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despondent
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for lack of a better word I chose thatI am kinda in a weird state of mind I really just don't care I am really rethinking the roomate deal but I go to pre op for a series of sureies that I have managed to put off for sometime and will need around the clock care. My shrink is also saying I need that as well for now bu...
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JFT March 15 Feeling "a part of"
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March 15Feeling a part ofThe get-togethers after our meetings are good opportunities to share things that we didnt get to discuss during the meeting.Basic Text, p. 98=Active addiction set us apart from society, isolating us. Fear was at the core of that alienation. We believed that if we let othe...
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Finding my way back
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I had 2 years of clean time and i relapsed recently. I don't know how to go back to a meeting and admit my mistake. I want to get clean and stay clean, but I am unsure of myself. i remember how I walked into the door previously and i don't want to have to reach that bottom again. I feal like i am keeping a dirty lit...
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Story of a friend.............
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The man was 78 when he died peacefully surrounded by his family day before....I didnt know he would, otherwise Id have simply cancelled the music practice and gone there instead..... Anyways, here is his story, which he wanted me to share with other addicts...... Y joined the navy when young and went...
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Loving What Is
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Hi everybody. By seeking a better way to live we are improving the world. I hope you are finding recovery in YOUR life. I haven't been active on this brd, and just felt like sharing where I've been at. Approaching 4 years clean... basically I stopped all forms of mind altering substances the day she said...
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Codependents Anonymous Group started on MIP Today!
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Hello Everyone, At the request of numerous members of MIP I have started to put together all the web site related fixin's of a Codependents Anonymous Group on the MIP 12 Step Recovery Forums site. You can access the CODA home page from our main home page at http://www.12stepforums.net or directly at...
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aggitation levels
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AS they are tapering off my anxiety meds I am finding myself a bit "froggy" just ready to fight over everything I hate it tentsion is high I came in so pissed from running errands my roommate thought I was gonna take itout on her she jumped back like there was glass everywhere I guess my past sti...
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JFT March 14 Relationships
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March 14RelationshipsAlso, our inventories usually include material on relationships.Basic Text, p. 29=What an understatement this is! Especially in later recovery, entire inventories may focus on our relationships with others. Our lives have been filled with relationships with lovers...
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the weight has been lifted.
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from my shoulders. yesterday was a rough day. just because of the cravings at work. i got home got on my knees and cried out in despairation. pulling myself together a friend of mine asked what i was doing later that day. i said nothing. she invited me to an event called XLT. i had no idea what it was. for all...
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JFT March 13 That one special person
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March 13That one special personA sponsor is not necessarily a friend, but may be someone in whom we confide. We can share things with our sponsor that we might not be comfortable sharing in a meeting.IP No. 11, Sponsorship, Revised=Weve asked someone to sponsor us, and the reasons we have for aski...
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life sucks sometimes
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well as you know i moved into my apartment, im getting a divorce with my husband,because he choose to do drugs instead of having a family. i guess everyone makes the choices they make for a reason i dont understand why he did what he did but i will move on from it.my kids are to important to me to let him stop m...
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just an update.......................
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I just wanted to give you all the update on my kids being home everything is going well so far. Just alot of work keeping up this house I kno its an everyday job but I just want to make sure that everything is perfect for the cps so that they cant find a reason to come out and take my kids again. my youngest child...
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emotions
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I feel alone. but im not. My boyfriend knows im an addict but we dont talk about it. i dont talk about when im having cravings or a bad day or when i just want to cry. people perseve me as a strong person and i am. i cant admit that im weak. he doesnt understand what its like to be an addict and i dont expect him to...
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I need help
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I am a crack head and don't know how to stop.I stopped before and still keep f---- up.
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pissed off and confused
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well i got my test results back and guess what it came back positive for weed they said it was low but the fucked up thing is i never even smoked weed that bothers me very much cuz now i have a dirty i was in a room with someone smoking weed i dont know it just gets to me cuz i knew i had nothing to worry about i haven...
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And this too has passed!
