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BigV · BigV

"Something inside cries out, 'Enough, enough, I've had enough; and then they are ready to take that first and often most difficult step toward dealing with their disease." Basic Text, page 203 Have we really had enough? This is the crucial question we must ask ourselves as we prepare to wo...

harryw · harryw

Hello, First of all: Sorry for my bad english. hopefully anybondy understand what i am trying to tell. i wonder if i am really addicted. i am clean for little more than three years. i was drinking and pot smoking whenever i had mony and time. sometimes i take cocaine and heroin. i decided to change someth...

Codependent · Codependent

I've not really posted on here before, but post often on the Alanon site. I have an A BF who I struggle to maintain boundaries with. However, it has also come to my attention that perhaps I also have a problem with drugs. I have started a pattern where every couple of weeks I go out and "party"...

dell1st · dell1st

WHEN I REFLECT BACK ON WHAT HAPPEN TO CAUSE MY RELAPSE I HAVE TO WONDER COULD I HAVE PREVENTED IT. OR WAS THE RESERVATION TO GET HIGH PLANTED SO DEEP IN MY SUB-CONSCIENCE THAT A RELAPSE WAS DESTINE TO HAPPEN...I TELL MYSELF PERHAPS IF I WOULD'VE SURRENDERED MORE OFTEN, LIKE SURRENDERING CONSTANTLY IN T...

staci O · staci O

Hi all.. Just checkin in.. Sponsorship is so much a part of our program that not having one leaves a HUGE void.. I know this after over 20 yrs I moved to a new town and no dependable transpo nearby. I read, I came to this board and others around the net.. I pray.. what's been missing is actually calling to s...

dan h · dan h

Hi Guys and Girls, I guess this is really for a moderator of this site. Is there a page that displays rules or guidelines for this site? As a new member I just want to make sure I'm not steppin' on anyone's toes. Some recovery sites don't allow you to post web addresses of other recovery sites, etc. Can you g...

dan h · dan h

Hello everyone, I found this some time ago somewhere on the net and just wanted to share it. Peace, Dan The Butterfly "The butterfly is ever more blessed than other creatures of flight. Though all grace the heavens in the ecstasy of flight, the butterfly has known the drudgery of the crawl and th...

dan h · dan h

"We could not live and enjoy life as other people do. We had to have something different and we thought we had found it in drugs." (BT Pg. 13) It seems like my whole life has been a never ending search for "something different." Maybe it's because there always seemed to be some...

BigV · BigV

Its healthy to go out and DO SOMETHING dont just sit around enjoy your recovery I am headed out to do some night fishing right now for catfish and striped bass anbd whatever else wants some of me LOL Tomorrow I gotta work helping my girlfriend move into her new house and Sunday I go gold dredging with my new...

dan h · dan h

The recent death of one of our members here in Indianapolis, Gayla N. has touched me deeply. I didn't know Gayla very well, but I remember her exuberance, her zest for living, and her beautiful smile. Reading the news report of the accident that took her life, I thought about just how short life is and ho...

Manon · Manon

I cannot seem to shake this depression. I finally stood up for myself and told Allen I was not going to be his human yo-yo anymore it is not fair for either of us. I am just at the point in my life where I am not willing to settle. I know what I want, and I am not settling for anything else. I can't say standing up f...

Codependent · Codependent

Do you have to give up all the friends you have used with in order to get clean? I have a small group that I think really care about me but that struggle with addiction as well. I am struggling with if I can want sobriety more than I want their companionship...

Bill G · Bill G

I not a stranger to NA. I been in and out of NA since 3/94. The first attempt at recovery I stayed clean 1 day shy of three years. Since then I've haven't been able to put together any real substantial amount of time. Everytime I went out the relapse got progressively worst. This time however I'm at...

