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trueakitalover · trueakitalover

Hello all I am Shannon and an addict, Yesterday I went to Church and as I walked into the sanctuary all I saw were white carnations all over the place. I looked at the board and realized it was All Saints Sunday. I took my spot as usual all the way in the back in the pew. I sat there and I started to feel some f...

Jen08 · Jen08

Hi.... I just discovered this forum, so I thought it would be a good place to start. Start, that is, since I'm on day 2 of being clean after being on opiates for about 4 years. I've lost so much...thousands and thousands of dollars, my self-esteem, my trust with my husband. (He had no idea) Yesterday I...

kitizzy · kitizzy

I have been "absent" from the board for awhile. I have been here I have just been lurking. I am now 90 days clean, and for now I still have no desire to use again. I have been challenged over the past month. Whenever I am challenged, my energy goes inward, and I become quiet. A little background a...

Honey Bear · Honey Bear

I dropped my husband off at work this morning at 4:30 am He is a fleet manager for a major super market chain. He sends all the trucks out and he works mad hours like 14 hours and then he comes home and works on his MASTERS degree for addiction and he makes his meetings too. I stopped at our local gas statio...

BigV · BigV

Naw no trouble here today only gratitude. I woke this morning from a strange dream not going into details but it was weird LOL but I also had some thoughts mostly gratitude I thought about where my life had been going just a few years back and where I could be today if something hadn't changed. Next though...

dan h · dan h

The following is the philosophy of Charles Schultz, the creator of the "Peanuts" comic strip. You don't have to actually answer the questions. Just read the e-mail straight through, and you'll get the point. 1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world. 2. Name the last five Heisman tr...

BigV · BigV

November 17, 2008 Walking through the pain Page 335 "We never have to use again, no matter how we feel. All feelings will eventually pass." Basic Text p. 79 It hurts like never before. You get out of bed after a sleepless night, talk to God, and still don't feel any better. "It will...

Scott · Scott

Hey, sorry i don't post much, i don't really have internet consistantly, im "borrowing" it from my neighbors wireless router right now.. so much for a program of honesty lol, well i moved outta the sober living home i was at for the last 8 months, got my own place now, about to get my CNA (Certi...

Brett thomas · Brett thomas

I miss wilmington and the people there. No contact with them since greg died, I haven't been the same either, depression hastaken over and I have pretty much given up, I went and drank, did a little crack, and smoked some weed, but that didn't help either, so I haven't done nothing in god knows how long n...

trueakitalover · trueakitalover

Hi shannon addict, I am sorry I know you guys are sick of hearing about my Pastor and his retirement well today was the day. Last sermon was really a great one of the best he has done. He stood up on the pulpit in Authentic Lutheransim way and said: I am your Pastor, and I am human and if I have caused anyone...

Just2Day · Just2Day

I know that I am still very new to this all and maybe that is my problem but, I go through these ups and downs that are really hard to handle. One minute I am excited and ready to live clean and sober and the next minute I feel like it is a hopeless battle field and I am leading the losing side. Is this normal? If i...

needanswers · needanswers

I just can't bring my self to share this dark hidden sexual crap with another person. I know it is hindering my growth, spritual relationship with Higher Power etc. Why is this so difficult. Would rather crawl under a rock then take chance of rejection..."That's some sick shit dude." ...

eternalwaste · eternalwaste

Hey everyone. I'm new here, and not sure what to write. But, I am dying to talk to people with the same problems as me, well, my boyfriend has the same problems, but I need to talk to somebody who can help me get through this disease I have. It all started like this.. I grew up with a normal family, was never ab...

Just2Day · Just2Day

I am a new NA member trying to get a feel for things. I am really enjoying the meetings and support that comes along with it. However, I am having a really difficult time with sobriety. I am 19 years old and I have been using for 5 years. The only life that I know is drugs, heroin in particular. I have 6 days cl...

BigV · BigV

"We eventually have to stand on our own feet and face life on its own terms, so why not from the start." Basic Text p.85 Some of us feel that we should protect newcomers by telling them that, while everything used to be horrible, now we're in recovery it's all wonderful. We feel that we might...

Tahir · Tahir

I'm grateful to have gotten a lot of inspiration, strength and hope from reading the recent posts here by many of you. It's great stuff, just what I need, as if my Higher Power has chosen to speak to me through MIP, as it has so often happened in my recovery for a long time now. Thank you so much for sharing an...

steveo · steveo

Hi there, My name is Steve. I've been recovering for four years now on my own. I had a bad addiction to meth. My solution was to pick up and move hundreds of miles from my home town. I wound up volunterring my time. This all worked out good for me. The problem I'm haveing now and could use some advice on is this...

