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One week down
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Hello, sorry if I am hogging the board lately but you are my only support so far with the MA chat room I joined but that can get a little crazy. i tried to find live meetings but they are either right at my son's bedtime or one was at 10 a.m. and I coudn't get a sitter but I'll keep trying. I had another night of ni...
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Need a little support
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Hi fellow brave souls, For the first time ever I think I need to admit my problem. I'm a single mom and I'm doing well at work and supporting my son but inside I am falling apart. I have an addiction to pot that I can't let go of. Almost nobody knows about it. All these years I've told myself it's okay because i...
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february 22 just for today
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February 22 God's Will, Or Mine?
"We continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it."
Step Ten In Narcotics Anonymous, we've found that the more we live in harmony with our Higher Power's will for us, the greater the harmony in our lives. We use the Tent...
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quick update
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I have completed the first of 4 weeks of IOP things are ok my ADHD is driving me and everyone else nuts but I am trying to get meds that work for that me and my doctor are working hand in hand to keep things tolerable it is a 3 hours program by the third hour I have so many ants in my pants I am looking for an excuse t...
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Big V and AnthonyG
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Hi guys,
I see you guys are senior members. How long has it been for you? You are both very wise. Thank you for all your help and kind words. Even though I started by admitting, I credit you for saving me.
A few words go a very long way when they are said from the heart.
How can I thank you?! - em
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emily
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detox symptoms fully active!
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Hi,
I have been clean from pot for 5 days! At first it was easier than now. I had a night full of nightmare and non-sleep. I am coughing up cr*p like crazy, I had night sweats and depression! ACK! What a way to live huh?
The good news is I know it means I am recovering...my body is getting rid of the bad and n...
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emily
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relapse
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My son was in rehab for cocaine and alcohol addiction in October. He was released the first of November and has been doing very well... has been doing either an AA or NA meeting daily. He has found Jesus and has been living a clean life. Last night, for reasons I do not understand, he went out and bought a ba...
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Got through the week
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Hello and thank you all for your help and all the love!
this is such a warm and kind group.
I wish I could meet you all face-to-face for real hugs!
I used to work the steps when my XH - severe alcoholic - was out of control, and I went to Al Anon (for families of addicts). I never thought that I was out of co...
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emily
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i had a dream...
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hello, i had a draem last night...i met my ex boyfriend and he was holding lots of rokc..i was clean in my dream..i didn't use...but u know...i can't explain my feelings now... sad... and i want to say hello and hug you all ...and i love you..
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deniz
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The Gift
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Hi guys, Been awhile since I posted I need to get on some more. Im at 8 months and 15 days without using any drugs. Im not going to go into all the miracles that have graced me. They are numerous and I am grateful. I notice a few newcomers struggling a bit in here. Id like to tell all of you welcome to the boar...
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Hi, I'm Lee, a grateful recoverying u-know-what
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New online here-clean date 4/6/83. Was active in VA (mtgs & service), not so much here in rural NH. Glad to have a cyber community. Issue of the day-trying not to project into next week! Details are irrelvant. Just need to acknowledge that that is what I am doing so I can get a grip and stop doing it! L...
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"Defeated Girl"... You're on my mind...
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Please check in... Whether or not you're clean or have used... We don't judge and we'll love you until you can love yourself! I've just been thinking about you and wanting to hear from you! {{{hugs}}}
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For Jana
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Hello Jana,
Thank you so much for your notes of support. Regarding meetings, no I have not gone yet. I joined MariJ Anon, chat, that helps a lot.
My X Alcohollc was so out of control I joined Al anon, so I am very familiar with the steps and use them a lot lately!
Not to make excuses but I have two jobs and a 5...
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today is my birthday
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thatsright today ismy b-day and it hit me early in the am that i am that i am still here and i oweit to being sober this time last year i was in a daze and didnt know it was my b-day till 3 days after it had came and went so i thank you all and the big jc i am here lord
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Feeling guity
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I will be honest and admitt that I am on medication that got me sober and keeps me sober. Anyways the medication is suppose to stop the cravings and so on. To an extent is has but lately I think my cravings are getting really bad and it is not even the high I'm craving as it is the procedure itslef. And the ins...
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Today is day 3 for me!
