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hello all.....
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hello all.....hope you are having a better time of life than i am at this point......i am trying to detox, for the 3rd time, and feeling like i am not making much progress.....50 yrs old, mom of three, chronic pain and i guess relatively heavy use of Vicodin, on and off (mostly on) for the last 8 years or so...
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i can't do this anymore
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I just got back from the hospital, my best friend just ODed, and the only reason she got to the hospital was because i threatend the people she was with that weren't going to drive her to the hospital, she was a mess, she was on these machines, and she was just crying hysterically, she wouldn't even hug me,...
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be who you are
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somebody saved me
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SOMEBODY SAVED ME By: Jayson Cole As I walked though the valley of shadow of quilt. I take a look at my life and realize there's not much left. I roamed the streets at night. I learned how to steel and learned how to fight. I fought I lied, and did anything to get drugs. I hurt people that I loved to much. Somet...
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september 30 just for today
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September 30 Being Ourselves "Our real value is in being ourselves."Basic Text, p.101 Over and over, we have tried to live up to the expectations of those around us. We may have been raised believing that we were okay if we earned good grades in school, cleaned our rooms, or dressed a certai...
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a little scared and confused
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My boyfriend relapsed a couple days ago and told me about it yesterday. He said he was afraid to tell me because he thought I would want to go use now too. Actually the first thing that popped into my head when he told me was "I shouldn't be with him anymore." although i didn't say that. He tried t...
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So far so good.
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So i'm in my old hometown, and i just hooked up with some old friends (clean ones) and i'm really glad to be here, and using isn't on my mind has much as i thought it would be being here, i probably won't be able to make the online meetings this week, but i'll keep you guys updated
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september 29 just for today
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September 29 Just For Today "When we stop living in the here and now, our problems become magnified unreasonably."Basic Text, p.96 "Just for today" - it's a comforting thought. If we try to live in the past, we may find ourselves torn by painful, disquieting memories. The less...
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new members
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hello all......i just wanted to say hello.....i am a 50-yr old mother of three, Midwest resident for 20 yrs, Texan born and raised...we have beautiful children, Joseph, 18, a freshman at school in Iowa, Kyle, 15 yr old soph. in high school and my "pearl of great price," Hannah Joy, 11. i wa...
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Please read !!!
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something I read this day that I had to share with you all ! "Sharing Grief Opening To Receive Comfort When we experience something that causes us to feel shock and sadness, we may feel the urge to withdraw from life. It may seem like remaining withdrawn will keep us protected from the world, but du...
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Life With An Addict
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Don't know if I'm in the right place as I am a family member of an addict and not an addict. My ex husband has been addicted to drugs for over 20 years He has been in rehab twice only to turn back to the drugs. Last Jan he was found with drugs and arrested. He spent 3 months in jail to be released two weeks later an...
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Wantaneeda :) Congratulations!!!!
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WAY TO GO Wendy on 9 MONTHS CLEAN & FREE!!!! Yellow, my name is Wendy, I am an addict. It represents the sun. We can see it when we get up in the morning, instead of coming in after a night of using. There is nothing yellow about being in recovery. We're also pregnant with the program at 9 months. How do we...
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Congratulations on 90 DAYS!!!
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WAY TO GO Debbie on 90 days of freedom!!! Red - Stoplight, stop & look at your program. Thank God we're not dead. We should have RED our Basic Text by now. The color our eyes used to be when we got high, now they are red because we have feelings and we can cry today. 90 days. No slips, dips, or acid trips. Ho...
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september 28 just for today
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September 28 Hope "Gradually as we become more God-centered than self centered, our despair turns to hope."Basic Text, p.92 As using addicts, despair was our relentless companion. It colored our every waking moment. Despair was born of our experience in active addiction: No matter wh...
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I am going to start actively praying more
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for all the newcomers we have showing up to our meetings, many are really struglling with this thing and having a hard time hanging on to even a day or two. So lets get some community prayer going for these folks so they can join the living. Tonight I first give thanks to my higher power for this board and it...
