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To Surrender - Congrats on Two Weeks!
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Hey, I got your message on my 2 week post. Believe me I can sympathize with the difficulty, but now on my third week I find there are more good days than bad, and sleep is getting much better. Even though I am irritable sometimes I don't think going backwards would help. Not sure what would but know I don't w...
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Two Weeks Down!
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Hi everyone, today is my two week anniversary! lol, it sounds so little, but it felt like eternity! I love being able to breathe again and think. The very best part, my son. I never thought he knew or felt a thing about my addiction until I stopped, he has FLOURISHED. He is only 5, somehow he is celebrating...
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New to Reaching out
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Hi im new at reaching out to stay clean. I have been clean for a length of time then i get scared and use again. I have no support system around me, I have very bad anxiety attacks so that stops me from going to meetings around where i live. I thought this was a good way to start. I have been through the rehab and...
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finding it sooo hard 2 get clean,help...........
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hi its my first tim in this forum,iv just been reading everyones msgs and the suport seems great here. im a 28yr old girl from dublin ireland,i dont no if i can talk bout wat drugs im on here but here goes,im on methadone at the moment,but i am still smoking heroin everyday i cant even seem 2 b able 2 get stabl...
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Anniversery
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I have 19 months clean now! I cant believe it. It seems like just yesterday that I took the step to get help. Im still a learning recovering addict but I am well on my way. Guess how I did it? One day and sometimes one hour at a time!
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Dog spelt backwards= GOD !!!
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I know ya like dogs Dog Logic The reason a dog has so many friends is that he wags his tail instead of his tongue. -Anonymous There is no psychiatrist in the world like a puppy licking your face. A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than he loves himself. The average dog is a nicer person tha...
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When do the nightmares let up?
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Hi there, I know nightmares after quitting is normal but it seems like every single night for 16 nights I have had the most vivid and weird dreams, sometimes nightmares, and user dreams. Last night all night was a nightmare of using and users and paying money and not really wanting to but being in the mi...
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guilt and shame
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Hello, Recovery is all up and down! Going on my third week I am heavily into guilt and shame. I can't seem to stop thinking "what have I done?" and "how could I have done this for so long knowing how wrong it was?" and how i wasted my life and my son's life and how could I have been in such...
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Today is my first day
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Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life, but in the middle of it all, losing my job, yet again, due to drugs, that I finally came to the realization that I don't want to do this anymore...I sat down and told both my husband, and my daughter, about all of the lies I have been living and told them that I am t...
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thought I would share something I found
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SCARS OF LIFE Some years ago, on a hot summer day in South Florida, a little boy decided to go for a swim in the old swimming hole behind his house. In a hurry to dive into the cool water, he ran out the back door, leaving behind shoes, socks, and shirt as he went. He flew into the water, not realizing that as he...
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MY honesty
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Hi everyone, I'm back! I now have 4 days (assuming I stay sober for the rest of the day ) TOTALLY, completely sober. I have spent the last 4 going thru fairly mild W/D from stopping the medication I began using to detox off the opiates, and very quickly began abusing. After the first day or two, maybe it was...
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90 clean today woo hoo!
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Hey everyone, just wanted to touch base and let you all know that I am 90 days clean today and very excited. Never thought I'd make it, NEVER thought I'd want to be 90 days clean lol, but now I can't imagine EVER going back to that life again. I hope you all are doing well, my depression fight is "bett...
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march 7 2009 just for today
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March 7 Priorities "The good times can also be a trap; the danger is that we may forget that our first priority is to stay clean."Basic Text, p. 42 Things can get really good in our recovery. Perhaps we've found our "soul mate" built a rewarding career, started a family. Maybe our...
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oh what a beautiful day
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it's so nice outside, finally. well i've been pretty good lately. no trouble. this weekend im going on a church retreat and i get to give a witness about my drug use and how im recovering and what is giving me the motivation to quit. so im pretty excited about that. so how is everyone else doing?
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newly out of rehab~very depressed?
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Hi everyone, I am new to the board & group. I'm hoping to catch a meeting as well. I am 43 days clean now (my first time in 8 1/2 years), it's actually the first time that I've wanted to be clean, or even thought I should be clean. I suffered from depression before I started taking the narcotics, and when...
