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How, Why, What
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So I went to Detox for 4 days, then I went to my first outpaitent meeting which I didnt really want to go to. My drug of choice was Vicodin, so I found a pill and I used today I know they are going to ua me I wonder if I will get kicked out of outpaitent I am kinda scared because I knew what I did was wrong. But, I d...
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What is addiction without reference to drugs ?
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Friends and fellows,, I want to participate in a share on basics= how does my disease manifest in clean time ? In other words,what is addiction without th use of drugs or in reference to drugs ? Ive had a spiritual awakening of sorts last week. Ive had incidents happen that have altered my thinking and tu...
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MBM...sad to see it go...
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I just opened my meeting by mail only to learn that it will no longer be published. I am sad to see it go..I love that publication... I celebrated 13 years clean on 04/19/2009 matto
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Day 3 of being clean!
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Today is day 3... I haven't had a pill since Friday night. I get cravings like crazy and I had a dream the night before last about stealing pills from someone. I'm staying strong and getting through this the best that I can. JUST FOR TODAY :) I keep thinking about how great things will be not depending on...
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one man's will to survive even years later
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ONE MAN'S WILL TO SURVIVE BY Jayson Cole People don't understand the shit that I've been though...........They've taken away everything from me. So I taking to many pills to ease the pain. It's been hard for me to find myself again. I was so angery at the world. For me that was a dangerous place to be. For...
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NA and AA may merge into one fellowship
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For the first time ever, an emergency meeting has been called between the world service boards of both Alcoholics Anonymous and Narcotics Anonymous to be held on July 4th, 2009 in a neutral, undisclosed location in Geneva, Switzerland, to discuss the possible impact of merging the 2 fellowships in...
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VINI!
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Today i was having a really crappy day. last night i went out with a friend got stoned. got in a bar fight with some chick. i got a concussion and a few broken ribs. i woke up in the hospital this morning. so i think that may have had a part in my decision. haha. I FINALLY GET! GOD DAMN I GOT IT! you told me one day i...
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Sad all the time
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I am newly clean. I have been high in some way or another for basically ten years. Now I am sad all the time. I have no escape from my feelings. i don't have any friends left, because all of my friends are junkies. How does anyone else deal with this? Thanks
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Request for Lee.U
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Hi Lee,, May i request you to do a main share here ? You know,, your experience,strength and hope. Me and many more here would be delighted and I know theres a great message of recovery a' coming from you ! Thanks.
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plz read its good
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Keep It Simple Heaven and hell is right now. . You make it heaven or you make it hell by your actions.----George Harrison We used chemicals to feel better, but we started feeling worse. We were out of control. Life seemed like hell. Now we have a program that tells us how to make life better. Some days, it e...
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april 21 just for today
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April 21 Fear "We have found that we had no choice except to completely change our old ways of thinking or go back to using."Basic Text, p. 21 Many of us find that our old ways of thinking were dominated by fear. We were afraid that we wouldn't be able to get our drugs or that there wouldn't be eno...
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an update?
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Happiness is just outside my window. lyrics from the fray. i wish that happiness could be bought because i would spend a million dollars on it. ever since i left treatment life has just been going down and down. i use, i fight, i cry, and i destroy myself physically. i push everyone away. i dont go to meeti...
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just so amazed!!
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I have to say im kicking ass in this right now!!! I finally have established a solid relationship with a hp and im facing my fears and it is awesome!!I have never been so eager to start 12 steps.I finally asked someone from my meeting to sponser me. And they said yes! Im so excited like everything is ch...
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A new experience in recovery.!!!
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New experiences have always been welcome in my recovery,,and this Program/Na has made certain I get new experiences whenever things are getting stale and I need new inspirations. Heres a strange story about a strange phenomenon. One cold ,lonely but serene evening I was walking back from college,...
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Some useful alternatives that are polite
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and ensure your post or thread doesn't end up being butchered by me... 1. Beeotch 2. Cheese and Crackers 3. Cheese and Rice 4. Cheeses 5. Crud 6. Dag Nab It 7. Darn 8. Diablo 9. F-ing 10. Farging Icehole 11. Fec 12. Feng Shui 13. Fiddle Sticks 14. For Rice Cakes! 15. Freaking 16. Frickin 'A 17. Fudge 18. Geez...
