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allypeper · allypeper

I am newly clean. I have been high in some way or another for basically ten years. Now I am sad all the time. I have no escape from my feelings. i don't have any friends left, because all of my friends are junkies. How does anyone else deal with this? Thanks

Raman · Raman

Hi Lee,, May i request you to do a main share here ? You know,, your experience,strength and hope. Me and many more here would be delighted and I know theres a great message of recovery a' coming from you ! Thanks.

jcd aka jayson cole · jcd aka jayson cole

Keep It Simple Heaven and hell is right now. . You make it heaven or you make it hell by your actions.----George Harrison We used chemicals to feel better, but we started feeling worse. We were out of control. Life seemed like hell. Now we have a program that tells us how to make life better. Some days, it e...

jcd aka jayson cole · jcd aka jayson cole

April 21 Fear "We have found that we had no choice except to completely change our old ways of thinking or go back to using."Basic Text, p. 21 Many of us find that our old ways of thinking were dominated by fear. We were afraid that we wouldn't be able to get our drugs or that there wouldn't be eno...

defeatedgirl123 · defeatedgirl123

Happiness is just outside my window. lyrics from the fray. i wish that happiness could be bought because i would spend a million dollars on it. ever since i left treatment life has just been going down and down. i use, i fight, i cry, and i destroy myself physically. i push everyone away. i dont go to meeti...

Boondock_saint85 · Boondock_saint85

I have to say im kicking ass in this right now!!! I finally have established a solid relationship with a hp and im facing my fears and it is awesome!!I have never been so eager to start 12 steps.I finally asked someone from my meeting to sponser me. And they said yes! Im so excited like everything is ch...

Raman · Raman

New experiences have always been welcome in my recovery,,and this Program/Na has made certain I get new experiences whenever things are getting stale and I need new inspirations. Heres a strange story about a strange phenomenon. One cold ,lonely but serene evening I was walking back from college,...

BigV · BigV

and ensure your post or thread doesn't end up being butchered by me... 1. Beeotch 2. Cheese and Crackers 3. Cheese and Rice 4. Cheeses 5. Crud 6. Dag Nab It 7. Darn 8. Diablo 9. F-ing 10. Farging Icehole 11. Fec 12. Feng Shui 13. Fiddle Sticks 14. For Rice Cakes! 15. Freaking 16. Frickin 'A 17. Fudge 18. Geez...

BigV · BigV

"We humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings." Step Seven Once we are entirely ready to have our character defects removed, many of us are entirely ready! Ironically, that's when the trouble really starts. The more we struggle to rid ourselves of a particular defect, the stronger tha...

AnthonyG · AnthonyG

This was a friend of my kids and of the family . They all grew up together. Its my 9th funeral in 4 years . My 5th in 316 days of recovery. Sawyer was riding a 4 wheeler and was drinking. He was 19 years old. If you have the time and a youtube account maybe you could leave some condolances for the family..Hi...

Boondock_saint85 · Boondock_saint85

poem 6im tired of giving myself away fragmented pieces left to lie please not today humbled before God on my knees I knealt asked to guide me and remove the pain i felt i didnt want my addictions anymore path to enlightment discoveries made life once again is worth living for I awake to the dawn with utter...

BigV · BigV

Let go of that wheel let the higher power drive you for a change. Step one powerless and unmanageable, step 2 believing in a power that can help us with our powerlessness, uselessness, and helplessness. Step 3 turning it over to that help. It's a simple decision as that, each day brings new life, trust,...

Jana40503 · Jana40503

I was sitting in a jail holding cell, pregnant, tired, scared and wondering how I'd ended up there again. The day before was the last day I used. Today I celebrate six years clean. I am a miracle!

singingfool · singingfool

I visited my daughter today in the mental health unit of our local hospital. She was unable to get a bed in a detox unit so the rehab facility she plans to go to suggested the emergency room. She told them she didn't want to hurt herself but if they didn't help her she would have no choice but to overdose. S...

Student101 · Student101

Hi. I am a nursing student and a child of a former user. I am writing a paper on meth use and part of my paper is resources for the addict and the family. I thought I remembered attending meetings as a child somewhat like Al-anon. Does that exist in this situation? Does anyone know? Any help would be greatly...

marigoldhead · marigoldhead

I had a 20 month anniversery yesterday. Im like the other guy... I forgot. Im very blessed to have another day clean. The system works if you work it. I have felt better than ive felt for years...... Todd

10_years_of_big_white_lie · 10_years_of_big_white_lie

Hello everybody. Been looking for a place like this for a while and now I hope Ive found it. I live in Eastern Europe - Bulgaria and perhaps I am the only one here from the balkan region. I know probably its a bit unusual for me to register here, but believe me there are no such places and comunities where I co...

