No not to use just that overwhelming out of control feeling.
all I wanted to do was go to the gym and workout and my cell phone starts acting up can't get the key pad to work. And then the calls start coming in LOL, first my ex ex girlfriend calls 3 times and I can't answer, then work calls I get the call and they tell me I screwed up something and the supervisor gets on the phone to chew me out and I turn it around on her SHE made the mistake so she HANGS UP ON ME LOL so I can't call back phones not working have to take the phone back to the guy I got it from see if they can fix it, cost $25 and i'm trying not to spend money.
So call back the office and the front desk girl says " She doesn't want to talk to you" LOL nope not getting mad yet just CHURNING GUTS INSIDE OF ME,,, so I call my ex ex back and she starts on me picking at me and i'm taking it all in with levity laughing and she hangs up LOL.
So finally get my other supervisor to call the other supervisor and tell her that i'll fix the problem tonight, get the OK on that, I go and try to get into the apartment and the key box is gone no key LOL made the trip for nothing but figure HEY I made the effort.
It was weird that gut feeling I had just before all this happen it was like some kind of spirit entered my body and put all of this down on me in a matter of an hour, I even started road raging a bit everyone was in my way.
Yeah i stopped and prayed took a break and ate something and got a soda and said grace over my meal and gave thanks for being able to have these things in my life today, thankyou GOD for these gifts....
Yeah, I can relate, BigV. Sometimes there are days like that for me too, when everything seems to go wrong. Even though they are isolated incidents happening on the same day as a coincidence, my sick mind starts connecting them all, and I start feeling as if everything's fallin' apart.
I'm so grateful that I have all of you in those times to share it all out, and so grateful to have the program to work out at these moments to reaffirm myself that ''everything's as it should be''. Being calm in the middle of the storm, is too difficult to be, but not impossible if we apply the program, and make use of the support of the wonderful fellowship by reaching out and sharing our hearts out... It sure heals...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
I CAN FEEL A NEW WAY OF THINKING AND ACTING SETTLING IN ALREADY and I like it , I come out on top more this way rather then looking and feeling like an absolute idiot out of control crybaby throwing a tantrum LOL..
"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
CONGRATULATIONS ON THE BIG 60 GREATEST MIRACLES OF RECOVERY!!!
YOU ROCK BROTHER! WAY TO GO!
GLAD WE HAVE YOU HERE...
HUGS, LOVE, LIGHT ~ TAHIR.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
