Hi, thanking everyone for your notes to me, you have been so helpful!! I hate to admit this is not as hard as I thought at times. Other times it's harder. But I think I can do it, no, I know I can. I just want to be normal. I am a good person, I don't want to hide under red eyes and a foggy brain any more. That is not me, that is the old emily. The new emily is just a normal person! I am going for a physical today to make sure I have not given myself lung cancer or any thing else from so many years of abusing pot. Then I am joining a gym. Someone in MA chat yesterday said there is nothing anyone can't do. I think that is true. and I am no different, better, or worse, than anyone. We are all just humans struggling through life.
Thanks again, please keep helping if you can because it makes all the difference to have notes to come home to.
I'm so proud of you! This is called pulling up the big girl panties and dealing and GOOD FOR YOU!
This is where our self esteem comes from... Doing things that make us feel good about us! There will be days when it's harder than other days and that's OK... You already have the experience and the evidence that the bad days turn back into great days and then back again and you can get through ALL of them without using!
What about actual meetings, in your community? I think it would be really, really beneficial to you to get to some meetings, get to know some recovering addicts and let them get to know you, get a sponsor and some phone numbers. The ultimate weapon for a recovering addict is another recovering addict!
Keep on keepin' on sister!
I LOVE you!!!
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The truth does not change based on my inability to stomach it - Flannery O'Connor
My happiness grows in direct proportion to my acceptance and in inverse proportion to my expectations - Michael J. Fox
Good on you Emily and just keep coming back, share what you need to share. We're all good people with just a few little troubles and they can all be worked out in time, be patient be vigilant and stay on course.