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Hi, thanking everyone for your notes to me, you have been so helpful!! I hate to admit this is not as hard as I thought at times. Other times it's harder. But I think I can do it, no, I know I can. I just want to be normal. I am a good person, I don't want to hide under red eyes and a foggy brain any more. That is not...
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I BELIEVE
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I BELIEVE Birth Certificate shows that we were born A Death Certificate shows that we died Pictures show that we lived! Have a seat . . . Relax . . . And read this slowly. I Believe... That just because two people argue, It doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, It doesn...
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How I perceive myself VS reality
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When I started using opiates ten years ago, I felt like I found something wonderful. That first high gave me confidence, serenity, peace...I actually think it did that for quite a while, even though the lengths I would go to get them said otherwise: stealing medication from my dying grandmother, and...
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i donšt know why i am sad.......
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Hello everyone.My name is pascal,i am an addict.Išve been clean for almost 6 months now,everything was allright,better.....but a few weeks ago,a girlfriend form my group commit suicide....i started to be isoleted again for a few days,itšs been really hard to go to the funeral and stuff......but...
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DAY TWO for me, please stay with me
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Hello, Got through yesterday 1 with one set back. Usually it would have been about 14+ setbacks. I know it is not abstinence but I think it was a good day. I am flip flopping today between feeling great about doing this to wanting to go backwards and wishing I had never opened my eyes. But as I read all of you...
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nervous
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I am flustered and nervous because for the next month I will be in IOP with who knows how many ppl and that makes me scared because I don't do well with ppl not face to face that is why I have friends via the internet it is easier this way but at the same time i have to learn to socialize at an age appropriate leve...
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february 19 just for today
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February 19 Reservations "Relapse is never an accident. Relapse is a sign that we have a reservation in our program."Basic Text, p. 76 A reservation is something we set aside for future use. In our case, a reservation is the expectation that, if such-and-such happens, we will surely rela...
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february 18 just for today
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February 18 The Recovery Partnership "As long as I take it easy and make a commitment with my Higher Power to do the best I can, I know I will be taken care of today"Basic Text, p. 120 Many of us feel that our fundamental commitment in recovery is to our Higher Power. Knowing that we lack the powe...
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PEACE IN THE MOMENT.
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HELLO ALL- IT HAS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I HAVE POSTED. I WILL BE CELEBRATING 10 MONTHS ON THE 25TH. I AM ENJOYING EVERY SOBER AND CLEAN MOMENT WITH MY LITTLE ALASKA (3 MONTHS OLD NOW) AND MY HUSBAND. I AM FOREVER GRATEFUL FOR THIS FORUM AND EVERYONE OF YOU. WHEN I WAS PREGNANT I WAS HAVING TROUBLE GET...
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i need some help.
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im 17. im a heroin and cocaine addict. i can admit that i have a problem and i dont know where to start. can anyone help me?
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I regret some of my past, but I'm trying to live in today
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Yeah theres things wish I could change but we have to learn to accept our past. A long time ago I have a beautiful girlfriend , I wish I had given her that diamond ring she wanted so bad, but I didn't I laughed at her. I wish I never had smoked that first damn cigarette, but I didn't. I wish I would have cared mo...
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I feel weird
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Today is day 2 for me, I am still taking the Ultram to help with detox and so far, no diarrhea and the depression is NOTHING like normal. It's working, and for that I'm grateful. However, today I feel....weird. I wish I could think of a better word, but just weird. Kind of anxious, wired, but at the same tim...
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A warm hello from Leeds/UK members !
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Twas Maxines 3rd year clean anniversary. I took snaps and they were glad I wanted to share it with yall. They send yu warm hugs and hellos. Then the blokes are Chris,Bernie,Andrew,Mic and Andre !!!! -- Edited by Raman at 17:56, 2009-02-15
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Just for today....NO FEAR
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JUST FOR TODAY I will be UNAFRAID my thoughts will be on my new associations. People who are not using and found a new way of life. So long as I follow that way, I have NOTHING TO FEAR. For many years I have lived in fear. I feared I had no higher power. Or worse I feared my higher power had it out for me. It s...
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Living with an addict
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Hello.. im 45 years old and my partner is 31 years old. I had been addicted to something for over 30 years. It started out drinking, then sex, then pot, and then prescription narcotics. I had major surgery 2 years ago as a result of my addictions. Two years ago one of my using buddies hung herself and 1...
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