My name is Mandi, I have been using opiates for many years and to the point of being more than sick and tired! of a small pill dominating my life. I have used this time so long its the worst withdrawls I have ever experienced. So, I began to wean myself went from 30mg of oxys down to hydros now I am on tynenol 4s. Dont be decieved still have some withdrawls going on. I need all the support and prayer I can get.
If I am decieving myself by thinking that I am weaning myself by the steps I have taken I need to know from someone who has kicked this addiction. I have no insurance so I cant go inpatient for withdrawls. I was clean for a long time. I know the steps and the meeting I desperately need. the pride thing has really kicked my butt about going back to meeting. So if any one has been thru this. I need some advice thanks-Mandi
hey Mandi,,,I'm CHEERING for you! Sometime enough IS enough. I hope this is right time for you!
...are you able to get to a live meeting?....nothing like sharing hugs with a few other recovering addicts!
edit,,,just saw your 2nd post. You're worried about your 'pride'?......how about your LIFE!?! Get to a meeting like it might save you,,, there's nothing more powerful than addicts helping addicts. If you've been to meetings, you've seen the compassion given to returning addicts....now it's YOUR turn to feel that love!!!
...you'll feel IMMENSE relief as soon as you've spoken, and let some of those demons out!
. .......keep. coming. back!
-- Edited by mikah on Thursday 8th of October 2015 05:20:57 PM
-- Edited by mikah on Thursday 8th of October 2015 05:22:10 PM
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
....'not today'....something more important going on?
.......time for those big-girl pants!
.....all 'kidding' aside,,, I'm glad you're here, glad you're 'weaning' yourself,,, it's not easy I know. You're doing the right thing,,, I'm definitely cheering for you,,, but I'm likely 1000's of miles away, and you need some one-on-one asap!
-- Edited by mikah on Thursday 8th of October 2015 05:29:18 PM
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
Thanks, Exactly what I needed to hear! I have meeting in my area that are within walking distance thats sad that I have allowed my pride to stand in my way. Wouldnt it be fake for me to go when I am still taking the tynenol4s?
They say when you relapse you dont loose the knowledge of N.A. Cant begin to tell you how miserable I have been! Seeing people I sponsored that have stayed clean! Yeah pride agian. I realize my life depends on this. My weight got down to 93pds. I am back up to108 since I have been weaning!. Nothing like a moment of clarity! My daughter brought grandbaby to see me and took pics and when I saw it I was blown away and knew had to do something different if I want to see her grow up! So, thanks for telling me truth. Thats what I need. My family loves me death literally.
Thanks, Exactly what I needed to hear! I have meeting in my area that are within walking distance thats sad that I have allowed my pride to stand in my way. Wouldnt it be fake for me to go when I am still taking the tynenol4s?
..Tradition three.....the only requirement for membership is the -desire- to stop using.
...some meetings ask that if you've used today, please share with someone after the meeting. Sometimes people refrain from sharing when they don't feel 'right'. I've done this at times when I'm on prescribed painkillers.
....It's good to take a step forwards anytime you can. Do you have any phone #'s of others in recovery from last time?,,,I'm sure they'd be happy to hear from you....or a past sponsor? You can also google for the NA helpline in your area.
As you well know,,many,,most don't 'get it' the first time,,,any addict you phone knows the struggle,,,that's the beauty, love, compassion you'll feel once you surrender to step one.
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
They say when you relapse you dont loose the knowledge of N.A. Cant begin to tell you how miserable I have been! Seeing people I sponsored that have stayed clean! Yeah pride agian. I realize my life depends on this. My weight got down to 93pds. I am back up to108 since I have been weaning!. Nothing like a moment of clarity! My daughter brought grandbaby to see me and took pics and when I saw it I was blown away and knew had to do something different if I want to see her grow up! So, thanks for telling me truth. Thats what I need. My family loves me death literally.
...yah,,,nothing worse than drugs in the body,,recovery in the mind!!
....how 'bout you go dig up sone of those sponsee phone #'s right now,,,make the call that saves your life,,,,let me,us know how that went. I really feel rather useless wayyy over here in nowhereville,,,want to hear you made the connection that -counts-!!!
...think of those grandchild eyes looking up at you!
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
