I want to be an honest productive member of society. The only thing standing in my way is drugs and alcohol. I have signed up for an AA forum as well. I am scared. I have been so good for so long at telling myself it isn't a big deal unless I am using all day everyday. I don't have an 'off' switch. I am blessed to have God in my life. With out Him I know I would very gladly use all the time. I have only dabbled in the hard stuff. My preference is pot and pills. I guess that is on eway I have justified my using; most of the stuff I'm on is legal. I just need some extra support. I have not smoked pot in about a week, but I took pills last night. I am an addict and this is the first time I have admitted it.
Welcome to NA. Online meeting are a great supliment, but the real program is in Face to face meetings and the NA basic text. Your profile doesn't state where you're at but you can get the number of the NA hot line from your phone book. If you call that number a fellow recovering addict will help you find a meeting in your area. Good luck Bob.
Admitting to yourself that you are an addict is a big deal. I don't see your location either. FOr me, meetings are a huge part of the program. I find others suffering with the same disease and can gather experience, strength, and hope. Maybe you could find some meetings in your area to attend.
I am so scared for it to be out there. My family is going through so much right now with another family member. I know it sounds rediculous and am sure I will be called to task for this, but I don't know if I am ready to do that yet. What I do know is that I cannot go on like this. I think I have talked myself in a circle, sorry. Thank you for your ideas and encouragement.
