My drug of choice was opiates and soma. Today is my 25th day clean and I'm excided to get to 30 days so I can get my chip.
I admitted myself into the hospital because I was taking about 20 Lorcet 10/650s a day and my doctor wasn't doing anything to help me. He would just give me more pills when I would go in and tell him that I wanted to get off of them.
Well, I detoxed...which wasn't that hard cuz they gave me subutex and some other things. After I got out of the hospital, I joined their Recovery Center program which is awesome cuz it's run by professionals who are recovering addicts and alcoholics. So, I'm getting good help.
Anyway, just thought I'd introduce myself and I hope to get to know you guys.
the Basic Text says we are not interested in what you used or how much and who your connections were,,,, only what your problem is and how we can help !!!
however I am curious to know whats 'SOMA' ????
never heard that before except as in the lore that ancient Indian culture was known to use Soma-Ras,,,,
some even called it nectar of the Gods ,,,,
so if you dont mind answering ???
Well anyways now back to recovery=
'THE ONLY WAY TO KEEP FROM RETURNING TO ADDICTION IS TO NOT USE THAT DRUG,PILL,OR DRINK'
And then it says in another page=
most of our information in addiction came from other addicted people ,,,,
i was a victim of the wrong information too !!!
I used grass based on the lore that some indian sages reached very exalted stages in Meditation thru repeated use of cannabis,, called ganja here !!!
The got me very depressed and totally confused after a prolonged period of use !!!
To escape from the paranoia and mental torture of grass,,, i took to opiates in relief after being introduced to opium smoking in a den !!!
That led in turn to smack and one very crazy thing,, indeed among the craziest thing i did in using was to hang out trippers who did LSD,,, in the (weird)belief that my mind would be so altered by good experiences with acid that i need never use smack or pills again !!!
Thank God i didnt lose my mind completely then,,, though i believe that i lost a large part of it and am still recovering !!!!
Bye for now and thanks for letting me share a bit of my story with you !!!
Raman an addict
clean and serene in the 12 Step Tradition of NA !!!!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Keep coming back - have you gotten yourself a sponsor yet? If not, do it! You're off to a good start, and a sponsor can give you the direction you'll need to work the steps - it starts when we get clean, but learning to LIVE CLEAN AND SERENE is the real reward... there are 12 steps to freedom, you know!
Hi Raman, Soma is a very addictive muscle relaxant that turns into a Benzo after the first pass thru the liver. I was was told by my doctor that is wasn't addictive, but found out in the hospital that it was in fact very addictive.
Hi Penelope, YES!! I do have a sponsor and she is great!
Thanks for the welcome everyone.... 34 days today!!
Spent another 5 days in the hosptial for other reasons and missed getting my chip this week, but I'll get it on Tuesday for sure.
Big day for me today.... I'm coining out from the recovery center I've been going to every day for 20 days. I get my big gold coin with the Serenity Prayer on it. Also, last night, I got my 30 day chip!!! I could have gotten it last Tuesday, but I was in the hospital again.... now, I'm on LOA for three weeks, but I think I need it. I'll still be going to after care and mood management classes there for a year for free, so I'll be seeing my friends here and there.
