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hi yes I am still around my life turned into fear after Kelli A drained all parts of me as I found myself in isolation too deep to express I will not post often or with details yet I thought you deserved to know I am alive
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JFT December 25 Anonymity and self-will
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The drive for personal gain... which brought so much pain in the past falls by the wayside if we adhere to the principle of anonymity. Basic Text, p. 76 = The word anonymity itself means namelessness, but theres a larger principle at work in the anonymity of the NA program: the principle of selflessn...
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JFT December 24 Thegroup
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The Twelfth Step of our personal program also says that we carry the message to the addict who still suffers. The group is the most powerful vehicle we have for carrying the message. Basic Text, p. 68 = When we first come to Narcotics Anonymous meetings, we meet recovering addicts. We know they are...
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poem
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Hi. This is a poem I wrote my 3rd day in rehab. I am in early recovery now. Thought this might relate to the people in rehab or recently released and their feelings. You are not alone, because this was for sure my feelings while in that situation. But it does get better. If I Should Die Before My Time If I sho...
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JFT December 23 New ideas
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We reevaluate our old ideas so we can become acquainted with the new ideas that lead to a new way of life. Basic Text, p. 94 = Learning to live a new way of life can be difficult. Sometimes, when the going gets especially hard, were tempted to follow the path of least resistance and live by our old ideas a...
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JFT December 22 A new way to live
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When at the end of the road we find that we can no longer function as a human being, either with or without drugs, we all face the same dilemma.... Either go on as best we can to the bitter endsjails, institutions, or deathor find a new way to live. Basic Text, p. 87 = What was the worst aspect of active add...
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Loving Our Longtimers
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Loving Our Longtimers, a new phone mtg featuring speakers w/30 yrs or more clean, each Wednesday at 8:oopm Eastern. This weekly meeting will be recorded for later playback. Hosted by Historical Significance (559) 726-1300, 108786# Playback (559) 726-1399, 108786#. Please pass this on Tonigh...
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JFT December 21 Acceptance and change
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Freedom to change seems to come after acceptance of ourselves. Basic Text, p. 58 = Fear and denial are the opposites of acceptance. None of us are perfect, even in our own eyes; all of us have certain traits that, given the chance, we would like to change. We sometimes become overwhelmed when conte...
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JFT December 19 Walking the way we talk
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Words mean nothing until we put them into action. Basic Text, p. 58 = The Twelfth Step reminds us to practice these principles in all our affairs. In NA, we see living examples of this suggestion all around us. The more experienced members, who seem to have an aura of peace surrounding them, demons...
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JFT December 18 The message of our meetings
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The fact that we, each and every group, focus on carrying the message provides consistency; addicts can count on us. Basic Text, p. 68 = Tales of our antics in active addiction may be funny. Stories of our old bizarre reactions to life when using may be interesting. But they tend to carry the mess m...
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humilty or humilation
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I am currently on a sixth step, the step working guide states "our goal is to raise awareness of our defects so we can become entirely ready. well in the mist of rasing this awareness I fins myself being humiliated and miserable .. im praying and then I try to control them.. the hope is this is a proce...
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Addict son in jail, and Porter Potty Paul in detox...
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Hi everyone,Just throwing this out there, into the four winds tonight. I got a call this afternoon from my son, from jail. As some of you already know, this time last year (the same week before Christmas), I bailed him out of jail and he jumped the bond and ran three days later. I had to go through the pr...
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Disappointment
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So I started reading the basic text yesterday in preparation for a meeting I was supposed to attend tonight. It would have been the first meeting I went to, and I've been agonizing over it all day. I spent over an hour, I believe, talking to Dusty on the phone trying to get myself in the right place to not be...
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Newbie
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I'm posting for the first time in an attempt to find support. While I have family and friends who are being supportive and sympathetic to my situation, they can't be truly empathetic because they haven't experienced what I have. I want to be able to find someone who's been through what I've been throug...
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JFT December 20 Overcoming self-obsession
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In living the steps, we begin to let go of our self-obsession. Basic Text, p. 97 = Many of us came to the program convinced that our feelings, our wants, and our needs were of the utmost importance to everyone. We had practiced a lifetime of self-seeking, self-centered behavior and believed it was...
