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feeling better about life
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yes still struggling but I no longer live in fear I have been getting iut which is amazing it feels great to feel like me again
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Has anyone thought much about Perception ?
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I have lately due to becoming aware of the fact that my PERCEPTION of things can really get pretty F'd up at times. How i perceive something seems to come from an intuition or a belief I can even imagine whats meant or being said , and it can be wrong and I act on what I THINK and FEEL and often that action...
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JFT October 27 Living in the present
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October 27 Living in the presentWe want to look our past in the face, see it for what it really was, and release it so we can live today. Basic Text, p. 29 = For many of us, the past is like a bad dream.Our lives arent the same any more, but we still have fleeting, highly charged emotional memories of a really u...
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JFT October 25 Principles before personalities
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October 25 Principles before personalitiesAnonymity is the spiritual foundation of all our traditions, ever reminding us to place principles before personalities. Tradition Twelve = Principles before personalities. Many of us chant these words along with the reader whenever the Twelve Tra...
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( Just for today October 26 ) The path to self-acceptance
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"The most effective means of achieving self-acceptance is through applying the Twelve Steps of recovery." IP No.19, "Self-Acceptance" Our addiction has been a source of shame to many of us. We have hidden ourselves from others, sure that if anyone got to know who we really we...
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JFT October 26 The path to self acceptance
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October 26 The path to self-acceptanceThe most effective means of achieving self-acceptance is through applying the Twelve Steps of recovery. IP No. 19, Self-Acceptance = Our addiction has been a source of shame to many of us. We have hidden ourselves from others, sure that if anyone got to know wh...
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What am i to expect?
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I have just made a conscious decision to stop taking my hydrocodone tomorrow. I have been thinking about it for a long long time but as soon as I feel even the slightest bit of anxiety I take them .I have been fortunate enough to have them prescribed to me so I haven't had to buy them on the street. I have had a...
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DAMN
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OK he pissed his boss off by asking for money to spend and get back home his boss said no so now it will be a longer stay but he is going to work like it or not I can't take much more he has to go and soon I enjoy the company at times but I also enjoy my silence which is hard to get when the tv is constantly on??? well s...
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Central Area & Mission Peak Area (Bay Area, Northern California)
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Good evening family, I am looking to meet up with folks from the bay area (womens meetings preferrably) i dont drive so im kinda at the mercy of public transportation...but there are some meetings that i just cant get to by bus...would anyone be open to picking me up for a meeting?
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in need of encouragement, advice, and direction
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My license was suspended in 2006 after failure to comply with rnp. I was convicted of a felony drug charge while in rnp. I am going before the board October 20, 2010 to recieve my new rnp packet for reentry into the rnp. I have been clean and actively working a 12 step program for 16 months. I've been scopin...
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hey everyone
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Hey guys..... you know i'm not very good at posting often, but i definitely read most of the threads..... My life is going on with a lot of bumps lately and I have had to make some tough decisions......There is also a lot of great things occurring in my life... my whole year of college is covered in scholar...
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wow
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i havent posted in a while. but i thought i would check in. im doing ok. i used a month ago but have been clean since. i twisted a muscle in my back yesterday at work so im in a lot of pain. and i twisted my knee too at work yesterday and thats killing me. i might have to have surgury. its killing me. but there ya go...
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peace at last
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remind me to never do that again way too much stress but they are on thier way home I am not sure how I feel about it but I know I am not walking on egg shells anymore he is glad to be going home he was supposed to leave at 3 am this morning but too drunk would not let him travel so I took him today his bus arrive 6 some...
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checking in
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thought I would let you know I am still clean once again willbe working step one soon I can't get over being powerless i guess that is where Ialways get stuck but if nothing changes nothing changes I am stressed out ready for my company to leave and just trying to take things breath by breath anxiety anf ap...
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JFt October 24 Responsibility
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October 24 ResponsibilityWe are not responsible for our disease, only for our recovery. As we begin to apply what we have learned, our lives begin to change for the better. Basic Text, p. 91 = The further we go in recovery, the less we avoid responsibility for ourselves and our actions. By applying t...
