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just need to vent.
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Okay so I'm lying in bed right now on my phone right now because I don't know where else to go with this thought. Only so many people in my life know about me using. My family would never believe me and would blame my wife for my using and hate her more then they already do.
So I come here seeking just a place t...
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JFT April 22 Traveling the open road
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This is our road to spiritual growth.Basic Text, p. 37=When we arrived at our first NA meeting, it looked like the end of the road to many of us. We werent going to be able to use anymore. We were spiritually bankrupt. Most of us were totally isolated and didnt think we had much to live for. Little di...
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JFT April 21 Fear
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We have found that we had no choice except to completely change our old ways of thinking or go back to using.Basic Text, p. 22=Many of us find that our old ways of thinking were dominated by fear. We were afraid that we wouldnt be able to get our drugs or that there wouldnt be enough. We feared discover...
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We lost a brother today
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I just got word this afternoon that Donnie A. from Olustee, OK (more recently Balaton, MN) passed last night. He was visiting family in Oklahoma, and died in his sleep last night. Donnie was a real fighter. He suffered from a list of medical problems a mile long, but would always lend an ear and never...
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ok something has to give
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since the stalking episode its beena real nightmare trying to leave my home in fear I will be found that is why i took some time away from MIP He would look here first I am stuck in my bedroom in a 2 bedroom apt nicely furnished graeful to have a "home" but i can't seem to enjoy iit well thur all my fe...
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Dejting someone outside of the program
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Hi fellow members, I seek experience on WORLD because I am dealing with something new in recovery at many levels. Before I start I want to say I love NA I live only cause of NA and I need your expeience strength and hope. I am gonna be direct. Feeling thought and emotions very scattered. In th elong run I ca...
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SCARED FIRST TIMER!!!
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Hi all I'm new to NA i just got out of my first rehab yesterday on 3/30/2012 i plan on going to my first outside meeting today and am extremely nervous. I am a very shy 29 year old female and I have never shared before. I was wondering if anyon ould give me some advice as to how it is done for our first meeting and...
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April 20 Detachment
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Addiction is a family disease, but we could only change ourselves.=Many of us come from severely damaged families. At times, the insanity that reigns among our relatives feels overwhelming. Sometimes we feel like packing our bags and moving far, far away.We pray that our family members will j...
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joke
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TURNS OUT THATS ME SO THERES YOUR JOKE!
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Running rats
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So.
Karen, who is for all intents and purposes, my mother in law. She is a wonderful woman. And I quite enjoy her company. She is also a jehovah's witness.
So yesterday she texted asking me if I wanted a bible. I told her we had two already, that her son/my fiancé has them hidden somewhere.
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1827 days clean
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5 years today! Thanks to all of those who listen to my ranting and raving, accept me for who I am (character defects and all) and have shown me a new way to live! I am truly grateful! I love the program of Narcotics Anonymous. It not only saved my life, it GAVE ME A LIFE! :) I entered this program, not kn...
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JFT April 19 Footwork
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So many times, addicts have sought the rewards of hard work without the labor.Basic Text, p. 34=When we first came to NA, some of us wanted everything, and right away. We wanted the serenity, the cars, the happy relationships, the friends, the closeness with our sponsorall the things other peopl...
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JFT April 18 "I understand"
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We humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.Step Seven=Once we are entirely ready to have our character defects removed, many of us are entirely ready! Ironically, thats when the trouble really starts. The more we struggle to rid ourselves of a particular defect, the stronger that shortco...
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New 2 NA
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I am new to NA I just got home from my 1st meeting & met alot of good people that are very understanding as well as warm & welcoming. I enjoyed the environment the personal testimony that was shared. Blessings to all
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Just joined this forum
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I just feel so lost... I have been an EXTREMELY highly functioning addict for quite some time.. It's not one substance in particular, it's anything that can get me high. It is now affecting my health and I have no choice but to get it together - I am only 24 years old and should not be developing constant si...
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not a good answer?
