Hi my name is Jay and I am 30 yrs old. I have been using drugs and alcohol for the past 12 years on a daily basis. I was addicted to oxycontin for a long time but that got too $$ so I turned to heroin. I went to a treatment center this past july/ august and was so happy to have 45 days of clean time. Unfortunately, on the plane ride home i got very drunk at the airport and on the plane. I was able to convince my family that i had taken some sleeping pills that i was given from the treatment facility but i am sure they knew that i was lying but just did not want to believe that i had already relapsed. Since i have been home from rehab i have no actual days of clean time. I started out drinking but that led me back to heroin. The past month or two i have gone from heroin to taking suboxone,, clean for a week or so and then drinking again. Once i drink, everything goes out the window and then i get some dope. Currently i am not drinking but i am strung out on heroin again.... I live with my gf, who attends alanon. She absolutley cannot stand when i drink and is really starting to get tired of my heroin addiction as well. I do not have medical insurance so i cannot go back to rehab and honestly believe the best way for me to get and stay clean is to man up and deal with the w'ds that i have been thru plently of times. Each time i take suboxone, i realize that its just a bandaide and doesn't really help my problem.
I would really like to meet some people on this site who can offer some advice or just be there to talk to.
Welcome,you are home!!! We offer our suggestions and they are always the same,make an admission of surrender and powerlessness,show up at a meeting,share who you are and why you are here,follow suggestions,listen for a sponsor and get ready to do some work..There are no Big I's or little U's here,we are one reaching out to another ,sharing our experience ,strength and hope on what helps and does not help us move forward in our recoveries ,a day at a time..Glad you showed up here,could be the best step you have ever taken.Many will be on to share with you and let you know what works for them.We are people in the grip of a continuing and progressive illness whose ends are always the same.We believe we were in the grip of a hopeless dilemma,of which the solution is spiritual in nature..We talk of spiritual matters and incorporate them into our lives through our actions and changed behaviors.... !!I am an addict,have a 24 year old son ,also a Heroin addict and I also attend Naranon for co-dependancy issues on top of my other ball of wax..Hope you stick around,we do this a day at a time and we do it together.....Welcome to a new way of life,one better than you have ever known!!peace
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Welcome, Jay. The first step is the most important step. We have to get honest with ourselves. Things do not get better overnight. The best advice I can give you is "don't pick up and go to a meeting". One is too many and a thousand is never enough. I have no desire to use today and I am grateful because I know when I pick up that first drug I will release my addiction all over again and alcohol is a drug. I have many things in my life that I am grateful for today, my children, my job, my family...I have my life back and I owe it to this program. Things get better as long as I stay straight, I have faith that my Higher Power will give me the strength needed to get through any situation. I was my own worst enemy and I realize today that I have to be my own best friend and love and respect myself because nobody else will. The fellowship is crucial to my recovery because there are people there who encourage me and help me. Just keep coming back and let the miracle happen!
Welcome Jay. New here myself, and this board has been helpful but as the previous two posts have said, and to my utter astonishment and new found hope have discovered, meetings work. I am not alone, although I have felt that way for a very long time. For the first time in as long as I can remember, I feel like I can be happy again without getting high. It is an amazing feeling and I can't express how grateful I am. May you find the strength, just for today. Peace.
Welcome. My name is Mike, I'm an addict. I used to live and lived to use. H was my drug of choice but it doesn't matter what or how much I used, substituting one for another led down the same spiraling path of despair and destruction. Alcohol has caused a great many addicts to fail, we cannot be confused about this. Alcohol is a drug, we must abstain from all drugs in order to recover.
Narcotics Anonymous offers one promise, freedom from active addiction. If you want what we have to offer and are willing to make the effort to get it, you never have to use again if you don't want to. NA is a simple program, the therapeutic value of one addict helping another is without parallel. Staying Clean is simple, don't use No Matter What one day at a time. Didn't say easy, but simple. One day at a time life gets better.
Start by going to live in person NA Meetings, 90 meetings in 90 days. Get phone numbers. If you feel like using, use the phone first. It is suggested going to meetings Clean but it doesn't matter if you're Clean or loaded, go to meetings. The only requirement for membership is the Desire to stop using. I went to 1 to 3 meetings a day everyday loaded before each meeting for three weeks before the obsession was lifted. One day at a time Clean has become 30 years.
Keep coming back.
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
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