Thankyou everyone I was nervous as heck my hands were shaking when I sat down at the computer to take the test, then I took a couple of deep breathes and got busy.
First test was Law and business mostly I got it done in under an hour it was a 2-1/2 hour test, the second half was all trade/painting and I got it done in 45 minutes and that was another 2-1/2 hour test. I just let my momentum get going and went as fast as I could because thats how I work full speed LOL, it was GREAT when she said I passed the second half that was the part i was worried about my heart leaped and skipped a few beats.
Honestly I was ready for failure too I didn't want to have those unrealistic expectations kicking my butt again so I went in ready, I really wasn't ready for success I have to admitt this has thrown me for a loop i'm not used to success at all.
Other good things are happening also i'm just waiting for the trap door to open and swallow me up LOL.
Thanks again everyone hope I can be an example to others that lives do change, not too many years ago I was a hopeless loser addict going nowhere but down hill towards death, I had a slip that opened my eyes to a few things and i've found a new confidence from somewhere, I can succeed in life and relationships, even with all the failures i've had.
I guess at some point wisdom starts actually being used and we actually start learning something and relying on our higher power more and believing in that power greater then ourselves, one that is on our side and wants every single one of us to be a success.
I prayed this morning for my Gods guidenance and help with all things in my life and my life is better today for that.
Thats a good part of all this Lon, we do the total opposite of what we used to do, it's new and scary but take baby steps and don't get into a big rush and become overwhelmed and it's all good!
I am so happy for you, BigV. Congratulations! You Rock!
You give me lots of strength and hope. And yes, thanks for proving that IT INDEED WORKS!
Hugs, Love, Light ~ Tahir.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Thanks Tahir i'm STILL waiting for my license number.
In the mean time i've had a big job offord to me and I took it at first, then things started poping up , things that aren't feeling right and my ducks are not in a row yet I still want to do the job $$$$$$ big money, but today I have decided to finally turn it down, I have to follow my instincts and use my head here to do the right thing for my own safety and securety, everything inside says "JUST DO IT everything will be fine" but maybe it won't be FINE things happen and they could.
What you shared is so true, BigV. As long as we follow the voice of our conscience and try to be as honest as we possibly could, our Higher Power would show us the way and life will bring us opportunities, maybe even better ones are in store...
We must be willing to get rid of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Thanks guys. I actually feel depressed now ,I had a talk with the guy this morning he said and did everything to get me to change my mind, I heard EXTREME SELFISHNESS coming out of his mouth I heard greed and money was mentioned alot and i still stood by my decision.
But emotionally it's unsettling, I just found out today i may be getting layed of temporarily from my full time job, but hey, I have work still with someone else about 6 apartments and I have finally gotten my savings up to a point where i could pay several months worth of bills if i had to, so theres that by the Grace of God.
I just have to slow down my plans and let my HP and things take there course and try not to press to hard. I went and got a business application for the next county over from me so I can seek and do work there and i'll go to the court house here tomorrow and get my business license there to do work in this county that covers alot of land alot of people and alot of property
Peggy I was thinking yesterday just how far I have come. You know this is how I got into painting.
I was living right here where i'm at now and i was recieving SSI and they had cut me off, I had taken my last check and went and bought a grip of crack smoked it up and couldn't pay my rent. So I went to the manager here and asked how long i had before they thru me out , she then asked me if I knew how to paint, I LIED and said of course i could paint, so they hired me. I worked here 3 years before being fired I used most of that time. After being fired I had time to think about where my life was going , I was sick , tired, beat down and dying So I cleaned up, within months I got another job at TWICE THE PAY and I am still there over 6 years later and i beleive i am a damn good painter now HONESTLY i'm getting ready to go into business for myself my confidence runs high and fall back down to low in times like this, I feel like taking the risk i'm used to that i'm not used to refraining mysef and doing what I want to do when I want to do it so this has been hard.
But these are the type of situations this program helps me with, I have alot, I don't need more but I think i'm going to be given more and for a reason and i have to keep that reason top priority, whatever that is I haven't figured out or been told yet but it always will lead back to me helping others I know that much.
I'm rambling and shutting up now thanks again for the props to the back you guys are a Blessing to me.
Hi Vini, One of my favorite sayings is " FAITH is when you have come to the edge of all the light that you know and are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown... Faith is knowing that one of two things will happen; There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught how to fly."
My HP cares for me enough to give me the chance to do what I need to do...even when I am unwilling to initiate the change on my own. HP provides for us, all we need to do is accept what we are given.
Lon
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Courage is not the towering oak that sees storms come and go; it is the fragile blossom that opens in the snow.----Alice Mackenzie Swaim
PAINTER BIG V....YA!!!
you are number #1
teamwork payed off , i'm glad you're doing so well.
you are my hero.
way to go bigv
YOU are the man....
huge hug , peggy
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i'm getting ready to go into business for myself my confidence runs high and fall back down to low in times like this, I feel like taking the risk i'm used to that i'm not used to refraining mysef and doing what I want to do when I want to do it so this has been hard.