DeanC · DeanC

Grateful for a life filled with many blessings year after year, too many to count. I'd have been dead a long time ago if not for the intervention of a higher power. I owe all that I have to HP and the people in these 12 step programs. Thanks to all of you. Dean

Codependent · Codependent

I am a "binge" addict who is just now recognizing how my using effects my life. I am scared of never being able to do different and feeling terrible about myself as a person and a Christian. I picture future weekends and my friends and wonder how I will ever do different...then feel bad abou...

BigV · BigV

And this is why i read these or try to each day, I NEED to be reminded, I need a little shoulder shake once in awhile because i get complacent and lazy in my recovery, heres the thought for today ; "If, after a period of time, we find ourselves in trouble with our recovery, we have probably stopped doin...

BigV · BigV

I just smashed the bottom side of my truck today prospecting and it cost me over $500 to get a tow truck to come way back there and pull me out it was F'd up what I did to put it mildly, they charged me $175 per hour and it was 3 hours total but I had no choice I would have had to leave my truck full of gear and my dre...

buff87 · buff87

Hi i'm Bethany/Addict! I've been clean for 18 months! I've acomplished so much in those 18 months that i should be proud of but i have one fear. When i go to meetings i freeze up. I pass without sharing, my mind is full of thoughts but i'm afraid they will sound stupid comming out. I go to this awesome...

Raman · Raman

The guy who lives music !! My name is Raman and I am an addict, I came into NA as a coincidence,which being me reading the "Basic Text" while I was in a treatment center.I had a long run with all sort of drugs and was really sick and tired of it all.I had many good times with drugs but...

oxysurvivor2 · oxysurvivor2

Day 40 and I know recovery is new. But today was HARD. Got out of rehab and now my whole life is in transition. I'm still fighting my body to regain my energy, I'm back working full time, I've got kids (my oldest leaves for college next week), I've got money problems (I know...who doesn't) so I have to sell...

Raman · Raman

I drove down 200 miles to a coastal town for their 1 ywar anniversary of NA. Im glad I went,, I was there last year too. This year there were 5 members and last year there was only one. There were also five of us from out of town. The look of joy on one mothers face as her son shared about his recovery was g...

spidermama · spidermama

Yesterday, my fiancee admitted that he had an addiction to Percocet. He has been swallowing and snorting 10+ pills per day. This information came to light because I was planning on leaving him. He has been emotionally and verbally abusive. He has a snap temper. I gave birth five months ago to our beaut...

Manon · Manon

Ia m in recovery as well as having a mental illness I often find myself backed into a corner not knowing what to say anymore my depression has taken hold and it hurts my heart to realize where Iam in my life I feel like Ishould be doing more but I do what I can by sharing how I feel to hopefully save an addict ab...

mrwinkie · mrwinkie

just want to keep you guys up to speed, when i woke today i had 60 days clean, 61 days ago i felt doomed to a life of using . i thought after 37 years of use there was no point in quitting now. when my third child in a row got busted for dope, FINALLY my HP decided to let me have a bottom. i threw out my stuff. my first...

south249 · south249

I am so happy I found your group. I just got out of rehab on tuesday. I was in a wonderful place, I was abusing prescribtion pain meds, Vicodin and percocet. I am currently clean for 24 days. While I was in treatment I gained alot of weight. Well I got some adipex-p from the doctor to help me lose weight. My qu...

kinkiebelladonna08 · kinkiebelladonna08

With it being the 4th of July and all there is alot of people out still actively suffering and today is a very big "party" day. I received this letter at an NA meeting the day before I planned to kill myself. When this letter was handed out it hit home, the light bulb came on, whistles blew thee...

gillyboy · gillyboy

Anyone interested in a meeting at three a.m. kelowna b.c. please reply asap

mamalanersof2 · mamalanersof2

Hey gang! Had another let down of a meeting tonight. Was glad to be there b/c there were some new people who needed guidance but I got there a bit late and there wasn't a chairperson present so even when I tried to redirect the meeting and get it on the right track...it went down the tubes. It gets old. We...