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why is "because I'm an addict"not a good enough answer for me for some of the things I do? I do things to people i love that i never thought I would do. I still my husbands pain pills so I dont get sick knowing full well that he will run out and get sick himself. I alway tell myself that "this is...
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JFT April 17 Priority:meetings
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I initially felt that it would be impossible to attend more than one or two meetings a week. It just wouldnt fit in with my busy schedule. I later learned that my priorities were [180] degrees reversed. It was the everything else that would have to fit into my meeting schedule.=Some of us attended me...
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Friends In Recovery
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Looking for an old friend Gee Gee. Trying to find her home group.
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Did I relapse?
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I've been clean for several months, but was precribed nuerontin, a non-narcotic anti-seizure med for anxiety. I started taking more than prescribed, from 100 mg at first to 200 then 400 then 600) because I felt no effects and was having really bad obsessive-compulsion and depression. I don't think...
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Brain vent
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Today is 4/10.
And I am well aware that this date may not be significant to others. However, 4/10/06 my father died of an overdose. It's been six years now, and I have since learned that mourning the loss of anyone, but especially an important figure in ones life, never truely goes away. I have learned t...
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JFT April 16 "Acting as if"
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Today, we seek solutions, not problems. We try what we have learned on an experimental basis.Basic Text, p. 58=The first time we heard that we should act as if, many of us exclaimed, But thats not honest! I thought we were always supposed to be honest about our feelings in Narcotics Anonymous.Pe...
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JFT April 15 Keep coming back
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We have come to enjoy living clean and want more of the good things that the NA Fellowship holds for us.Basic Text, p. 27=Can you remember a time when you looked at the addicts recovering in NA and wondered, If they arent using drugs, what on earth do they have to laugh about? Did you believe that the fu...
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JFT April 14 A new vision
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Do we really want to be rid of our resentments, our anger, our fear?Basic Text, p. 34=Why do we call them shortcomings? Perhaps they should be called long-goings, because thats often what it takes for them to fade from our lives. Some of us feel that our shortcomings are the very characteristics t...
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JFT April 13 People-pleasing
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...approval-seeking behavior carried us further into our addiction....Basic Text, p. 14=When others approve of what we do or say, we feel good; when they disapprove, we feel bad. Their opinions of us, and how those opinions make us feel, can have positive value. By making us feel good about ste...
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life in the bret zone
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hi all i missed posting here but i have not had access to a computer in a while got a new laptop so i hope to be posting more often it has been interesting in my life of late had a bit of a bad patch but i came out the other sidejust a little bent but i am going to meetings and working the steps then out of the blue i d...
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JFT April 12 The big picture
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All spiritual awakenings have some things in common. Common elements include an end to loneliness and a sense of direction in our lives.Basic Text, p. 50=Some kinds of spiritual experiences take place when we confront something larger than we are. We suspect that forces beyond our understand...
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JFT April 11 A closed mind
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A new idea cannot be grafted onto a closed mind.... Open-mindedness leads us to the very insights that have eluded us during our lives.Basic Text, p. 96=We arrived in NA at the lowest point in our lives. Wed just about run out of ideas. What we needed most when we got here were new ideas, new ways of l...
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JFT April 10 Too busy
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We must use what we learn or we will lose it, no matter how long we have been clean.Basic Text, p. 85=After putting some clean time together, some of us have a tendency to forget what our most important priority is. Once a week or less we say, Ive gotta get to a meeting tonight. Its been... Weve been ca...
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JFT April 9 Acting out
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"We learn to experience feelings and realize they can do us no harm unless we act on them." IP No. 16, "For the Newcomer" Many of us came to Narcotics Anonymous with something less than an overwhelming desire to stop using. Sure, the drugs were causing us problems, and we wanted t...
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Spent all day Saturday Pregaming....
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haha, just thought you might enjoy my perspective. I spent the day getting my boat ready for the 2012 fishing season. THAT is my way of 'pregaming', no drugs needed when life beckons!!!
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