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"I understand" Just for today.
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"We humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings." Step Seven Once we are entirely ready to have our character defects removed, many of us are entirely ready! Ironically, that's when the trouble really starts. The more we struggle to rid ourselves of a particular defect, the stronger tha...
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Tough pill to swallow.
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This was a friend of my kids and of the family . They all grew up together. Its my 9th funeral in 4 years . My 5th in 316 days of recovery. Sawyer was riding a 4 wheeler and was drinking. He was 19 years old. If you have the time and a youtube account maybe you could leave some condolances for the family..Hi...
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two poems
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poem 6im tired of giving myself away fragmented pieces left to lie please not today humbled before God on my knees I knealt asked to guide me and remove the pain i felt i didnt want my addictions anymore path to enlightment discoveries made life once again is worth living for I awake to the dawn with utter...
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One more chance
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Let go of that wheel let the higher power drive you for a change. Step one powerless and unmanageable, step 2 believing in a power that can help us with our powerlessness, uselessness, and helplessness. Step 3 turning it over to that help. It's a simple decision as that, each day brings new life, trust,...
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Six years ago...
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I was sitting in a jail holding cell, pregnant, tired, scared and wondering how I'd ended up there again. The day before was the last day I used. Today I celebrate six years clean. I am a miracle!
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don't know how to react or what to say...
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I visited my daughter today in the mental health unit of our local hospital. She was unable to get a bed in a detox unit so the rehab facility she plans to go to suggested the emergency room. She told them she didn't want to hurt herself but if they didn't help her she would have no choice but to overdose. S...
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Al-anon type meetings for children of narcotics abusers
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Hi. I am a nursing student and a child of a former user. I am writing a paper on meth use and part of my paper is resources for the addict and the family. I thought I remembered attending meetings as a child somewhat like Al-anon. Does that exist in this situation? Does anyone know? Any help would be greatly...
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anniversery
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I had a 20 month anniversery yesterday. Im like the other guy... I forgot. Im very blessed to have another day clean. The system works if you work it. I have felt better than ive felt for years...... Todd
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Some kind of introduction...
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Hello everybody. Been looking for a place like this for a while and now I hope Ive found it. I live in Eastern Europe - Bulgaria and perhaps I am the only one here from the balkan region. I know probably its a bit unusual for me to register here, but believe me there are no such places and comunities where I co...
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short update
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things are kinda strange these days i ffind my self getting agitated easily not knowing the reasons behind it thought patterns a little scattered they are finally treating the ADHD seems to be going okay I have a diagnosis I am not to happy with borderline personality disorder I am in a class that lasts...
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More Sober Than I Even Knew! (But still crazy after all these years!)
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4/6/09 Lee can't count. I was rather distracted last year before and on my anniversary and didn't really "celebrate". So I decided to put more into it this year. Just one miscalculation. My clean & sober date is 4/6/83. For weeks now Ive been sharing, posting & blogging on my &quo...
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Please help me, I feel like I am dying
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The docs had me on script narcotcs for over 3 months. I am on day 4 of withdrawals and I am so depressed and feel so alone. My husband is in the military and says i dont need the hosiptal to get of these meds. I am so depressed and my heart is racing constantly. When will this ever end. I cannot functiona and all...
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UPDATE on "don't know how to react...."
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As I said before, my daughter went to the emergency room and was admitted to the mental health unit. Yesterday was a rough visit. They said she would be discharged on Friday night at 8:50pm. The rehab facility she planned to go to said that was fine. They can do late admits. I get a call at about 9am thi...
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Meetings in Heaven? ROFL
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Two addicts were talking about recovery in the "afterlife". They were wondering if there were meetings in Heaven. They made a pact... Whoever went first would come back and let the other know. Sadly, a year later, one of the friends passed away. Several weeks later, as promised, he cam...
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Jana40503
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pregnant druggie
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well im pregnant and im trying to stop using. i'm 3mo. pregnant by the way. just recently got out of an inpatient program ; which was 8 weeks and i stayed 3. i just had to go, it was too religious. so ofcourse... i used again. i have made the decision that i wont use crack anymore, or drink. while im preg...
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