Raman · Raman

So says a line from the I.P. Am I an addict ? ''WE CAN NO LONGER BLAME PEOPLE PLACES AND THINGS FOR OUR ADDICTION, WE HAVE TO FACE OUR FEELINGS AND OUR PROBLEMS" How liberating form emotional pain and insanity that is,,,, We were searching for an answer when we reached out and found Narcotics Anonym...

Raman · Raman

Hello ,, my name is Raman and I am an addict,,, The TEXT says that we recovering addicts are most vauleable in being ourselves. Here are a few thoughts i read today I want to share with yall= Be Yourself Be strong enough to face the world each day. Be weak enough to know you cannot do everything. Be generous...

Topic		Started By	Replies	Views	Last Post
	Enough, enough (Preview) "Something inside cries out, 'Enough, enough, I've had enough; and then they are ready to take that first and often most difficult step toward dealing with their disease." Basic Text, page 203 Have we really had enough? This is the crucial question we must ask ourselves as we prepare to wo...	BigV	2	465	Aug 16, 2008 by harryw
	a real addict (Preview) Hello, First of all: Sorry for my bad english. hopefully anybondy understand what i am trying to tell. i wonder if i am really addicted. i am clean for little more than three years. i was drinking and pot smoking whenever i had mony and time. sometimes i take cocaine and heroin. i decided to change someth...	harryw	7	635	Aug 15, 2008 by Davethewave
	Weekender- Feelings of Guilt (Preview) I've not really posted on here before, but post often on the Alanon site. I have an A BF who I struggle to maintain boundaries with. However, it has also come to my attention that perhaps I also have a problem with drugs. I have started a pattern where every couple of weeks I go out and "party"...	Codependent	8	680	Aug 15, 2008 by Davethewave
	I WENT WRONG SOMEWHERE (Preview) WHEN I REFLECT BACK ON WHAT HAPPEN TO CAUSE MY RELAPSE I HAVE TO WONDER COULD I HAVE PREVENTED IT. OR WAS THE RESERVATION TO GET HIGH PLANTED SO DEEP IN MY SUB-CONSCIENCE THAT A RELAPSE WAS DESTINE TO HAPPEN...I TELL MYSELF PERHAPS IF I WOULD'VE SURRENDERED MORE OFTEN, LIKE SURRENDERING CONSTANTLY IN T...	dell1st	6	617	Aug 15, 2008 by Davethewave
	Needing a sponsor? I can't get one if I don't get to meetings! (Preview) Hi all.. Just checkin in.. Sponsorship is so much a part of our program that not having one leaves a HUGE void.. I know this after over 20 yrs I moved to a new town and no dependable transpo nearby. I read, I came to this board and others around the net.. I pray.. what's been missing is actually calling to s...	staci O	4	539	Aug 15, 2008 by staci O
	"Questions, questions that need answers..." Gandalf (Preview) Hi Guys and Girls, I guess this is really for a moderator of this site. Is there a page that displays rules or guidelines for this site? As a new member I just want to make sure I'm not steppin' on anyone's toes. Some recovery sites don't allow you to post web addresses of other recovery sites, etc. Can you g...	dan h	2	4015	Aug 14, 2008 by DeanC
	The Butterfly (Preview) Hello everyone, I found this some time ago somewhere on the net and just wanted to share it. Peace, Dan The Butterfly "The butterfly is ever more blessed than other creatures of flight. Though all grace the heavens in the ecstasy of flight, the butterfly has known the drudgery of the crawl and th...	dan h	0	857	Aug 14, 2008 by dan h
	Something Different (Preview) "We could not live and enjoy life as other people do. We had to have something different and we thought we had found it in drugs." (BT Pg. 13) It seems like my whole life has been a never ending search for "something different." Maybe it's because there always seemed to be some...	dan h	0	402	Aug 14, 2008 by dan h
	DONT FORGET TO HAVE SOME FUN (Preview) Its healthy to go out and DO SOMETHING dont just sit around enjoy your recovery I am headed out to do some night fishing right now for catfish and striped bass anbd whatever else wants some of me LOL Tomorrow I gotta work helping my girlfriend move into her new house and Sunday I go gold dredging with my new...	BigV	9	639	Aug 13, 2008 by oniongirl82
