yeatr after ytear my mnother tyrie to get me to decorAte for the holidays and it is just me here in the apt i see no need to promate SANTA nowI do celebratem my reason for the season for a savior was born a reaon to be able to have the peace I so desperatly look for health wise ok other than a migrane that hasn't gone away I seem to have been fighting it since October I am in a deep isolation point the phobias atre very active atm not knowing what too expect i still need to pay bills gotta have my laptop repaired now ppl know y i bought 2 computers lol now i am trying to decided wheather or not to fix or upograde but ythere is stuff on the old one i want errrrrrrrrrrrrr! ok I just decororated the house I had a pic took with me and santa I just put it in a frame so therer lol I am gonna have to look up websters defintation of normal although "I think that differes from person to person I know whatr is normal for me might not be normal for you mine is with out aligment to go to school atcually finish what i sytart and go to work in that field and live without being sick or scared all the time "a productive member of society" but deeper that that was intended
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Aw c'mon Manon, don't be a grinch....put up a few lights and get a little tree. One of those table top jobs are cute and easy to decorate. Hey.....then you bake some cookies and the whole place will smell like Christmas morning! My sponsor has a great saying that works for me when I work it. "Move a muscle....change a mood" When I get all up inside myself and the bogeyman of depression is hanging over me, I find that if I can start doing something .... ANYTHING, I can usually snap out of my funk. anyway, Christmas for many of us is a blue time. But it comes whether we want it to or not so like every thing else I 'm learning to try and make the best of it. The glass is half full. loving you at Christmas, avid.
Hey Manon! can't stop me :) ,I am wishing you peace and serenity and joy not only for the season but for each and everyday!Remember we never really have learned to live until we've done something for someone who can never repay us!!.Especially at this time of year ,I will seek that opportunity out,not for me but to give glory to my Higher Power!..Good to see ya!!!
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Manon, I have felt much the same way, for many years now. But, I decided to give it a shot since I'm finally in my own place. I put up some lights in the window set to a timer, and a little table top tree with lights, also on a timer. So when I get home from work, my apartment is lit beautifully, and I feel like I can remember the true reason for this holiday - and no, there is no Santa in my apartment. But, it's making new memories for myself. Holidays past have never been easy in my family, so I tend to want to brood and be grinchy too. But, this year, I promised myself, I am going to try all those things that I pushed away, MY WAY. I'm having a dry Christmas party. I'm baking MY own recipes. And I can start my own traditions. Make this holiday yours, and be thankful that you're alive to enjoy it. Hope you found some holiday spirit :)
