I have made it all day without anyting (well, I took my last of my "prescription" first thing in the morning, but since then I haven't went to get more) I haven't been speeling well at all, so my sister is bringing me over a sleeping pill, this is ok isn't it? she's not bringing the bottle-just 1
well, I think I know the answer now-she didn't bring 1 sleeping pill, but 4 xanax, and I took them all-it wasn't about sleep, just taking something. I was just lying to myself
I appreciate your honesty, and your sharing with us, using or not using... I can relate as I also did that... Using or not, I always kept my mind open to NA meetings and fellowship... I kept coming to meetings, kept sharing honestly about my status... until that honesty and openmindedness brought about the willingness in me and thus set me free finally...
Also, admitting that I'm powerless over using, and I can no way control my using, and if I use, my life will only become more and more unmanageable, has helped me stop... In fact admitting and accepting my powerlessness and unmanageability gave me the permission to not use, for the first time in my life... It was easier for me to say no to drugs when I knew that I can never have the control or power over them again... that I have lost it once and for all...
__________________
"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