Manon · Manon

well my morning will start @ 8 am with housing authority then to a renal scan then to the specialist about this blockage I am really worried to find everything out I seem to be being hit by a double whammy but I am still trucking on or trying my best without falling apart. I will post an update as I return from...

Raman · Raman

What a day that was,,, drove 100 miles to a PI meeting. Then took a walk on the coast. In the meanwhile i was getting bad vibes form the newer member from UK and an NA who was a refugee. They didnt want to walk,, so instead of going with the so called majority off i went for a 3 mile walk. Glad I did,,glad I decide...

dan h · dan h

Hi Family, I'm Dan, an addict in recovery. Been a while since I posted so I wanted to check in. I was thinking about all those "lost week-ends" today as mine winds down. (I work Saturday thru Wednesday, off Thurs and Fri) I came back to work tonight (3rd shift) and I'm pretty tired but I have a n...

ItsAllGolden · ItsAllGolden

I am not looking for pity, nor am I sitting around boo-hoo'ing (at the moment)...I just need to go off on a blind rant. I'm really sick and tired at the moment of all this shit that life has been throwing at me. I moved to Georgia filled with a hope that I have not had since very early on in recovery. A hope of a b...

nialluth · nialluth

Well it started when i was about 8 years old i started smoking and drinking and never really stopped and by the time i was 13 i was locked up in a juvenile justice centre for people under 16 because of my durg and alcohol use i would steal to buy drugs and alcohol and i would burgle houses and even started to mu...

razzberry · razzberry

Anyone out there know the pain of a mother whose son has lost his way to drugs and alcohol? My son has been through the ip/op process, residential treatment, halfway house, meetings and more meetings. All by age 22. Now "he's on his own" - living with another addict in recovery but who has...

ItsAllGolden · ItsAllGolden

I have a beautiful friend that always says her Higher Power is the God of her Misunderstanding...mostly due to the fact that she's always tried to figure out the whole God concept, something concrete and understandable, and was always left empty-handed since there's so much that remains a mystery i...

Raman · Raman

Hi Dean,Vin,Tahir,Dan,Anrthony,Blithe and all you lovely folks. I really am seeing a difference here in meetings from the way we do it in India and presumably in US. Here they refer to each other freely in sharings. An example when X is sharing he /she amy well say "You said in your sharing tha etc...

justtina · justtina

just checking in to say hi while i have access to computer! 12 days clean by the way...had good treatment/therapy in the great white north eh? lotsa love too..amazing what being off those damn pills can do in a short while! hard work but good things already happening! found out what i realized all along...

galeon · galeon

today i am so grateful for the love and honesty of my circle of trusted friends in recovery, when my addict takes over and i isolate or whatever they call or i call them and the gift of recovery is magic when one addict talks to another sharing experiance strength and hope, god bless u all and i will take ano...

justtina · justtina

first time posting...opiate addict in 1st week of sobriety for over 8 yrs...just had the biggest scare of my life as almost lost professional licensure...did lose job though as an end result of long term addiction and all the lying bullshit that goes with it...3rd one in less than 2 years becuz of add...

TALKING · TALKING

i need an old mate to help with benzos,dex,morph etc!!! please help

Dave m · Dave m

I am an addict my name is dave m. i could kick my self in the head. Why can't I get it right?? I just don't know what to do?? I am not lying to myself but I am to ....... I fea lthe helplessness. I am afraid. What do I do now??