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heyo
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What's going my peeps. I am feelingggggg good tonight. What's going on tonight?
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Anxiety and addiction help
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I am currently on suboxone. Before my addiction I had severe anxiety and was medicated for it. I have been working with my recovery clinic and they have found a way for me to see a doctor separately to address these matters. My issue is that what I am on doesn't seem like it's enough. I know as a drug addict w...
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JFT December 16 Where there's smoke
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Complacency is the enemy of members with substantial clean time. If we remain complacent for long, the recovery process ceases. Basic Text, p. 84 = Recognizing complacency in our recovery is like seeing smoke in a room. The smoke thickens when our meeting attendance drops, contact with newcom...
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JFT December 17 Services motives
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Everything that occurs in the course of NA service must be motivated by the desire to more successfully carry the message of recovery to the addict who still suffers. Basic Text, p. xxvi = Our motives are often a surprise to us. In our early days of recovery, they were almost always a surprise! Wev...
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JFT December 15 The joy of sharing
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There is a spiritual principle of giving away what we have been given in Narcotics Anonymous in order to keep it. By helping others to stay clean, we enjoy the benefit of the spiritual wealth that we have found. Basic Text, p. 49 = Time and again in our recovery, others have freely shared with us what...
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JFT December 14 Addiction, drugs, and recovery
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Addiction is a physical, mental, and spiritual disease that affects every area of our lives. Basic Text, p. 20 = Before we started using, most of us had a stereotype, a mental image of what addicts were supposed to look like. Some of us pictured a junkie robbing convenience markets for drug money....
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JFT December 13 Membership
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There is only one requirement for membership, the desire to stop using. Basic Text, p. 9 = We all know people who could benefit from Narcotics Anonymous. Many people we encounter from all walks of lifeour family members, old friends, and coworkerscould really use a program of recovery in their l...
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JFT December 8 Calling a defect a defect
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When we see how our defects exist in our lives and accept them, we can let go of them and get on with our new life. Basic Text, p. 35 = Sometimes our readiness to have our character defects removed depends on what we call them. If misnaming our defects makes them seem less defective, we may be unable to s...
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i got some news.
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A couple weekends ago I went to Chicago with my best friend. We were downtown site seeing and all of a sudden out of the blue I could feel my legs collapsing underneath me. My vision was completely gone I couldn't see and I couldn't hear. I blacked out in the middle of downtown Chicago in the 10 degree weath...
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Freedom from active drug addiction
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On this day, 1984, after more than 25 years of devastation ,heartache and pain,I lifted my head from the floor of a farmhouse I had been staying at and admitted total defeat. I didn't know how I was going to do it, but I chose to do whatever it took to find daily recovery...With the God of my understanding,...
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Another year Clean by the Grace of my Higher Power whom I choose to call God by the Power of NA
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Oops forgot to post! Thanksgiving Eve 11/27 marked 33 years Clean. Just another One Day at a Time in the Life of this Recovering addict.
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JFT December 12 Fear of change
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By working the steps, we come to accept a Higher Powers will.... We lose our fear of the unknown. We are set free. Basic Text, p. 16 = Life is a series of changes, both large and small. Although we may know and accept this fact intellectually, chances are that our initial emotional reaction to chan...
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JFT December 11 Misery is optiona
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No one is forcing us to give up our misery. Basic Text, p. 29 = Its funny to remember how reluctant we once were to surrender to recovery. We seemed to think we had wonderful, fulfilling lives as using addicts and that giving up our drugs would be worse than serving a life sentence at hard labor. In re...
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JFT December 10 Winners
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I started to imitate some of the things the winners were doing. I got caught up in NA. I felt good... Basic Text, p. 153 = We often hear it said in meetings that we should stick with the winners. Who are the winners in Narcotics Anonymous? Winners are easily identified. They work an active progra...
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JFT December 9 Listening
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This ability to listen is a gift and grows as we grow spiritually. Life takes on a new meaning when we open ourselves to this gift. Basic Text, p. 107 = Have you ever watched two small children carry on a conversation? One will be talking about purple dragons while the other carries on about the discom...
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