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well im still going staying clean trying to get into my appartment. i have nothing for it so we are starting fresh again, it is so hard but i rather do this then be on drugs.
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Work the steps, carry the message.
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That is our one primary purpose in this program, why are we talking about anything but the solution in meetings? Step 12: Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps, we tried to carry the message to the addict who still suffers, and practice these principles in all of our affairs. This i...
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JFT January 30 Giving it away
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"We must give freely and gratefully that which has been freely and gratefully given to us." Basic Text p. 47 In recovery, we receive many gifts. Perhaps one of the greatest of these gifts is the spiritual awakening that begins when we stop using, growing stronger each day we apply the steps...
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Freaking out
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Ok son I'm doing step four and I can't make a meeting today... spoke with my sponsor and I am grateful that I found this Meeting online thingy... I came to realize the following I am at war with myself... because of a pedestal effect I expect alot from people I expect more than I can offer I basically wanna f...
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feeling the pressure
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there is so much damn drama where I live not in my home but with ppl who live near me I really just need section 8 to do what they need to do to get me outta here as soon as possible I might be able to get out on an emergancy order will call in the am but now tht my son is with me i feel alot of pressure to be more secure a...
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JFT January 29 The first step--an action step
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January 29The First Stepan action stepDo we understand that we have no real control over drugs?Basic Text, p. 18=At first, many of us may have thought the First Step required no actionwe just surrender and go on to Step Two. But Step One does require action!The action we take in the First Step will...
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JFT January 28 An every-day addict
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January 28An every-day addictWe can never fully recover, no matter how long we stay clean.Basic Text, p. 84=After getting a little time in the program, some of us begin to think we have been cured. Weve learned everything NA has to teach us; weve grown bored with the meetings; and our sponsor keeps dr...
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public service worker needs help getting off suboxone!
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Hi, I have been clean from suboxone for three weeks now. My husband tho is still on suboxone and is having a real tough time getting off. He works with the public five days a week, and at this time of year business is sometimes non-exsistant. He wants to get off the suboxone, but cannot afford financially...
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domestic issues
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i have been with my wife for over 20 years she was there when i was'nt i have had so backslides and i know that i have to earn the trust but like any addict i want what i want now but enough is enough i can't take the jealous suspicion any more i have helped to get a new na meetin house in order latly and putting in...
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New to this
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My name is Carla and I am newly recovering from being chemically dependent. I have 90+ days of clean time and have not had this for about 10 years. It feels great to be a new person again and love when others can see the change in me. I attend 2 meetings for sure each week and am currently working the steps. Ju...
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life as a new mom
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I feel like i shouls be changing diapers for most of my sons life he has lived with my mother for lack of attachment on my ebd and my addiction outta control as well as my moods i was in and out nut houses and just ynstable all around this is definetly helping with the depression but that too started when I to...
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Struggling
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I don't even know what to say. I am scared to begin this journey/program and I am scared not to. I know I need to find a meeting to go to, but I am terrified of that. Honestly, you guys on this board are my only link to any sort of recovery right now. I know, I know. That is not enough. I need a meeting and a sponsor...
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I am not alone
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Guilt, lying, shame. Hurting those we love the most. Trying to stop because we are strong enough to do so on our own. WOW!!!! Out of sheer desperation I typed in NA online and was led here. At first I just read the posts, then decided to post myself. Told myself that if I do this, I don't have to go to a live me...
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About the whole "God"thing....
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I have believed that there is a"God" all my life, yet despite my many efforts I could not find him within myself. I have come to think, there must be some defect in me, I just can't seem to find what some other people have. When I have attended church or tried to read the bible or other religious...
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JFT January 27 Learning how to live again
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January 27Learning how to live againWe learn new ways to live. We are no longer limited to our old ideas.Basic Text, p. 56=We may or may not have been taught right from wrong and other basics of life as children. No matter, by the time we found recovery, most of us had only the vaguest idea of how to live....
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My sponsees don't listen to me, and keep leaving the group!
