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adriana


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I found something to take-I tried to call my sponsor, and another person from NA , no answer, I just went over to my sisters to get a few xanax...guess that is why you should tell your family? though I don't know how, well, I guess it's back to square one, I'm sorry


I know I didn't have to say anything, but I don't want to lie anymore, I've done too much of that, I want to do this


 



-- Edited by adriana at 20:27, 2006-09-15

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dalin


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just be willing to change.


bunny will help,but you have to ask.


email her at her adress,it is on the sight twice.


im posting these things again.print them and hang them on a wall where you will see them daily.im posting another sight,maybe two,that will help.


http://www.activeboard.com/forum.spark?forumID=52289&p=3&topicID=8088715


http://www.activeboard.com/forum.spark?forumID=52289&p=3&topicID=8328701


http://www.nawol.org/2006_ch14%20TOUGH.htm


 


now that is a good start.


women should have women sponsors,because they understand your issues.


you can still talk to the guy,but somehow the magic happens when two women connect at the heart.


 


 


 



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dalin


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this too okay


http://www.activeboard.com/forum.spark?forumID=52289&p=3&topicID=8319540


 



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recoveryrabbit


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hey hang in there


and the best part is you did the right thing you were honest not an easy thing I am so proud of you.  Did I get it the first second third ok you get the picture.  But I came back became willing and today i have a few days.  Stick with it and keep coming back the only bad relaspe is the one you never some back from.  I will look for you in the chat and yes i accepted you on im so hope to hear from you soon.  My fave saying "today is the first day of the rest of your life" I choose to live it in recovery how about you?



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((((((((((Adriana)))))))))), as addicts we are subject to relapse... Don't beat yourself too much about it... How we stop using again and get back to staying clean is what recovery is all about... What has happened has happened. I cannot go back in the past and change anything... I cannot say that I will stay clean for the rest of my life too... All I have is today, and I just have to stay clean for these 24 hours...


Regretting over the past or dreading the future doesn't help a bit for me... Living in the moment, and surrendering to the magic of the moment is what works wonderfully well, as long as I'm clean this moment, I'm doing something right... Most importantly, never forget that as long as we are trying, we are not failing...


I learnt a lot from my relapses... I came to know what I cannot risk doing, I came to know what I was not doing to stay clean... mistakes are great teachers... If not for my last relapse, I wouldn't have taken a Sponsor and started working the Steps... Today, I go to any lengths to stay clean, just like I went to any lengths to get hold of my drug while using...


There is a Higher Power who is loving you now, and who wants the best for you... Allow that Power to fulfil your destiny... I love you and I need you in my recovery...


Hugs, Love, Light ~ Tahir.



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You ok, Adriana? Please be with us, and share whatever you might be going thru with us... remember, the only requirement is a DESIRE TO STOP USING... and that way, we are all the same... the principle of anonymity ensures that we are all equal, no matter what our individual circumstances might be...

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I'm with what everyone else says. "We're ready when we're ready " Adriana don't be ashamed.

Look at what I did almost 6 years and thru it away because I was a big puss and couldn't handle emotional shit, well what it did was show me and teach me more about myself. And I still doing some of the same shit but alot less now and i'm letting things go better, not everything but it's better at least I let my old lady go finally and believe me I wake up every night angry over that wanting to call and then I want to use and hide my hurt feelings LOL but I do not do either .

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{BIG VINI HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

you wouldn't be able to breathe LOL

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I was getting pills from a friend with a bad back and I told him not to EVER give me those freaken Norco's ever again no matter what I tell him .

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adriana


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thanks guys, I'm going to a meeting here in a bit, I'm not feeling quite as committed now, I've started telling myself that I'm not that bad, maybe I haven't hit my "bottom" yet, but do I have to wait until I'm  on the brink of death to stop. After I posted last night I went to my dealers to see if he had any oxys left, I've never done that. He didn't I went home and now I'm just feeling like I am farther away from realizing I can NEVER use, I'll always want more.

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we love you.


and we will help you.



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adriana


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thanks


love you guys to



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dalin


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well keep coming.


write bunny



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go and vote for the stickys on the 2nd sight

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Adriana, can you do just one thing, using or not using, please keep going to meetings, no matter what... don't miss even a day... See if you can do it... I did the same... clean or stoned, I kept going to these meetings, everyday... after sometime, I realized that I had stopped using... and was clean for more than a month... Let the miracle of meetings work on you... you don't have to do it alone... I know how it feels after a great effort to stay clean and then end up using again... hopelessness threatens and crazy justifications to continue using rush in my mind... but from my weakness came my strength... Today, we have a choice. We can choose to stay clean Just For Today, come hell or high water... It doesn't matter if I have used for the last few days or months or years or a decade or two... Today, I can always try to stay clean... So cheer up, make a meeting, start anew... you deserve it, Adriana... I'm sure you would be the greatest miracle here at Miracles In Progress Group very soon...


Here is lots of smileys I send your way to fill your day with peace and joy...



 



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adriana


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Thanks Tahir


I really enjoyed last night's meeting. I didn't rush out at the end like I usually do, but stayed and talked with people for almost an hour or so. I'm looking forward to tonight's meeting


hope you have a great day and I'm glad to be here



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