Tolerance, now that i secretary a Wednesday night big book meeting we have a lot of court committed people coming in they dont want to be there some of them and some just dont know whats going on, cross talking during the readings bugs me, thinking there going to leave early all the time and im going to sign there cards when we make it clear they need to stay to the end, sometimes they come in with attitudes but so far most know they need to be there and start identifying with others who share. Mostly i just want to be patient and helpful for them so they continue to come and maybe raise a few bottoms plus this is a little new to me too dealing with people when I am in a postion to be of service face to face.
I have learned to stick it out.I do service and sometimes you fell like you are talking to a tree when you are explaining things at monthly group business meetings.I used to get pissed off , now I just ignore that person now.A lot of people think that there are no protocal that makes the fellowship run.Their the our way or no way gang.A frustrated wiiling servant of Narcotics Anonymous.
Hey Tisa! how ya doin...I still have frustration issues in business meetings,its "new" each meeting!!!!you know 'leaders do not govern..i'd like to wear a shirt with that written in big letters at each meeting.Patience and tolerance I always learn,help me "get the stuff outta my head and voice my suggestions and opinions in a "calm ,non combative way,,Sometimes it really baffles others who may be waiting for"encounters!!!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
After hearing it a thousand times in a thousand different ways, it finally dawned on me that I have a disease that is incurable. I will always have days where I slip into non using addict like thinking. I can't beat myself up over this. It will happen, it's not my fault, I'm sick. So long as I don't act out on my disease then all is well. what about you Tisa? What's the latest thing you have learned?