I have a pair of wings on my back to symbolize the freedom I feel in sobriety but I have yet to feel completely free until this moment.
An old drug dealer/"friend" called me and the only reason I answered was because I didn't recognize the number. Of course I recognized the voice as soon as he said hello but I let him say what he wanted to say and then I hung up. I have a lot a shame that I carry because of him, because I have slept with him for drugs before. I sent him a text message and told him everything I felt like saying and I told him that I hate myself for what I did with him and that everytime I hear his voice I get sick. Just knowing that I got that off of my chest and I will never have to speak to him again feels so amazing.
So glad to hear that you did what you felt was right for you, Steffy. Way to go. Keep the miracle alive.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
