I have lately due to becoming aware of the fact that my PERCEPTION of things can really get pretty F'd up at times.
How i perceive something seems to come from an intuition or a belief I can even imagine whats meant or being said , and it can be wrong and I act on what I THINK and FEEL and often that action is wrong and hurtful .
I seem to get defensive and assume things that can sometimes be very wrong, then again sometimes i'm right on. It's the times that I am wrong that I run into trouble..
I think that this is going to take some time understanding and finding ways to deal with, probably on a spiritual basis because I believe I have just discovered a shortcoming of mine that I have been unaware of and BAFFLED by.
All we have is perception. We never see anything as it actually is because once we "see" it it has already changed. (a la Einstein, Buddha etc.). Our perceptions are colored by our experience. We all see things through the filter of our physical makeup and history. It's why police can interview 10 people who saw the same thing and get 10 different versions. It's very human, and there is really is no way around it. I think that's why trust in a higher power is so important. Very cool post there vin
Hey Vin! Yes perception can make us crazy! what we thingk ,compared to what really is!! anyway I had shared with Don a year or so ago on the cool little booklet,"the 4 agreements by dom miguel Ruiz,where 2nd agreement talks about "Dont take anything personal" and goes on to explain some cool things to look at..Totally different than what we are taught as we come up.If you get a chance check it out,think it was like $2.00 or something ,could probably even google it...;THE FOUR AGREEMENTS" DON MIGUEL RUIZ!! yes good post how we perceive and how we choose to react can set the table for us!! table can get squirrely huh!! :)
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I have a feeling the less self interested we are the less problems with perception we'll have LOL.
Just about anything problematic we run up against can be changed by spirituality and practicing principles, I just get NUTZ and mixed emotions at times that throw me under the bus
Avid said "It's very human, and there is really is no way around it. I think that's why trust in a higher power is so important." Humph...stole my lines!! LOL
Seriously, this issue plagues me royally at times, sometimes bad enough to send me flyin' into temporary insanity. Usually it comes down to stress, stress, and more stress .
When I am losing the battle with reducing, coping with, and handling the stress--in spite of ALL my 12 step tools--then I am in real deep doo-doo and need some professional support! I think that is where trust in my higher power is taxed the most--but I have learned the hard way that lack of trust just gets in His way and delays my return to healthy progress.
At the point of human intervention I either say "Thank God, doc, please help me re-balance." or "Get outta my face, MFKR" depending on the "mood" I am in. Since I use a relapse prevention plan (and WRAP-Wellness Action Recovery Plan) , people who know me and my health practicioners are prepared-all along the way-to help me get back on course.
And then, lo and behold, my perceptions stop being erratic and confusing and sabotaging and start being right on target and once again a reliable guide to doing the next right thing. Full circle back to trusting HP in the first place, becasue when I don't, that is where I usually start going off the rails.
-- Edited by LeeU on Tuesday 26th of October 2010 06:39:59 PM
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It's funny how our perception of things can change over time as we grow and mature. What made no sense yesterday, can be understood today. With guidance and trust in God, more will be revealed......
Fear plays in and also suspicion I often think others are out to hurt me or get over on me. Allowing myself to be vulnerable is another risky thing. Trust is another thing.
And I see that sometimes how we grew up even our heritage plays a role, maybe certain beliefs ?
Anyhow why this came up is I have been hearing people share about how there perceptions have changed then I got hit with a situation with someone close and I took something totally the wrong way, read what I thought into her words and it snow balled, I started OBSESSING and I was totally wrong, then I retaliated OBOY I was so embarrased and ashamed and I did make immediate emends and I think she understood and even forgave my silly ass LOL, .