Manon · Manon

things are kinda strange these days i ffind my self getting agitated easily not knowing the reasons behind it thought patterns a little scattered they are finally treating the ADHD seems to be going okay I have a diagnosis I am not to happy with borderline personality disorder I am in a class that lasts...

LeeU · LeeU

4/6/09 Lee can't count. I was rather distracted last year before and on my anniversary and didn't really "celebrate". So I decided to put more into it this year. Just one miscalculation. My clean & sober date is 4/6/83. For weeks now Ive been sharing, posting & blogging on my &quo...

avajynah · avajynah

The docs had me on script narcotcs for over 3 months. I am on day 4 of withdrawals and I am so depressed and feel so alone. My husband is in the military and says i dont need the hosiptal to get of these meds. I am so depressed and my heart is racing constantly. When will this ever end. I cannot functiona and all...

singingfool · singingfool

As I said before, my daughter went to the emergency room and was admitted to the mental health unit. Yesterday was a rough visit. They said she would be discharged on Friday night at 8:50pm. The rehab facility she planned to go to said that was fine. They can do late admits. I get a call at about 9am thi...

Jana40503 · Jana40503

Two addicts were talking about recovery in the "afterlife". They were wondering if there were meetings in Heaven. They made a pact... Whoever went first would come back and let the other know. Sadly, a year later, one of the friends passed away. Several weeks later, as promised, he cam...

serenity26 · serenity26

well im pregnant and im trying to stop using. i'm 3mo. pregnant by the way. just recently got out of an inpatient program ; which was 8 weeks and i stayed 3. i just had to go, it was too religious. so ofcourse... i used again. i have made the decision that i wont use crack anymore, or drink. while im preg...

myka86 · myka86

i am still very new in sobriety> i was in an inpatient rehab faclity and was released 1/9/2009. i am currently in an intensive outpatiebt drug and alcohol program and am majorly struggling in maintainng sobriety. please any suggestions would be greatly welcomed

BigV · BigV

It took a lot to get here and it takes a lot to stay. Is it worth it you might ask ? DAMN RIGHT IT IS my life is so much better now then then . It aint easy, well hell no its not, it goes against a lot of what's inside of me ( self destructive ) but what was and is still there was killing me today I am living and growing...

BigV · BigV

Which is why I keep reading the " Just for Today" thoughts they help me to see where I am.April 03, 2009For you alonePage 97 "The idea of a spiritual awakening takes many different forms in the different personalities that we find in the fellowship." Basic Text p. 49 Though we all...

drugfree · drugfree

hey everyone, Today i feel like a newcomer. It's been a while since i've had the desire to use drugs due to working the tweleve steps. I felt stable and ready for the next task to be done. I quit smoking, today is day 5 and wow who would of thought it is like stopping drugs except so many things are trigger...

alyqat4 · alyqat4

So I haven't posted in a long while.... No reason just haven't. Still working the program, keeping my service commitments, blahbitty. I keep wanting to post but I think i'm embarrassed cuz I haven't posted! what?! My whole deal with this forum brings me back to my first 6 months of recovery when I would...

Maya · Maya

Hi, I am new to this forum. I have been married for about 3 months now. I knew my husband had a drug problem in the past and when we hooked up he quit. He has relapsed twice, for one day each, since we met. The most recent was last night. He says that he can kick the habit totatlly, but something triggers i...

Raman · Raman

I wanted to go to the Liverpool convetion over the wekend but finally talked myself out of it, Im going to try and list the day and my thoughts on that day about actually getting there !! Thursday nite,,"too early to get there", "the conventions starts only tomorow", "i...

