my sponsor isn't so nice anymore I don't mean that in a bad way, he's just not letting me get away with my excuses and pity party anymore-my natural tendency, when someone calls me on my bullshit or whatever, is to go get high and say screw them. I guess it is really time to make a decision to really work this program or not.
Just remember that your sponsor is loving you in the best way posable, not wanting to watch you hurt yourself anymore. I know sometimes the truth is hard to hear, but what he is doing is helping you the NA way. With love and honesty. Trust in the process and you will see the rewards. I'm praying for you and hope you find the willingness to listen to your sponsor's loving guidance.
We need you here please dont give up on this amazing way of life.
It works if you work it, so work it, your worth it!
there i am getting crazy,,playing wrong shots and cussing and being in unmanageabilty !!!
The billiards table can bring the best and the worst in my playing!!!
I hate to look at any downsides !!!
And then i remember my sponsor says ''''HUMILITY IS AN IDEAL STATE FOR AN ADDICT TO BE IN !!!!!""""
IF YOU ARE HUMBLE YOU WILL NOT BE HUMILIATED,, BUT IF YOU ARE HUMILIATED BECAUSE YOU WERENT HUMBLE,, YOU WONT GET HUMBLE AND WILL RESIST FURTHER !!!
SO BE HUMBLE BY CHOICE AND CONCIOUS DECISION !!!!
jUST LIKE ANONIMITY IS THE SPIRITUAL FOUNDATION OF ALL OUR TRADITIONS,,, HUMILITY IS THE BASIS FOR THE SPIRITUAL AWAKENING PROMISED IN THE STEPS,,,AND THAT WILL SET ME FREE FROM MY PAINS !!!!!!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
well, I guess hearing the truth was good (no, I know it was) spent quite awhile yesterday evening, working with my sponsor on the steps. I am doing my personal inventory now....I can't explain it, but I feel better. Not great, still have the same thoughts, but not overwhelming. In fact, last night, on the way home, I realized I felt ok inside, and ok is so much better than I have felt for a long time! Still waiting for the fatigue to go away, but I'm going to get on the exercise bike, get moving again, and go to a meeting tonight
thanks to eveyone for being there for me, and hope you all have a good day!!
You have a great day too, Adriana. Your post made me smile. Thanks for that. It does get better. We do recover...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
I don't mean that in a bad way, he's just not letting me get away with my excuses and pity party anymore-my natural tendency, when someone calls me on my bullshit or whatever, is to go get high and say screw them. I guess it is really time to make a decision to really work this program or not.
