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I am at a terrible place, and I am afraid that by even saying this out loud, I am goign to have to do something about it. I started smoking pot again about 2 years ago. I havent had a sober day since. I managed to get off all sorts of meds for bi polar they had me on..I have been so happy ever since. So many spiri...
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World seems like upside down....
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What a strange thing life is..... I was wishing and hoping to be in a loving relationship and met this woman. Its been a month now and we have been making lots of adjustments..... During times of self-doubt, Im saying to myself "this seems to be arranged by God, so who am I to question ?" Im care...
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JFT December 8 Calling a defect a defect
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December 8Calling a defect a defectWhen we see how our defects exist in our lives and accept them, we can let go of them and get on with our new life.Basic Text, p. 35=Sometimes our readiness to have our character defects removed depends on what we call them. If misnaming our defects makes them seem les...
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just want to say hi to all
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i am spooky (a long time nick-name) and i am new here and pretty new to n.a. i have been out of treament 3 months and although i still struggle at times, life is better!! this the longest i have been clean since starting in 1968...i am thankful for another clean day!!!!!!
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Hello everyone.thanks for support/
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Lucid for a bit today..beenon z pak for 3 days sinusitus,not the case ,no infection,that was emegency room diagnosis! glad they didnt do surgery!!!.went to regular doctor next day she took blood and testing for temporal lobe swelling,lyme an erlichiosis,,tick borne diseas,hunting brings those...
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JFT December 7 Surviving our emotions
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December 7Surviving our emotionsWe use the tools available to us and develop the ability to survive our emotions.Basic Text, p. 31=Survive my emotions? some of us say. Youve got to be kidding! When we were using, we never gave ourselves the chance to learn how to survive them. You dont survive you...
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24 hours...didnt sleep. but i have A DAY
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I rememebr people in AA when I went being SO THRILLED to be off of alcohol for JUST ONE DAY. But, I wasn't an alcoholic, so i couldnt relate to their wonderment... so...here I am; In wonder. (i have never been able to attend an NA meeting f2f yet...) The second thing I remember about AA is they always remin...
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Gradatude
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My name is David I am an Addict,I m feeling a little lonely wright Know,had the day of work because of the snow.Been stuck in my apartment all day were giong to try and get the monday night meeting going if we can,Thanx Miracles in progress for being here.
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hEy Everyone
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Been lost in the shuffle,last thursdayI came down with 103.7 fever,severe cHILLS ANd A SHARP SHOOTING PAIN IN MY TEMPLE AREA AND SINUS.MERGENCY ROOMLAST NIGHT. acute sinusitus,but some things dont fall in the pattern..really took me by surprise because I dont think ive been sick in over 10 years.r...
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Dont believe the lie " once an addict
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always an addict, we do recover, there are enough of us here to prove that and even IF there was just one of us who have recovered its doable. And if you fall/slip/relapse get your ass back up, dont wait and use another day just start over and look at what happened and why it may have happened. It's true some...
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day 1
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I woke up this morning afraid...of not being able to keep last night's promise to myself. the next morning...my resolve diminishes. By the time the afternoon hits, I am well into negotiating with myself. I prayed...I am not religious, but I see the power of praying in others. I don't pray usually.....
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introduce myself.............frustrated (long)
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Hi all! So glad I found this board. I'm Lisa, and new to NA, having just celebrated 60 days clean. I lost my job because of my addiction (worked in a pharmacy...maybe I'll share the story another time, but u can c where this is going) Anyway, I'm facing an F4. Having never been in trouble, my attorney i...
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PAIN SHARED,IS PAIN LESSENED......
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Morning!Welcome to another day of life.I wanted to quickly share something just came to pass in our family nucleus.I believe you may remember ,my son Eric,recovering 24 yr old Heroin addict,had relapsed yet again in August,this year and we basically washed our hands of any contact for awhile unt...
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simple and short update
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things are ok although I wish docs were not so confusing all the blood test on my finger I did said yes I have type 2 diabetes then I had to go in for more blood work and miraculous it's not there which is good but I have been in panic for some time! Other than that I suppose I can't complain actually doing ok co...
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JFT December 6 Romance and recovery
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December 6Romance and recoveryRelationships can be a terribly painful area.Basic Text, p. 82=Love is like an elixir for some of us. The excitement of a new lover, the intrigue of exploring intimacy, the sense of release we get from allowing ourselves to become vulnerablethese are all powerful em...