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situation as of now
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Hello ppl,I`m new to this whole thing so ill just give it a try.I`ve been struggling since my early teens to live an acceptable or different life .Not saying that my upbringing was bad but I felt that in my youth I didn`t have any attention being that I have 7 sisters and I`m the youngest of three broth...
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things are looking up
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can't complain just thought I would say little by little I am getting better I have been referred to a pain specialist and I am getiing my med for my psyc prob under wraps on monday so thngs are more hopefull
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how its going in my world
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hey all, i have been busy doing tons of footwork type stuff to get help for my sons issues, got a little part time work and staying focused on the moment when i feel the panic over where all this is going...im pretty tired which means for me not to make any big decisions, my biggest fear is i will try to come up...
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The Step Group.
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On those days I was very eager to work the 4th Step. I had written a 4th of sorts when I was in a treatment centre. Once on the outside, having experienced a clean life and loving it,I wanted more of what teh NA Program had to offer me. When I read the Basic Text the implications rang true; either I reinforce m...
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march 4,2009 just for today
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March 4 The Process "This program has become a part of me.... I understand more clearly the things that are happening in my life today I no longer fight the process."Basic Text, p. 162 In active addiction, things happened seemingly without rhyme or reason. We just "did things"...
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A new challenge for this recovering addict !
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Well as of now,,its very challenging to have to complete my studies. I find myself not in any social groups here,,but thats ok. Most groups are formed around drinking and partying and if Im not in those gropus because I dont do that then its ok. Im also realising that it is incorrect to place unrealistic...
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Looking back at insanity
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Part of working the first step and admitting our powerlesness lies in learning that we don't know what we don't know. With this understanding and the belief that we can duplicate the efforts of those that got clean before us and get similar results plus the willingness to put forth the effort to make t...
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literature question for a mtg topic
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I am chairing a meeting tomorrow (friday) night and I have been wanting to cover the topic of medication in NA. (i have been trying to cover topics that I havent heard covered very often and I thought this might be a good one) I have found a bit in the basic text and the illness pamphlet, which are good, but...
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real fun without drugs is it possible
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been clean for ages my kids keep me busy and i have fun taking them places and playing and reading with them i have the perfect home perfect kids my family sucks but my partners family is great good friends but i dont do anything for myself exept watch movies and read i want to have fun and feel alive again i f...
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I look so much prettier straight!
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For all these years I've hated having my picture taken because I always have red droopy eyes and look pale. I think I am a relatively pretty girl but ppl always used to ask if I was tired or sad. Lately I'm able to look in the mirror after a shower without red eyes! I look pretty again...I can wear makeup and b...
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Re: Surrender
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Hi there, I am brand new here and your post made me want to join. You mentioned you had an 18month old child. I definately encourage you to kick this habit, before it kicks you or your child sees too much. Too be honest, I was lurking, however, I read your post and had to join just to give you some of my hist...
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Re: Surrenderx2
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Hi there! I went back and checked your last post. I wanted to add that my neuro told my husband that it was necessary for him to treat me like I had a life threatening illness for one month. I don't know if that helps you feel less guilty about the messy house or what. I realize your baby is only 18mos. old,...
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PROGRESS
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Hi guys, I finally flushed the ounce I bought the day before I quit. That's right, $325 down the poop shoot. But first, i took a hit. BAD ME! lol It smelled bad, it tasted bad, it wasn't at all what I *remembered*. I had to flush like, three times for it to go! I don't think of it as a relapse, maybe it is but it do...
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12 Step Programs in 5 minutes or less
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Hello everyone. I recently completed a video blog going step-by-step through the twelve steps of the original Alcoholics Anonymous program. I created a video on 12 Step Programs because they are an important part of the support culture for people looking to change their lives. I make it clear in t...
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caught up in the shit storm
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hey, so i'm struggling today. I been caught up in the drama which is the rooms. I've made some bad choices in friends and have seen the truth. The truth is that their recovery isn't what they claim to be and the drama ensues......... I'm struggling to let it go, and back away from the shit. How can i s...
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