Topic		Started By	Replies	Views	Last Post
	A day of rememberance and embracing the pain without sabotaging myself and my recovery. (Preview) Hello all I am Shannon and an addict, Yesterday I went to Church and as I walked into the sanctuary all I saw were white carnations all over the place. I looked at the board and realized it was All Saints Sunday. I took my spot as usual all the way in the back in the pew. I sat there and I started to feel some f...	trueakitalover	10	527	Nov 20, 2008 by trueakitalover
	New and fairly lost... (Preview) Hi.... I just discovered this forum, so I thought it would be a good place to start. Start, that is, since I'm on day 2 of being clean after being on opiates for about 4 years. I've lost so much...thousands and thousands of dollars, my self-esteem, my trust with my husband. (He had no idea) Yesterday I...	Jen08	11	465	Nov 20, 2008 by rocky
	Quiet but not missing (Preview) I have been "absent" from the board for awhile. I have been here I have just been lurking. I am now 90 days clean, and for now I still have no desire to use again. I have been challenged over the past month. Whenever I am challenged, my energy goes inward, and I become quiet. A little background a...	kitizzy	8	602	Nov 19, 2008 by ANJ
	" NA FOR QUITERS......Hmmmm I geuss it is........" (Preview) I dropped my husband off at work this morning at 4:30 am He is a fleet manager for a major super market chain. He sends all the trucks out and he works mad hours like 14 hours and then he comes home and works on his MASTERS degree for addiction and he makes his meetings too. I stopped at our local gas statio...	Honey Bear	4	515	Nov 19, 2008 by Davethewave
	I was thinking this morning ( UH OH TROUBLE ) (Preview) Naw no trouble here today only gratitude. I woke this morning from a strange dream not going into details but it was weird LOL but I also had some thoughts mostly gratitude I thought about where my life had been going just a few years back and where I could be today if something hadn't changed. Next though...	BigV	2	486	Nov 19, 2008 by rocky
	Charles Schultz (Peanuts) Philosophy (Preview) The following is the philosophy of Charles Schultz, the creator of the "Peanuts" comic strip. You don't have to actually answer the questions. Just read the e-mail straight through, and you'll get the point. 1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world. 2. Name the last five Heisman tr...	dan h	2	464	Nov 19, 2008 by AnthonyG
	ALL I HAVE FOR ANYONE TODAY IS THIS, THIS IS WHAT I NEEDED TOO ( have a nice day ) (Preview) November 17, 2008 Walking through the pain Page 335 "We never have to use again, no matter how we feel. All feelings will eventually pass." Basic Text p. 79 It hurts like never before. You get out of bed after a sleepless night, talk to God, and still don't feel any better. "It will...	BigV	9	550	Nov 18, 2008 by BigV
	Just an update (Preview) Hey, sorry i don't post much, i don't really have internet consistantly, im "borrowing" it from my neighbors wireless router right now.. so much for a program of honesty lol, well i moved outta the sober living home i was at for the last 8 months, got my own place now, about to get my CNA (Certi...	Scott	1	447	Nov 18, 2008 by BigV
	been a while... (Preview) I miss wilmington and the people there. No contact with them since greg died, I haven't been the same either, depression hastaken over and I have pretty much given up, I went and drank, did a little crack, and smoked some weed, but that didn't help either, so I haven't done nothing in god knows how long n...	Brett thomas	10	506	Nov 17, 2008 by Manon
	I can't keep what I have without giving it away! (Preview) Hi shannon addict, I am sorry I know you guys are sick of hearing about my Pastor and his retirement well today was the day. Last sermon was really a great one of the best he has done. He stood up on the pulpit in Authentic Lutheransim way and said: I am your Pastor, and I am human and if I have caused anyone...	trueakitalover	5	621	Nov 16, 2008 by trueakitalover
	That Hopeless Feeling (Preview) I know that I am still very new to this all and maybe that is my problem but, I go through these ups and downs that are really hard to handle. One minute I am excited and ready to live clean and sober and the next minute I feel like it is a hopeless battle field and I am leading the losing side. Is this normal? If i...	Just2Day	8	495	Nov 16, 2008 by Raman
	Can't share this crap with anyone!!! (Preview) I just can't bring my self to share this dark hidden sexual crap with another person. I know it is hindering my growth, spritual relationship with Higher Power etc. Why is this so difficult. Would rather crawl under a rock then take chance of rejection..."That's some sick shit dude." ...	needanswers	29	825	Nov 16, 2008 by amyj
	I'm new here... (Preview) Hey everyone. I'm new here, and not sure what to write. But, I am dying to talk to people with the same problems as me, well, my boyfriend has the same problems, but I need to talk to somebody who can help me get through this disease I have. It all started like this.. I grew up with a normal family, was never ab...	eternalwaste	11	1015	Nov 16, 2008 by dan h
	New Here, New to the Program... (Preview) I am a new NA member trying to get a feel for things. I am really enjoying the meetings and support that comes along with it. However, I am having a really difficult time with sobriety. I am 19 years old and I have been using for 5 years. The only life that I know is drugs, heroin in particular. I have 6 days cl...	Just2Day	14	542	Nov 15, 2008 by trueakitalover