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How do you deal with regret and shame?
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So last night, i started to think about my ex-girlfriend, and i was so overwhelmed with shame and regret i couldn't sleep, oh man.. she is the most amazing girl, but i was horrible to her, i always asked her for money, and took all her pain meds when she had surgery once, and lied to her, i lied to her so much,...
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god my higher power and best friend
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god my higher power and best friend by jayson cole god is my dad being that my real dad was never there and left me to deal with this cold cruel world all alone and god is the only one who has been pulling me thru it all. when i was four years old my r...
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september 27 just for today
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September 27 Right Back Up "There is something in our self-destructive personalities that cries for failure."Basic Text, p.77 "Poor me; woe is me; look at me, my life is such a mess! I've fallen, and no matter how hard I try, I continue to fail!" Many of us came to NA singing this s...
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september20 just for today
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this is jayson cole i changed my named September 20 Courage To Change "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."Serenity Prayer Recovery involves change, and change means doing things di...
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september26 just for today
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September 26 Seeing Ourselves In Others "It will not make us better people to judge the faults of another."Basic Text, p.37 How easy it is to point out the faults of others! There's a reason for this: The defects we identify most easily in others are often the defects we are most familiar wit...
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Beauty of Autum !!
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Hi all, i had to share what I read today !!! Autumn's Beauty The birth of autumn is an event missed by many. Autumn reveals itself slowly, hovering on the edges of our consciousness until its crisp breezes are strong enough to pierce our summer clothing, and we notice for the first time the transformati...
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i still get stoned...
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but in a whole different sorta way today :) when i was little my grampa was a carpenter and i would use his hammer to crush rocks..i remember my amazement at the sparkle and many different colors.. skip ahead a few years to forgeting what real joy and happiness is i found a different kind of rock that dam n...
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peace with the past
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You are reading from the book The Language of Letting Go. Peace with the Past Even God cannot change the past. --Agathon Holding on to the past, either through guilt, longing, denial, or resentment, is a waste of valuable energy - energy that can be used to transform today and tomorrow. "I used to...
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Congratulations Keli !!
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WAY TO GO Keli on 60 MIRACLES on the 20th !!! Green - Clean & Serene. FROG = Fully Rely On God! The color of money. We aren't spending it on dope anymore. Green for GO! Go to a lot of meetings. The grass is greener on the NA side. Now we're mowing it instead of smoking it. 60 days. How do we get it? We go to meet...
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Clean for another day.. i guess..
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So i walked god knows how far to this place where there is an NA meeting, (no subway stops near there), it was in this huge cathedral, but i couldn't find where to go in to the meeting, all the doors i tried were locked, and on my way walking back (threw a sorta shady area) a homeless man stopped me and asked fo...
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september 25 just for today
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September 25 The Fourth Step - Fearing Our Feelings "We may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic."Basic Text, p.29 A common complaint about the Fourth Step is that it makes us painfully conscious of our defects of charact...
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I AM
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I AM by JAYSON COLE I am! Cold winds blow against me and I know that I am only one step away! I am on my own and none understand Where I have been! I am alone though I am among many! I am a ADDICT
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i'm scared i'm going to use again.
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my boyfriend and i are having a rough patch and school/college stuff is back in full swing. and i'm stressed. the shit with my boyfriend is really killing me. i called my dealer today and i asked if could get some stuff, but then i realized i don't have the money. but i'll do whatever it takes, and it's so w...
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Why do we feel as a failure (passing it on)
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the whole idea of failure, including the painful sense of self it creates, is a lie you need no longer live with. Truth #1 The truth is... nothing in life can stop you from starting your life all over, at anytime, because the true fabric of life is a cosmic weave of ceaseless beginnings. That's right. The...
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september 23 just for today
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September 23 Dealing With Gossip "In accordance with the principles of recovery, we try not to judge, stereotype, or moralize with each other."Basic Text, p.11 Let's face it: In Narcotics Anonymous, we live in a glass house of sorts. Our fellow members know more about our personal lives...
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