Topic		Started By	Replies	Views	Last Post
	Sad all the time (Preview) I am newly clean. I have been high in some way or another for basically ten years. Now I am sad all the time. I have no escape from my feelings. i don't have any friends left, because all of my friends are junkies. How does anyone else deal with this? Thanks	allypeper	9	437	Apr 21, 2009 by Raman
	Request for Lee.U (Preview) Hi Lee,, May i request you to do a main share here ? You know,, your experience,strength and hope. Me and many more here would be delighted and I know theres a great message of recovery a' coming from you ! Thanks.	Raman	6	464	Apr 21, 2009 by Raman
	plz read its good keep it simple (Preview) Keep It Simple Heaven and hell is right now. . You make it heaven or you make it hell by your actions.----George Harrison We used chemicals to feel better, but we started feeling worse. We were out of control. Life seemed like hell. Now we have a program that tells us how to make life better. Some days, it e...	jcd aka jayson cole	0	399	Apr 20, 2009 by jcd aka jayson cole
	april 21 just for today (Preview) April 21 Fear "We have found that we had no choice except to completely change our old ways of thinking or go back to using."Basic Text, p. 21 Many of us find that our old ways of thinking were dominated by fear. We were afraid that we wouldn't be able to get our drugs or that there wouldn't be eno...	jcd aka jayson cole	0	436	Apr 20, 2009 by jcd aka jayson cole
	an update? (Preview) Happiness is just outside my window. lyrics from the fray. i wish that happiness could be bought because i would spend a million dollars on it. ever since i left treatment life has just been going down and down. i use, i fight, i cry, and i destroy myself physically. i push everyone away. i dont go to meeti...	defeatedgirl123	10	748	Apr 20, 2009 by trueakitalover
	just so amazed!! (Preview) I have to say im kicking ass in this right now!!! I finally have established a solid relationship with a hp and im facing my fears and it is awesome!!I have never been so eager to start 12 steps.I finally asked someone from my meeting to sponser me. And they said yes! Im so excited like everything is ch...	Boondock_saint85	5	459	Apr 20, 2009 by BigV
	A new experience in recovery.!!! (Preview) New experiences have always been welcome in my recovery,,and this Program/Na has made certain I get new experiences whenever things are getting stale and I need new inspirations. Heres a strange story about a strange phenomenon. One cold ,lonely but serene evening I was walking back from college,...	Raman	7	543	Apr 19, 2009 by Raman
	Some useful alternatives that are polite (Preview) and ensure your post or thread doesn't end up being butchered by me... 1. Beeotch 2. Cheese and Crackers 3. Cheese and Rice 4. Cheeses 5. Crud 6. Dag Nab It 7. Darn 8. Diablo 9. F-ing 10. Farging Icehole 11. Fec 12. Feng Shui 13. Fiddle Sticks 14. For Rice Cakes! 15. Freaking 16. Frickin 'A 17. Fudge 18. Geez...	BigV	4	503	Apr 18, 2009 by DeanC
	"I understand" Just for today. (Preview) "We humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings." Step Seven Once we are entirely ready to have our character defects removed, many of us are entirely ready! Ironically, that's when the trouble really starts. The more we struggle to rid ourselves of a particular defect, the stronger tha...	BigV	1	600	Apr 18, 2009 by LeeU
	Tough pill to swallow. (Preview) This was a friend of my kids and of the family . They all grew up together. Its my 9th funeral in 4 years . My 5th in 316 days of recovery. Sawyer was riding a 4 wheeler and was drinking. He was 19 years old. If you have the time and a youtube account maybe you could leave some condolances for the family..Hi...	AnthonyG	6	515	Apr 17, 2009 by Raman
	two poems (Preview) poem 6im tired of giving myself away fragmented pieces left to lie please not today humbled before God on my knees I knealt asked to guide me and remove the pain i felt i didnt want my addictions anymore path to enlightment discoveries made life once again is worth living for I awake to the dawn with utter...	Boondock_saint85	4	477	Apr 17, 2009 by Boondock_saint85
	One more chance (Preview) Let go of that wheel let the higher power drive you for a change. Step one powerless and unmanageable, step 2 believing in a power that can help us with our powerlessness, uselessness, and helplessness. Step 3 turning it over to that help. It's a simple decision as that, each day brings new life, trust,...	BigV	2	473	Apr 17, 2009 by BigV
	Six years ago... (Preview) I was sitting in a jail holding cell, pregnant, tired, scared and wondering how I'd ended up there again. The day before was the last day I used. Today I celebrate six years clean. I am a miracle!	Jana40503	11	605	Apr 16, 2009 by BlakeC
	don't know how to react or what to say... (Preview) I visited my daughter today in the mental health unit of our local hospital. She was unable to get a bed in a detox unit so the rehab facility she plans to go to suggested the emergency room. She told them she didn't want to hurt herself but if they didn't help her she would have no choice but to overdose. S...	singingfool	14	454	Apr 14, 2009 by DeanC
	Al-anon type meetings for children of narcotics abusers (Preview) Hi. I am a nursing student and a child of a former user. I am writing a paper on meth use and part of my paper is resources for the addict and the family. I thought I remembered attending meetings as a child somewhat like Al-anon. Does that exist in this situation? Does anyone know? Any help would be greatly...	Student101	5	4002	Apr 14, 2009 by MIKEF