	No matter what (Preview) "We eventually have to stand on our own feet and face life on its own terms, so why not from the start." Basic Text p.85 Some of us feel that we should protect newcomers by telling them that, while everything used to be horrible, now we're in recovery it's all wonderful. We feel that we might...	BigV	4	486	Nov 14, 2008 by Just2Day
	Gratitude List Just For Today... (Preview) I'm grateful to have gotten a lot of inspiration, strength and hope from reading the recent posts here by many of you. It's great stuff, just what I need, as if my Higher Power has chosen to speak to me through MIP, as it has so often happened in my recovery for a long time now. Thank you so much for sharing an...	Tahir	4	1215	Nov 14, 2008 by Nov1969
	New guy (Preview) Hi there, My name is Steve. I've been recovering for four years now on my own. I had a bad addiction to meth. My solution was to pick up and move hundreds of miles from my home town. I wound up volunterring my time. This all worked out good for me. The problem I'm haveing now and could use some advice on is this...	steveo	9	489	Nov 13, 2008 by steveo
	SCARED (Preview) well my morning will start @ 8 am with housing authority then to a renal scan then to the specialist about this blockage I am really worried to find everything out I seem to be being hit by a double whammy but I am still trucking on or trying my best without falling apart. I will post an update as I return from...	Manon	8	625	Nov 13, 2008 by Manon
	Touch base with nature,,, (Preview) What a day that was,,, drove 100 miles to a PI meeting. Then took a walk on the coast. In the meanwhile i was getting bad vibes form the newer member from UK and an NA who was a refugee. They didnt want to walk,, so instead of going with the so called majority off i went for a 3 mile walk. Glad I did,,glad I decide...	Raman	2	575	Nov 11, 2008 by Raman
	A Busy Life (Preview) Hi Family, I'm Dan, an addict in recovery. Been a while since I posted so I wanted to check in. I was thinking about all those "lost week-ends" today as mine winds down. (I work Saturday thru Wednesday, off Thurs and Fri) I came back to work tonight (3rd shift) and I'm pretty tired but I have a n...	dan h	3	400	Nov 11, 2008 by ANJ
	I need a tangent... (Preview) I am not looking for pity, nor am I sitting around boo-hoo'ing (at the moment)...I just need to go off on a blind rant. I'm really sick and tired at the moment of all this shit that life has been throwing at me. I moved to Georgia filled with a hope that I have not had since very early on in recovery. A hope of a b...	ItsAllGolden	11	464	Nov 11, 2008 by Tahir
	Here is my story. (Preview) Well it started when i was about 8 years old i started smoking and drinking and never really stopped and by the time i was 13 i was locked up in a juvenile justice centre for people under 16 because of my durg and alcohol use i would steal to buy drugs and alcohol and i would burgle houses and even started to mu...	nialluth	10	401	Nov 11, 2008 by ryrym
	New to the board, not so new to to heartache of a mother (Preview) Anyone out there know the pain of a mother whose son has lost his way to drugs and alcohol? My son has been through the ip/op process, residential treatment, halfway house, meetings and more meetings. All by age 22. Now "he's on his own" - living with another addict in recovery but who has...	razzberry	8	515	Nov 10, 2008 by ItsAllGolden
	God of My Mis-Understanding (Preview) I have a beautiful friend that always says her Higher Power is the God of her Misunderstanding...mostly due to the fact that she's always tried to figure out the whole God concept, something concrete and understandable, and was always left empty-handed since there's so much that remains a mystery i...	ItsAllGolden	4	465	Nov 10, 2008 by BigV
	Meetings here in UK !! (Preview) Hi Dean,Vin,Tahir,Dan,Anrthony,Blithe and all you lovely folks. I really am seeing a difference here in meetings from the way we do it in India and presumably in US. Here they refer to each other freely in sharings. An example when X is sharing he /she amy well say "You said in your sharing tha etc...	Raman	16	623	Nov 10, 2008 by Raman
	higher power...checking in..... (Preview) just checking in to say hi while i have access to computer! 12 days clean by the way...had good treatment/therapy in the great white north eh? lotsa love too..amazing what being off those damn pills can do in a short while! hard work but good things already happening! found out what i realized all along...	justtina	3	371	Nov 10, 2008 by Tahir
	recovery and relapse (Preview) today i am so grateful for the love and honesty of my circle of trusted friends in recovery, when my addict takes over and i isolate or whatever they call or i call them and the gift of recovery is magic when one addict talks to another sharing experiance strength and hope, god bless u all and i will take ano...	galeon	3	365	Nov 8, 2008 by Tahir
	finally got the balls to talk (Preview) first time posting...opiate addict in 1st week of sobriety for over 8 yrs...just had the biggest scare of my life as almost lost professional licensure...did lose job though as an end result of long term addiction and all the lying bullshit that goes with it...3rd one in less than 2 years becuz of add...	justtina	6	498	Nov 7, 2008 by ItsAllGolden
	benzos,dex,morph hints help!!!!!! juggle (Preview) i need an old mate to help with benzos,dex,morph etc!!! please help	TALKING	2	602	Nov 7, 2008 by BigV
	Lost (Preview) I am an addict my name is dave m. i could kick my self in the head. Why can't I get it right?? I just don't know what to do?? I am not lying to myself but I am to ....... I fea lthe helplessness. I am afraid. What do I do now??	Dave m	5	384	Nov 5, 2008 by Tahir
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