have 57 days
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PRISONER ONCE NO MORE By Jayson Cole Have you stood beside your cell doors when they were open And known there was nothing to stop you from experiencing The world but yourself? I no longer need the cell doors for protection From the pain and fear of my former life. This is my life in my own words.........
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faith is 20 steps
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Faith IS 1. Faith is the ability to not panic. 2. If you worry, you didn't pray. If you pray, don't worry. 3. As a child of God, prayer is kind of like calling home every day. 4. Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape. 5. When we get tangled up in our problems, be still. God wants us to b...
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