	anniversery (Preview) I had a 20 month anniversery yesterday. Im like the other guy... I forgot. Im very blessed to have another day clean. The system works if you work it. I have felt better than ive felt for years...... Todd	marigoldhead	4	412	Apr 12, 2009 by DeanC
	Some kind of introduction... (Preview) Hello everybody. Been looking for a place like this for a while and now I hope Ive found it. I live in Eastern Europe - Bulgaria and perhaps I am the only one here from the balkan region. I know probably its a bit unusual for me to register here, but believe me there are no such places and comunities where I co...	10_years_of_big_white_lie	11	551	Apr 12, 2009 by LeeU
	short update flustered (Preview) things are kinda strange these days i ffind my self getting agitated easily not knowing the reasons behind it thought patterns a little scattered they are finally treating the ADHD seems to be going okay I have a diagnosis I am not to happy with borderline personality disorder I am in a class that lasts...	Manon	4	668	Apr 12, 2009 by Raman
	More Sober Than I Even Knew! (But still crazy after all these years!) (Preview) 4/6/09 Lee can't count. I was rather distracted last year before and on my anniversary and didn't really "celebrate". So I decided to put more into it this year. Just one miscalculation. My clean & sober date is 4/6/83. For weeks now Ive been sharing, posting & blogging on my &quo...	LeeU	7	603	Apr 12, 2009 by LeeU
	Please help me, I feel like I am dying (Preview) The docs had me on script narcotcs for over 3 months. I am on day 4 of withdrawals and I am so depressed and feel so alone. My husband is in the military and says i dont need the hosiptal to get of these meds. I am so depressed and my heart is racing constantly. When will this ever end. I cannot functiona and all...	avajynah	11	988	Apr 9, 2009 by lanem
	UPDATE on "don't know how to react...." (Preview) As I said before, my daughter went to the emergency room and was admitted to the mental health unit. Yesterday was a rough visit. They said she would be discharged on Friday night at 8:50pm. The rehab facility she planned to go to said that was fine. They can do late admits. I get a call at about 9am thi...	singingfool	9	450	Apr 9, 2009 by singingfool
	Meetings in Heaven? ROFL (Preview) Two addicts were talking about recovery in the "afterlife". They were wondering if there were meetings in Heaven. They made a pact... Whoever went first would come back and let the other know. Sadly, a year later, one of the friends passed away. Several weeks later, as promised, he cam...	Jana40503	3	436	Apr 9, 2009 by NA_ROCKS
	pregnant druggie (Preview) well im pregnant and im trying to stop using. i'm 3mo. pregnant by the way. just recently got out of an inpatient program ; which was 8 weeks and i stayed 3. i just had to go, it was too religious. so ofcourse... i used again. i have made the decision that i wont use crack anymore, or drink. while im preg...	serenity26	6	800	Apr 8, 2009 by serenity26
	i am newly in recovery and struggling (Preview) i am still very new in sobriety> i was in an inpatient rehab faclity and was released 1/9/2009. i am currently in an intensive outpatiebt drug and alcohol program and am majorly struggling in maintainng sobriety. please any suggestions would be greatly welcomed	myka86	6	990	Apr 5, 2009 by della may
	YOu know what (Preview) It took a lot to get here and it takes a lot to stay. Is it worth it you might ask ? DAMN RIGHT IT IS my life is so much better now then then . It aint easy, well hell no its not, it goes against a lot of what's inside of me ( self destructive ) but what was and is still there was killing me today I am living and growing...	BigV	11	662	Apr 3, 2009 by LeeU
	Sometimes I question my 12th step but today I got my answer (Preview) Which is why I keep reading the " Just for Today" thoughts they help me to see where I am.April 03, 2009For you alonePage 97 "The idea of a spiritual awakening takes many different forms in the different personalities that we find in the fellowship." Basic Text p. 49 Though we all...	BigV	2	516	Apr 3, 2009 by LeeU
	taken the next step.... (Preview) hey everyone, Today i feel like a newcomer. It's been a while since i've had the desire to use drugs due to working the tweleve steps. I felt stable and ready for the next task to be done. I quit smoking, today is day 5 and wow who would of thought it is like stopping drugs except so many things are trigger...	drugfree	5	451	Apr 3, 2009 by alyqat4
	self-obsession much? (Preview) So I haven't posted in a long while.... No reason just haven't. Still working the program, keeping my service commitments, blahbitty. I keep wanting to post but I think i'm embarrassed cuz I haven't posted! what?! My whole deal with this forum brings me back to my first 6 months of recovery when I would...	alyqat4	5	610	Apr 2, 2009 by alyqat4
	help, my husband is an addict, any advice? (Preview) Hi, I am new to this forum. I have been married for about 3 months now. I knew my husband had a drug problem in the past and when we hooked up he quit. He has relapsed twice, for one day each, since we met. The most recent was last night. He says that he can kick the habit totatlly, but something triggers i...	Maya	7	459	Apr 1, 2009 by Maya
	I cannot understand my confusion,,, (Preview) I wanted to go to the Liverpool convetion over the wekend but finally talked myself out of it, Im going to try and list the day and my thoughts on that day about actually getting there !! Thursday nite,,"too early to get there", "the conventions starts only tomorow", "i...	Raman	5	544	Apr 1, 2009 by Raman
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