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I have had a number of sponsees (about 25) and almost all of them simply do not hear a word I say. I feel so helpless and frustrated! As of last week I had six. As of today I have two. 1. Last week one came straight out of detox. I met him at the meeting. He listened patiently while I suggested cheap places to sta...
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i cant take it anymore
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i cant take this shit anymore.....im trying to do the right thing an i f it up..im done...this is what im going to be for the rest of my life..f it -- Edited by BigV on Sunday 22nd of August 2010 09:58:40 AM
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AA's narrow focus
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A recent post got me thinking about this.that in some ways AA members have it a little easier than NA's. But in some ways it's harder. LOL I know how foggy that sounds, but allow me to explain.AA says "no alcohol" no exceptions. A very clear, absolute message. There is NEVER a good reas...
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OK, I surrender
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I think I am going to go to my first meeting tomorrow. I am freaking out. It says it is a closed meeting and has a T I think--for like topic. I don't know. I am so nervous. I am nervous I will see someone I know (I know, I know. They are there too, blah blah blah), but, and this is going to sound arrogant, but this i...
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JFT January 26 Self-centeredness
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January 26Self-centerednessThe spiritual part of our disease is our total self-centeredness.Basic Text, p. 20=What is self-centeredness? It is our belief that the world revolves around us. Our wishes, our demands are the only ones worth consideration. Our self-centered minds believe the...
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just when I thought things went well
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just found out today that my son pysical therapist has confined him to a scooter he will only be 18 in sept life isn't fair isn't it enough that I suffer not my child too~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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What Now?
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I am new to this idea of online meeting. I am in tas and there is only a couple of meetings a week. Today was my first day with $ in my pocket I didn't score speed. I am on done too but I cant just stop taking that and I cant go to rehab with my kids. I have always been scared to start going to NA cause I am on the progr...
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Sort of struggling with things...
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As far as staying clean goes - i am doing that. I feel the best i have felt in a LOOONG time right now. Thank you to my HP! My struggle comes when i think of being in this program for life...as in, going to meetings every week, etc. I really can't see myself doing that. I tend to think i can stay clean on my o...
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Triggers
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OK, so I am just now realizing what my "triggers" are. How weird is this. I can feel a slight beginning of a migraine creeping up on the right side of my head (where I always get migraines when I have them) and this sense of euphoria comes over me. The slightest bit of pain that I feel used to signa...
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interesting turn of events
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well my mom lashed out at m son and he called last night in hyterics so now he says he wants to live with mommy yea I know AN 17 year old that still calls mom mommy I love it so atm he is here with me as well as my roomie and me kinda crowded in this one bedroom apt the other apt is bigger but if this emains permananen...
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JFT January 25 An added gift
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January 25An added giftWe see it happening among us every day. This miraculous turnabout is evidence of a spiritual awakening.Basic Text, p. 51=We watch them walk in to their first meeting defeated, their spirits broken. Their suffering is obvious, and their desire for help even more apparent. ...
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new to NA
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Hi my name is Jay and I am 30 yrs old. I have been using drugs and alcohol for the past 12 years on a daily basis. I was addicted to oxycontin for a long time but that got too $$ so I turned to heroin. I went to a treatment center this past july/ august and was so happy to have 45 days of clean time. Unfortunately, o...
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making friends
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so i am posting for the first time ive been clean for two years now and it seems that everyone has their own lil groups of people and they go places and do stuff outside of the meetings im very shy and have a hard time doing that plus i dont work full time and dont have a car either so sometimes i feel left out. i a...
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JFT January 23 Serenity check
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January 23 Serenity checkLack of daily maintenance can show up in many ways. Basic Text, p. 95 = Ever had a perfect stranger remark about how great the weather was, only to reply It stinks? When this happens, we are probably suffering from a lack of daily maintenance in our program. In recovery, life c...
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night terrors
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I woke up in tears and screaming this morning night terrors are back glad the room mate was with his girl he has been most of the weekend so my mind of course feels like a race track I am trying to tell it "slow down turbo" but nothin avails I was doing great had hope some faith with the move which no...
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