	Before It's Too Late (Preview) The recent death of one of our members here in Indianapolis, Gayla N. has touched me deeply. I didn't know Gayla very well, but I remember her exuberance, her zest for living, and her beautiful smile. Reading the news report of the accident that took her life, I thought about just how short life is and ho...	dan h	3	487	Aug 13, 2008 by BigV
	growing pains (Preview) I cannot seem to shake this depression. I finally stood up for myself and told Allen I was not going to be his human yo-yo anymore it is not fair for either of us. I am just at the point in my life where I am not willing to settle. I know what I want, and I am not settling for anything else. I can't say standing up f...	Manon	1	553	Aug 13, 2008 by BigV
	Friends (Preview) Do you have to give up all the friends you have used with in order to get clean? I have a small group that I think really care about me but that struggle with addiction as well. I am struggling with if I can want sobriety more than I want their companionship...	Codependent	4	492	Aug 13, 2008 by BigV
	I truly believe if I relapse again I'm not coming back! (Preview) I not a stranger to NA. I been in and out of NA since 3/94. The first attempt at recovery I stayed clean 1 day shy of three years. Since then I've haven't been able to put together any real substantial amount of time. Everytime I went out the relapse got progressively worst. This time however I'm at...	Bill G	8	762	Aug 12, 2008 by Bill G
	19 Years Clean and Sober Today (Preview) Grateful for a life filled with many blessings year after year, too many to count. I'd have been dead a long time ago if not for the intervention of a higher power. I owe all that I have to HP and the people in these 12 step programs. Thanks to all of you. Dean	DeanC	8	1103	Aug 12, 2008 by staci O
	Self Esteem (Preview) I am a "binge" addict who is just now recognizing how my using effects my life. I am scared of never being able to do different and feeling terrible about myself as a person and a Christian. I picture future weekends and my friends and wonder how I will ever do different...then feel bad abou...	Codependent	2	397	Aug 12, 2008 by mrwinkie
	Surrender Is For Everyone ( this spoke to me ) (Preview) And this is why i read these or try to each day, I NEED to be reminded, I need a little shoulder shake once in awhile because i get complacent and lazy in my recovery, heres the thought for today ; "If, after a period of time, we find ourselves in trouble with our recovery, we have probably stopped doin...	BigV	14	647	Aug 10, 2008 by BigV
	MAN WHAT A DAY but i'm alive and home (Preview) I just smashed the bottom side of my truck today prospecting and it cost me over $500 to get a tow truck to come way back there and pull me out it was F'd up what I did to put it mildly, they charged me $175 per hour and it was 3 hours total but I had no choice I would have had to leave my truck full of gear and my dre...	BigV	6	578	Aug 10, 2008 by BigV
	Self Esteem/Confidence (Preview) Hi i'm Bethany/Addict! I've been clean for 18 months! I've acomplished so much in those 18 months that i should be proud of but i have one fear. When i go to meetings i freeze up. I pass without sharing, my mind is full of thoughts but i'm afraid they will sound stupid comming out. I go to this awesome...	buff87	3	453	Aug 10, 2008 by DeanC
	will you please read my story ? (Preview) The guy who lives music !! My name is Raman and I am an addict, I came into NA as a coincidence,which being me reading the "Basic Text" while I was in a treatment center.I had a long run with all sort of drugs and was really sick and tired of it all.I had many good times with drugs but...	Raman	34	1081	Aug 9, 2008 by Raman