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Morning and welcome to another day of "life"! Its been a few weeks now since the pain, drama and trials of my wife's sister trying to commit suicide has passed .She has been released from ICU and is now getting outpatient counselling and drug treatment. My 14 year old nephew was taken from...
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Struggling daily to resist
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I'm, I dunno, a few weeks clean. It's been pretty annoying. Definitely the hardest thing I've ever done before. I'm just kinda doing it day by day, though that seldom feels like it's enough. I've only explained the situation to a few people. My wife, since she reads me like a book, and one or two close fri...
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JFT March 12 Getting out of the rut
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March 12Getting out of the rutMany times in our recovery, the old bugaboos will haunt us. Life may again become meaningless, monotonous, and boring.Basic Text, p. 78=Sometimes it seems as though nothing changes. We get up and go to the same job every day. We eat dinner at the same time every night....
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Gratitude
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Well, my dad had back surgery yesterday and it went really well. They had to scrape bone (due to arthritis) and fuse two vertebrae. It took forEVER, but we were finally able to see him after about 6 hours. Seeing my dad, 61, sitting in a hospital bed, getting fed ice chips by my mom, and really unable to...
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went to the doctor
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went to my primary as wella s my shringk in the past couple of day s been a busy week I am cancer free but have done permant damage to my lungs due smoking almost everthing I could get my hancds on I aCOPD which is not new for me the shring is tapering me off some un safe medicines for good reason and losses of tim...
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finding myself confused
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well my best friend is here I am seeing her live her life as if her ex-husband doesn't or never exsisted I have always known her as a couple with her husband now I see guys coming to visit and her getting the attention I used to when I was active in my own life and I find myself jealous the thought came to me in a d...
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JFT March 11 Lightening the load
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March 11Lightening the loadIt will not make us better people to judge the faults of another. It will make us feel better to clean up our lives...Basic Text, p. 38=Sometimes we need something tangible to help us understand what holding a resentment is doing to us. We may not be aware of how destructiv...
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Have to face life on lifes terms today
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My dying Aunt, going up to visit with her a bit before she falls into coma from cancer. She's unable to eat after radiation treatment, her asophogus is destroyed and she's chosen not to take a feeding tube so she's losing strength. I just hate this fact of life, it has to be faced with acceptance, it is li...
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toooooooday!
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todays my birthday! im the big 2 0. no more teenage years. its time to grow up and start being an adult. haha who am i kidding! i will never grow up. but i will not use, i will not use, i will not use on my birthday! once i get past my 21st then its off to the most useless birthdays of my life. well except 25 then i ca...
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newcomer question: spring break
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Hi everyone. I'm a newcomer with 38 days clean. My husband has been supportive though in the beginning he said I needed to do 90 in 90 or he would divorce me. I am happy in my recovery and have met an amazing support group of women.
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JFT March 10 Our own recovery
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March 10Our own recoveryThe steps are our solution. They are our survival kit. They are our defense against addiction, a deadly disease. Our steps are the principles that make our recovery possible.Basic Text, p. 19=Theres lots to like in Narcotics Anonymous. The meetings, for one, are great...
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JFT March 9 Small things
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March 9Small thingsIn the past, we made simple situations into problems; we made mountains out of molehills.Basic Text, p. 90=Making mountains out of molehills seems to be our specialty. Have you heard it said that to an addict, a flat tire is a traumatic event? Or how about those of us who forget al...
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trust issues
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man I think too much!!!!! seems as if the trust I once had started to build I am losing I don't know why for istance my roomie has been with me here for a bit all of a sudden I am wondering if he takes stuff all of a sudden all the stuff I have here is MINE I feel like a toddler I am not used to sharing my house with any...
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corner!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Im so Excited my friends I have to tell you that on Friday my kids will be home for good........ Such great news for me and my family, and I want to say thank you all for sharing your stories and letting me share mine its been wonderful and I will continue to be on here but just want you all to kno how much I appre...
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cant wait no longer
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the time is so close i just want my kids home already and i know it will be crazy just me and two kids and i got one more on the way but i am strong and i can do it and i have alot of people to help me out so i know i will be ok.
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