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OK so heres the new deal
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I HAVE to get to live meetings for awhile, get with the program , get a sponsor and start working on myself with the steps and a sponsor because I am in full dry drunk mode. I barely made it to a meeting last week I wanted to drink so bad, after i drink I ALWAYS use so I have to get some things going and worked out a...
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paranoid
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omg I need outta my head -- Edited by Manon on Tuesday 8th of September 2009 07:09:27 PM
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Yes there was love, and then it was gone !
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What a strange life this has been. Yu love to do something and do it and suffer the pain of that llove. You achieve what you want to, then suddenly the love is gone. Then you find someone to love, someone to kiss and someone to miss, you love your soul out to them and reach the highest of highs. then the meet...
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If you ever think of chopping off your fingernail and part of your finger in a meat cutter...
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DON'T! Just a suggestion...
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Facebook omg this is funny
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Manon completed the quiz "Which Greek God are you?" with the result Aphrodite.You are most like Aphrodite, the goddess of Love, Beauty, and Sexual Rapture. You are absolutely drop dead gorgeous, and you like that! You are willing to let you...r beauty do the talking. You love to be in a rel...
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on top of all else (as if I don't have enough)
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my mom called me from the ER they don''t know if it is her heart or her lungs I am guessing I take after her she wanted to go home so she is with my family and are all keeping a watchful eye all your prayers are helpful till I can get back
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Weathering the storm
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Today has been a struggle at best. There some moments that creep in where I am soarly reminded of how much of a mess my life is. The gravity of the damage Ive created wieghs heavy on my heart. Relationship, children, employment. Y'all know the deal. Most will say, let go, move on, stay in the moment! All tr...
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coming back
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Hey guys, Havent been on in a long time. Just getting back. 32 days now and feeling DONE! In all that seems wrong in my life there seems to been a sense of relief. The fight is over. Things could be so much worse for me, yet Im as close to the bottom as Ill ever want to be.
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Where you find love there is hope.
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prayer answered. -- Edited by Keli_A on Wednesday 4th of November 2009 04:19:46 PM
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New here... I have a question about suboxone side effects...?
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Hi everyone - I am new to all of this - very new! I have just started taking suboxone (this is my fourth day) and I was wondering if any of you have had extremely itchy skin and an all-over "drowsy" feeling when taking suboxone?? - my eyelids are so heavy all of the time now and I'm almost afrai...
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how..
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how could i mess up so bad for only being home a week. i dunno but it happened. my first week of school was rough. im stressed with all the work and not enough time in the day and to top it all off i got a ticket for driving with a suspended lisence. and now i have to go to court on the 9th. i will most likely be going...
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my prayer
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Please God (of my understanding) |Take my will and my life guide me in my recovery and show me how to live... the NA way. I started this post with the third step prayer I have been presented with a request that I need the God of my understandings answers when it comes to this my mind has been so confused a litt...
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Meetings in Portland Oregon area
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I have looked and looked for meetings in the portland area. Im going there on business and want to catch some meetings. I am mostly south of portland but can travel. Ive looked on the world site and did not find any. Your help will be much appreciated.
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even though I know I cannot control others(thoughts and actions)
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Hi again all. I recently went on my facebook and was struck in the face by a statement, although not intended for me, threw me into a defensive mode that Im ashamed of.... " I dont believe there is such a thing as addicts in the medical sense. I think its just an excuse to say they cant stop when they don...
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AMMENDS
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I have been here over 3 years I have had my drama no lies here I have good memories and bad shared pain and love for ppl in recovery now once again I need to make ammends WHY? my DRAMA has landed in my lap and this is not the msg I want the newcomer to see this is a safe place to an extent thatn you have to do what it ta...
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welcome to my nightmare
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this so fits Iam sure many can relate Ijust found out this was a song when I had said to someone "welcome to my nightmare" as my life has seemed to be recently as the events of a major tragedy has presented itself http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=71hVIGjvuVY
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Group Hug
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It seems so many of us are dealing with such heavy duty s...t, like it just never stops. What would we do without the fellowship(s), in whatever form...live, cyber, telephone etc.? Well, I guess I know what would be done, so I'll just say thanks to all for being here. Life is so hard, it's just breathe-b...
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Needed to dump this!
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hello family! Without a big long ceremony I needed to talk about this more or less just to get out of my head and move forward.I have a 23 year old son (recovering heroin addict) been living with us since release from jail last November.He has been clean of shooting dope since his initial arrest in 2007.H...
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Random thought
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MY EYES ARE NOT BLUE!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Never too late to show humility
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In this context legitimate humility comprises the following behaviors and attitudes submission to God and legitimate authority;recognition of the virtues and talents that others possess, particularly those which surpass one's own, and giving due honor and, when required, obeisance;recogn...
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An incantation !
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I am special, Please let me see, That in every aspect of my life, They can say it is good to be me. And as it harms none so shall it be ! That incanbtation offered to a lit candle, after doing some inventory writing, is my prayer for removal of every bit of self destructiveness from my character. Remember ? Th...
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something I wrote (poetry)
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You look at me and wonder why so sad? Just glad someone noticed me as I was going mad. No one ever asks why I feel so bad, for fear they will wakr the monster who lives here. You seemed to have misunderstood as I told you what I could. Dying to belong........has it really been that long? Years feel like minute...
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H and I and literature
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Well my old NA sponsor ended up in jail. ISn't there a publication that he can get from NA or H and I. I know they stopped printing MBM. thanks MAtto
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HeY Raman,songs to ponder!
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Hello Raman! I have been reading some of your posts and was thinking of you.Check out some of these on this site.Heres some words pretty vivid!! Woke up with a yawn ,its dawning and I m still alive I turned on my radio to start up a new day As damned DJ chattered how to survive Amazing news got on the airwaves...
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Step one Encouragement
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"If problems pile up and our resources for coping with them dwindle, we may feel out of control and in too much pain to do anything constructive for ourselves. We feel overwhelmed by life, and that feeling seems to make everything worse. When our lives seem to be falling apart, we reapply oursel...
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YAY/work
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I'm so excited this is the first time I've been on here that other people are online at the same time...:) Hi Anthony and Raman... It feels more real....!!! LOL is this a dumb topic? How about.... mm ok I got one.. How do you all deal with people at work that are above you on the ladder that bring on feelings...
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honesty to a fault
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giving it to my God -- Edited by Manon on Friday 4th of September 2009 08:29:47 PM
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Love and decisions.
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prayer answered. -- Edited by Keli_A on Tuesday 1st of September 2009 06:00:48 PM -- Edited by Keli_A on Tuesday 1st of September 2009 06:07:21 PM -- Edited by Keli_A on Friday 4th of September 2009 06:04:22 PM
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spray painted heart
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prayer answered. -- Edited by Keli_A on Friday 4th of September 2009 06:06:46 PM
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insight on the real me
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his first thing is something I have related to most my life my Papa would play his guitar and this the lyrics in which I learned to define myself: In the yard where children Were playing games one day A little boy on crutches Was watching wistfully It seemed so hard he couldn't play Like other children do T...
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