	Everything all at once?!? How do you handle THAAT! (Preview) Day 40 and I know recovery is new. But today was HARD. Got out of rehab and now my whole life is in transition. I'm still fighting my body to regain my energy, I'm back working full time, I've got kids (my oldest leaves for college next week), I've got money problems (I know...who doesn't) so I have to sell...	oxysurvivor2	4	640	Aug 9, 2008 by Raman
	A fab weekend !!! (Preview) I drove down 200 miles to a coastal town for their 1 ywar anniversary of NA. Im glad I went,, I was there last year too. This year there were 5 members and last year there was only one. There were also five of us from out of town. The look of joy on one mothers face as her son shared about his recovery was g...	Raman	8	578	Aug 9, 2008 by Raman
	I Am In Shock (Preview) Yesterday, my fiancee admitted that he had an addiction to Percocet. He has been swallowing and snorting 10+ pills per day. This information came to light because I was planning on leaving him. He has been emotionally and verbally abusive. He has a snap temper. I gave birth five months ago to our beaut...	spidermama	15	928	Aug 7, 2008 by DeanC
	dealing with duality in recovery (Preview) Ia m in recovery as well as having a mental illness I often find myself backed into a corner not knowing what to say anymore my depression has taken hold and it hurts my heart to realize where Iam in my life I feel like Ishould be doing more but I do what I can by sharing how I feel to hopefully save an addict ab...	Manon	10	742	Aug 7, 2008 by Manon
	THANK YOU MIP !!!!!!!!! (Preview) just want to keep you guys up to speed, when i woke today i had 60 days clean, 61 days ago i felt doomed to a life of using . i thought after 37 years of use there was no point in quitting now. when my third child in a row got busted for dope, FINALLY my HP decided to let me have a bottom. i threw out my stuff. my first...	mrwinkie	4	651	Aug 6, 2008 by mrwinkie
	NEW HERE, WOULD ADIPEX-P FOR WEIGHT LOSS BE TAKING DRUGS? (Preview) I am so happy I found your group. I just got out of rehab on tuesday. I was in a wonderful place, I was abusing prescribtion pain meds, Vicodin and percocet. I am currently clean for 24 days. While I was in treatment I gained alot of weight. Well I got some adipex-p from the doctor to help me lose weight. My qu...	south249	5	1083	Aug 4, 2008 by oxysurvivor2
	A LETTER FROM YOUR DISEASE (Preview) With it being the 4th of July and all there is alot of people out still actively suffering and today is a very big "party" day. I received this letter at an NA meeting the day before I planned to kill myself. When this letter was handed out it hit home, the light bulb came on, whistles blew thee...	kinkiebelladonna08	6	7278	Aug 4, 2008 by oxysurvivor2
	Unity Day (Preview) Anyone interested in a meeting at three a.m. kelowna b.c. please reply asap	gillyboy	1	442	Jul 31, 2008 by mrwinkie
	Our online meetings need HELP!! (Preview) Hey gang! Had another let down of a meeting tonight. Was glad to be there b/c there were some new people who needed guidance but I got there a bit late and there wasn't a chairperson present so even when I tried to redirect the meeting and get it on the right track...it went down the tubes. It gets old. We...	mamalanersof2	4	732	Jul 26, 2008 by nanna1225
	we have to face our feelings and out problems,,, (Preview) So says a line from the I.P. Am I an addict ? ''WE CAN NO LONGER BLAME PEOPLE PLACES AND THINGS FOR OUR ADDICTION, WE HAVE TO FACE OUR FEELINGS AND OUR PROBLEMS" How liberating form emotional pain and insanity that is,,,, We were searching for an answer when we reached out and found Narcotics Anonym...	Raman	2	636	Jul 25, 2008 by Raman
	our greatest value,,,, (Preview) Hello ,, my name is Raman and I am an addict,,, The TEXT says that we recovering addicts are most vauleable in being ourselves. Here are a few thoughts i read today I want to share with yall= Be Yourself Be strong enough to face the world each day. Be weak enough to know you cannot do everything. Be generous...	Raman	4	650	Jul 24, 2008 by Raman
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