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well went to the shrink today
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found out he will be leaving at the end of october he is sending me to one that has same qualities as him so they say its almost a year anniversarry since the day i took 120 xanax to end my life just to wake upp 6 hours later the icu followed my bhc I fear that date knoing my trusted doctor is leaving and a new tru...
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JFT September 28 Hope
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September 28 HopeGradually, as we become more God-centered than self-centered, our despair turns to hope. Basic Text, p. 95 = As using addicts, despair was our relentless companion. It colored our every waking moment. Despair was born of our experience in active addiction: No matter what meas...
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hello im new
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Im new to recovery and this site just wanted to introduce myself ive been having a rough time and the only thing that helps is talking about it and going to meetings ive been in and out of the rooms and hopefully this time I stay in them
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JUST A FLEETING MOMENT!
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My mother in law and father in law are leaving tomorrow to head back to Florida after 5 days stay with us and we a 10 day stay with them. My father in law is bound to a wheelchair and has struggles getting around without help .A 79 year old.proud marine who feels he is a burden on everyone.My mother in law is in...
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JFT September 27 Right back up
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September 27 Right back upThere is something in our self-destructive personalities that cries for failure. Basic Text, p. 80 = Poor me; woe is me; look at me, my life is such a mess! Ive fallen, and no matter how hard I try, I continue to fail. Many of us came to NA singing this sad refrain. Life isnt like...
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NEW TOPIC -- Posting as Sneeze --SPONSOR NEEDED
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Desperately looking for a new Sponsor...is there a way to find one here. I do not know how to go about this but please email me :) Thank you
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JFT September 26 Seeing ourselves in others
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September 26 Seeing ourselves in othersIt will not make us better people to judge the faults of another. Basic Text, p. 38 = How easy it is to point out the faults of others! Theres a reason for this: The defects we identify most easily in others are often the defects we are most familiar with in our own c...
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Themes from the past !!!
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Basic story of my life has been the following categories of human behaviour;;; Hurt = in love, relationships and friendships and family Interfered with= either someone interfered in my life or I did the same Breach of trust= this is what hurt me in the first place,, so I told myself never to tr...
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JFT September 25 The fourth step--fearing our feelings
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September 25 The Fourth Stepfearing our feelingsWe may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic. Basic Text, p. 30 = A common complaint about the Fourth Step is that it makes us painfully conscious of our defects of character. We may be t...
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dreams vrs reality
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I don't know if I can decifer dreams from reality they seem so real I think it is happening then again am I switching and Iam only seeing parts they are not drug dreams the are very profound and vivid I am kinda scared see doc on tue morning again to see what is happeniong but Iam not comfy and really worried H...
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Outside Issue? Please Consider....
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Hi everyone, I have been nominated by someone (anonomously) to to go to jail "FOR GOOD" in an effort to help the MDA raise funds for "Jerry's Kids". My bail will be 2500.00 dollars and all of it will go directly to the MDA. I accepted this opportunity to make a difference in the life of someone else. I...
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reservation
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my husban is an addict too. I understand that I cant control what he does, but he is using his fourth step as a a barometer of wether or not to leave me. he won't look at me with love anymore, hold my hand, talk to me, even sleep with me/... My sponsor said no major changes in the first year, but I cant make him lo...
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step one
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ok yes I am powerldess over my addiction and my life is unmanagable issue; #1 to give up power is like in my mind a weakness #2 have no faith atm but that is not step one it is very clear I am an addict too many substaces mental illness and yes ppl too so here is where I am "that's why I'm here" so now wh...
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oops
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forgot about the wednesday night meeting been asleep all week it hasbeen a rough one will try to catch up next week
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just checking in
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well here i am. still alive and clean. happy? no. but i have depression so that doesnt really work. but i went to a concert tonight with my friends and i had such a good time but i want to cut myself and use. yes ive had cravings in the past 153 days or so that ive been clean but not this bad. all i want to do is curl...
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I alone can do it.
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I alone can do it. But I can't do it alone --Anonymous
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JFT September 24 A growing concept of God
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September 24 A growing concept of GodThe only suggested guidelines are that this Power be loving, caring, and greater than ourselves. We dont have to be religious to accept this idea. The point is that we open our minds to believe. Basic Text, p. 24 = In a lifelong process of coming to believe, our und...
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Letting go with love (and understanding).
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I was in a very un-acceptable situation in my old home group and had decided to take another one.. I was agonizing on how to go away in peace... I read, thought ,prayed and Meditated !! And then it unfolds...and now Im thinking "Whew, how differently Ive acted" I was thinking how to let go of th...
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JFT September 23 Dealing with gossip
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September 23 Dealing with gossipIn accordance with the principles of recovery, we try not to judge, stereotype, or moralize with each other. Basic Text, p. 11 = Lets face it: In Narcotics Anonymous, we live in a glass house of sorts. Our fellow members know more about our personal lives than anyone...
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JFT September 22 Keeping the gift
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September 22 Keeping the giftLife takes on a new meaning when we open ourselves to this gift. Basic Text, p. 107 = Neglecting our recovery is like neglecting any other gift weve been given. Suppose someone gave you a new car. Would you let it sit in the driveway until the tires rotted? Would you just d...
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Here I go again
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I just don't get it???? I'm so glad that I'm clean yet I go through these really depressive states. I feel like I've got this great big scream trapped inside me. I've been prayin my little heart out for 2 days now and I'm just not getting any relief. Maybe it's got something to do with this tooth ache I've ha...
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ok here we go!
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I have a sponsor now who is educated with most of my issues have relized Ihave issues with self honesty but at the same tiome honest to a fault??!! I called my new shrink told them how long Ithink Ihave been in my room and I go tomorrow told them why I cancelled my therapy appointment aggitated cause she say...
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what does "normal" feel like
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I have no problem meeting ppl but then they see just how profound my probs are and sooner or later they all leave i don't wanna be alone nemore i want to not fear the outside world per say
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Heading North again!
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We are on our way back to New York state tonight at 7:15 tonight....Had a blessed and wonderful stay.Able to get to 3 meetings ,all during the day,and met some nice people. The world wide fellowship reaches its arms out to all ,felt like I belonged in each group, wonderful.Being new guy in town I was aske...
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Get Clean and Stay Clean without GOD
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You can get clean and stay clean without being confused about the religious spirituality of 12 step programs because I have and so have many, many others. You no longer have to feel guilt about being a closet athiest in NA. "the steps are ment to be suggestive only" You cant turn it over when i...
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JFT September 21 Prayer
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September 21 PrayerPrayer takes practice, and we should remind ourselves that skilled people were not born with their skills. Basic Text, p. 46 = Many of us came into recovery with no experience in prayer and worried about not knowing the right words. Some of us remembered the words wed learned in ch...
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JFT September 20 Courage to change
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September 20 Courage to changeGod, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Serenity Prayer = Recovery involves change, and change means doing things differently. The problem is, many of us resist doin...
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Positivity
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Ok, so i had to do this assignment in my Outpatient.. i had to say something positive about myself.. here's what i got: I've obsessed for days nowfor this "positivity" you ask of methought of things and dismissed thembecause positive i cant seem to seeI thought well, I'm a good mombut we all...
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JFT September 19 Fellowship
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September 19 FellowshipIn NA, our joys are multiplied by sharing good days; our sorrows are lessened by sharing the bad. For the first time in our lives, we dont have to experience anything alone. IP No. 16, For the Newcomer = When we practice using the steps and the other tools of our program to work th...
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Faith restored
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my son is home and well ty you all for your prayers and support I am still clean thru these trials and doin well myself I appriciate MIP for all you have done for me over the years ty opnce again
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