Hello, I am a crack addict(who can not spell) Ihave lost many homes and friends. I am on ssdi i get a check once a month.once i start i do not stop till all the money is gone. then i am broke for the rest of the month and i don't think about it. i am very shy, and started going out to the clubs to meet poeple. i do not drink so that is not a problem, but i meet someone who turned me on to crack again after 11 months of clean time. that was three months ago.sice then i have relpased every month without fail. this must stop. i have a friend who is helping me with my money until i can find a payee,but a got a hold of my money anyway.i have to do everything possible to make sure i get a month that i don't relaps...thanks....burt
Burt, it sounds like you want to get clean and I think you know what you need to do. You know you can't go on much longer living this way. Please get yourself into a rehab or go to a meeting. Your life is more important than this high.
you can not do it alone my friend, help is out there for you, so pick up that phone and make whatever calls you you need. whether it is detox and a treament facility or going to meetings and getting hooked in with people with clean time. you do have choices no matter what the disease tries to tell you! welcome back!
Burt, There is only one promise in the Basic Text, that "we never have to use again." There is a little more to it than that, but if we live the program of NA the promise does come true. We learn to act in healthier ways, to think in healthier ways, and to make healthier choices.
Recovery is about surrender. Understanding in it's entirety, that we are powerless over our addiction. That means I never place myself where I have to believe I can "control" my addictive tendencies, even for a moment. I do not hang out with people who use, don't go places where I could see others use, or go near anywhere that the opportunity might present itself. It's so much easier to stay clean when you do not place yourself into places of temptation. If I HAVE to go somewhere where there is a possibility of someone using, (even alcohol), I always make sure that there is a method of escape, someway that I can leave.
There is a lot more to staying clean and finding recovery;going to meetings regularly, working steps, sharing how I feel with a sponsor, asking HP for guidance, ect, ect. It might seem like that is a lot of work, but it is far easier than living the old way. Do these things and you WILL find a new way to live, where YOU will never have to use again.
Lon
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Courage is not the towering oak that sees storms come and go; it is the fragile blossom that opens in the snow.----Alice Mackenzie Swaim
Goodmorning. My name is Danielle and i am also a crack addict.You sound like you don't want to use anymore and you can do this. Instead of going to a bar to meet people try going to an na meeting. You made a start by coming here! Your life is so precious,please get some help.Goodluck to you and take care of yourself....Danielle
