men make lots of promises to not follow thru... I could say I date like a man so I don't get played like A bitch but damn I am too fragile to be an ass like that... Now the men I have met tuck tail and run the minute its not in their time frame...I know that you guys will say ask for help but I am too proud I guess I am having ideations with intent and plan but now I have to find the nerve I just can't take any more period I amxed I wanna go to hotel do what needs to be done that way mom doesn'ty have to find me or clean any messes the whole family is up in arms I am tired do they not relaize I can't take anymore??? When is enough enough??? % attempts in and I still ain't got it right but hell there has to be an easier method lol maybe I'll pay a hit man that way he won't fuck up I am tired in so many aspects it sux nothing changes if nothing changes I know get off you tr ass and chasnge something!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WEll some one please tell me whwree to start http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gF4IpD1idpo
-- Edited by Manon on Monday 22nd of February 2010 12:53:41 AM
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Maybe its not all men , just the ones you attract or are attracted to. We teach others how to treat us . Its a simple lesson for complicated people. Heres how I began solving just this kind of problem . My wife and I had a very explosive relationship..She would scream and yell. I would scream and yell . We would chase each other around the house throwing things until she locked herself in the nearest room and sob uncontrolled for hours.
It drove me crazy so I told my sponsor about it . His suggestion ? Lets pray for her , Put her entirely in Gods hands . In the meantime you stop screaming at her, stop chasing her and stop throwing shit ..Wanna know what happened ? As soon as I stopped acting like a madman God preformed a miracle on my wife . She stopped doing all that crazy shit .
just saying .........................
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The fundamental delusion of humanity , is to suppose that I am here and you are out there .
Abstaining from sex, spending, and for that matter, drugs too, always led to being depressed.
Been long since I used drugs,, but only recently abstained from complusive sex and spending !!
The urge does come up and when I abstain from spedning and sex, it is usually followed by depression. To add to my misery, the last year was Hep.C treatment time, and all the attendant suffering that highlighted the depression and sense of isolation.
But,,, yes the big but,, is the fact is that support from Fellows and following the NA Program takes me safely thru those feelings !
Works without fail each time !
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Well, heres an identification I got love !! How do you feel ?
Every man has a place In his heart there's a space And the world can't erase his fantasies Take a ride in the sky On our ship fantasise All your dreams will come true right away
And we will live together Until the twelfth of never Our voices will ring forever as one
Every thought is a dream Rushing by in a stream Bringing life to your kingdom of doing Take a ride in the sky On our ship fantasise All your dreams will come true miles away
Our voices will ring together Until the twelfth of never We all will love together as one
(Earth, Wind and Fire !!!)
Come to see victory In a land called fantasy Loving life a new degree Bring your mind to everlasting liberty
As one
Come to see victory In a land called fantasy Loving life for you and me To behold to your soul is ecstasy You will find other kind That has been in search of you Many lives have brought you to Recognise it's your life now in review
As you stay for the play Fantasy has in store for you A glowing light will see you through It's your day shining day All your dreams come true
As you glide in your stride With the wind as you fly away Give a smile from your lips and say Are you free yes I'm free And I'm on my way
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!