Hi..here's two links for you-the first is for the Nar-Anon family/friends headquarters web page (which can also locate live meetings where you live) and the second is for online meetings for you
"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
it is AWESOME that you are seeking help for yourself....Good for you and good luck:) 12step fellowships are amazing and divinely inspired. There is hope and love there for all who seek it. Takes some willingness which you obviously have:)