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JFT December 5 Those who want to recover
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December 5Those who want to recoverWe have seen the program work for any addict who honestly and sincerely wants to stop [using drugs].Basic Text, p. 10=How do we know when someone honestly and sincerely wants to stop using drugs? The truth is that we dont know! Because we cannot read minds or know a...
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ANONYMITY!
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After a meeting last night a girl that used to work in my agency came up to me and said"you know I have been holding a resentment against you for over a year now!!You blew my anonymity back at work 1 day! The event""Saw her in Lobby and said "hey your Laura aren't you,and she looked a...
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If he loves me shouldnt he say NO
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So just wondering sometimes when i really want some pain pills i tell my fiaince that if i take em ill be in a good mood or ill be really lovey .. and he is totally against them he has never taken one he is kinda a goody when it comes to that stuff but even tho he hates them and has got mad at me b4 about taken them i...
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JFT December 4 God's will, not ours
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December 4Gods will, not oursWe know that if we pray for Gods will we will receive what is best for us, regardless of what we think.Basic Text, p. 46=By the time we came to NA, our inner voices had become unreliable and self-destructive. Addiction had warped our desires, our interests, our sense of wh...
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it is so hard to be alone
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just as soon as I think I am over the hill of what ever messI was trying to get threw something else hits me in the face this diabetes thing is scaring me tslkked to my doc over this weekend I have to be put on insulin a shot all the time? omg how the hell do ppl do it I enduer enough of those thru my pain doc nowI ha...
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JFT December 3 Vision without limits
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December 3Vision without limitsPerhaps for the first time, we see a vision of our new life.Basic Text, p. 35=In our addiction, our vision of ourselves was very limited. Each day, we went through the same routine: getting, using, and finding ways and means to get more. And thats all we could reasona...
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poem i wrote a few days ago from my soul
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Editthe bells have tolledby Manon Swafford on Sunday, November 28, 2010 at 5:58pm long before the bells have tolled will I know what I am supposed to hold; long before the bells have tolledI know what I wish to hold the bells are tolled I am here for the moment but how long beofre they are tolled befoer m...
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GETTING OFF HYDROCODONE!!!!!!
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My real name is matt I am a 27 year old father of 2 beautiful girls 1 & 2 years old. and a handsome son who is 6. My wife is a great person who i do not deserve but am thankful to have in my corner, my job is good and i make alot of money......but here's the kicker...I am addicted to hydrocodone and have been f...
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all docs have been seen
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I do not have to be insilin dependent as of right now we are gonna see what goes on how I adjust to oral medicine the new shrink is a little extra cautious but I guess woith my history thru the rough time I had having a desire to live and the attempts on my life and him not knowing me that is to be expected he is qui...
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God could do for me,what I could not do for myself!
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I share this each year as a reminder of where I came from,where I went and where I am now....A very cold December 2nd morning,1984,I "came to' at a farmhouse in Rhinebeck New york,it was early sunday morning.I was 6 months into my 3rd marriage and the insanity was not expecting different results f...
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JFT December 2 Recovery: our first priority
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December 2Recovery: our first priorityWe have to keep our recovery first and our priorities in order.Basic Text, p. 82=Before coming to NA, we used many excuses to justify our use of drugs: He yelled at me. She said this. My partner left. I got fired. We used these same excuses for not seeking hel...
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JFT December 1 Life's rewards
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December 1Lifes rewardsWe begin to pray only for Gods will for us. That way, we get only what we are capable of handling.Basic Text, p. 49=Imagine what might happen if God gave us everything we wanted. A fabulous new car, straight As, a triple salary raiseall ours without effort, just for the asking...
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too young?
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Hi, this is kind of wierd for me, my mom says this will help me... I'm 14, smoke marijuana about 4 times a day. (in school), and on weekends my friends and i buy o's. I kept telling my self i didnt have a problem, then i smoked speed before homeroom, and i was taking pain killers and anti depressents for amus...
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Nearing end of cold turkey detox...help!
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I have been using/abusing oxy and Norco/100s for over 2 years. Ran out 2 weeks early so haven't had any for 5 days. I took valium and Tylenol and somehow made it thru. Now I just have EXTREME weakness and severe depression. This coming Monday is my pain med dr./refill day. I do need the meds but just can...
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Message of Hope
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Spiritual readings for me early today .... " I don't want to see anyone give up,especially when hope is so readily within our grasp.Whether you are walking in a dark valley or sitting at your kitchen table,no tragedy can dim the hope that comes from knowing the God of your understanding will w...
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