Many times in our recovery, the old bugaboos will haunt us. Life may again become meaningless, monotonous, and boring.
Basic Text, p. 78
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Sometimes it seems as though nothing changes. We get up and go to the same job every day. We eat dinner at the same time every night. We attend the same meetings each week. This morning's rituals were identical to the ones we performed yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that. After the hell of our addiction and the roller-coaster craziness of early recovery, the stable life may have some appeal--for a while. But, eventually, we realize we want something more. Sooner or later, we become turned off to the creeping monotony and boredom in our lives.
There are sure to be times when we feel vaguely dissatisfied with our recovery. We feel as though were missing something for some reason, but we dont know what or why. We draw up our gratitude lists and find literally hundreds of things to be grateful for. All our needs are being met; our lives are fuller than we had ever hoped they'd be. So what's up?
Maybe it's time to stretch our potential to its fullest. Our possibilities are only limited by what we can dream. We can learn something new, set a new goal, help another newcomer, or make a new friend. Were sure to find something challenging if we look hard enough, and life will again become meaningful, varied, and fulfilling.
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Just for today: I'll take a break from the routine and stretch my potential to its fullest.
I am at a time in my recovery that life is boring , monotonous and some of my past bad thought arise also . My sponsor told me to make a list of what I am grateful that i have . I get dissatisfied of and on , it could be from not being as involved as I used to be . I probably need to get back into service all the way like I used to be . It seemed as though I had no time to let the mind wander , it kept me connected to my recovery a lot more than now . I had really no time to let my mind wander and think about bad things .