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Just want to scream
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Hi family I just need to get this out of my head. I'm working a fourth again and I just finished resentments this morning and all afternoon I can feel the anger levels raising....I am such an addict I want to feel better NOW I know by morning this will have passed and I'll wonder what all the fuss was about bu...
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JFT October 23 Surrender
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October 23 Surrender By surrendering control, we gain a far greater power. Basic Text, p. 44 = When we were using, we did everything we could to run things our way. We used every scheme imaginable to bring our world under control. When we got what we wanted, we felt powerful, invincible; when we didnt...
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God's will be done!
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If you would just reflect with me for a moment, my son and his girlfriends baby didn't make it..She was supposedly 6 weeks but we all thought she was farther along.No blood flowing through or heartbeat or movement.Obviously as parents we have mixed emotions.Both kids were on 110/80 mg's respect...
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breath by breath
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my frustration level is high living without a "num" is not easy I wanna pill out just to sleep but knowing how i will feel after is what is keeping things in aspect my life is umanagable need to get a book sponsor suggested can't till the first gonna try to get to a face to face meeting prolly a cou...
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good byes
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I have never been good at good byes and the person that has been staying with the good and the bad times will be departing monday befor the sun is even thinking of coming up but he will be going back to Colorado I am ina asense very grateful he is going but now i will sit in silence again I don't know if that is wh...
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JFT October 22 Look who's talking
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October 22 Look whos talkingOur disease is so cunning that it can get us into impossible situations. Basic Text, p. 83 = Some of us say, My disease is talking to me. Others say, My head wont turn off. Still others refer to the committee in my mind or the monkey on my back. Lets face it. We suffer from an i...
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JFT October 21 God's will today
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October 21 Gods will todayThis decision demands continued acceptance, ever-increasing faith, and a daily commitment to recovery. IP No. 14, One Addicts Experience = Sometimes, we really live the Third Stepand its great!We dont regret the past, we arent afraid of the future, and were generally pl...
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Day Two
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Hello. I have 2 days today. I am a periodic, but i just don't want to do it at all anymore. I don't even really want to do it anymore yet i already am thinking about it. It's almost like there is something in me that wants to make myself feel bad. I can't get the java thing totally set up so i wont be able to g...
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JFT October 20 Freedom to choose
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October 20 Freedom to chooseEnforced morality lacks the power that comes to us when we choose to live a spiritual life. Basic Text, p. 45 = In our active addiction, many of us lived our lives by default.We were unwilling or unable to make choices about how we wanted to act, what we preferred to do, or even...
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oops
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day one all over abgain no justifications no rationalizations i chose to drink I am sorry for the stupid thing i did but i owe only me an apology but i let everyone down I don't know much else to say just wanted to admit my wrong choice
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Family Time
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Morning everyone! Hope this day finds you blessed!! Stopping in to let you know Friday morning,early, we are heading to Rockport ,Massachusetts,(from upstate New York to spend 3 days with my mom and my brother,late birthday celebration for mom,86!!! Very quaint little fishing town right on the wa...
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boundries and new arrangments
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the room mate thing has been talked about he is on the couch and be taking care of himself till he can get back home I set boundries and "rules" sono more drama can be brought for today saw my shrink for the last time took him a cake with a straight jacket and EOD on the cake he was suprised made me fe...
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JFT October 19 Standing for something
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October 19 Standing for something...we could feel time, touch reality, and recognize spiritual values long lost to many of us. Basic Text, p. 88 = In our active addiction, we were prepared to compromise everything we believed in just to get our hands on more drugs. Whether we stole from our families...
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Help and advice please
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I have never posted on one of these boards before but I need some help. My son who is my life (as well as all my kids) is addicted to cocaine he is also an alcoholic. I found out he was using, confronted him on this, we had an intervention with the friends of his that are clean and the friends he has had the lon...
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JFT October 15 Choices
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October 15 Choices We did not choose to become addicts. Basic Text, p. 3 = When we were growing up, all of us had dreams. Every child has heard a relative or neighbor ask, What do you want to be when you grow up? Even if some of us didnt have elaborate dreams of success, most of us dreamed of work, families,...
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