I had called my brother for help. I asked him to come half way across the country and pick me up and take me home.
It was very deliberate, I couldn't wait for him to take a three day bus ride so I called my grandpa and without hesitation he loaned me $1000.
My bro flew out the next day; young as he was he didn't fully understand what I was going through but he was always pretty good at listening to his big sister.
We loaded up a u-haul and I never looked back.
I've been on this board since 2011 because things started going awry when my teenager started developing mental health issues. It's taken me to a whole new level of understanding my addiction, my higher power and staying clean. 20 years ago I literally 'turned my back' on the environment where I found temptation but turning your back on your child isn't an option. It suddenly became a different kind of real, one that I wasn't really prepared for, so I turned to MIP as a sounding board. I'm so thankful for everyone here... the support has been tremendous and as a result... here I am. Thank you!
Blessings everyone! You are all, veteran to newbie, in my prayers for a continued successful journey.
kd
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"The Greatest Possession We Have is The 24 Hours Ahead Of Us"
Congratulations on all things(20 yrs)..In recovery WE remember "lost dreams awaken and new possibilities arise.. In total and heartfelt identification I thank you for the positive message of HOPE and unconditional LOVE..During our son's 7 years of heroin addiction,preceeded from the age of 12 with severe OCD/Manic /Depression,Anger issues and propensity to Steal things(taking us to the cleaners,bankruptcy and all the goodies that occur in addiction and mental illness,my own personal recovery was truly shaken..Not in as much as I wanted to use again(after at that period over double decades but to the point of not having kids,not being married,just wanted to dig a hole and Hide..Only our(my) true willingness to submit to our 3rd/11th Step completely,maintain support (through NA and Nar-anon) and the true Peace found through the God of my own understanding were we able to weather the storm.It at times it seemed all I did was revolve around either active drug addiction(over 25 years from a young age) or recovery 3 decades with constant daily work or Mental Illnes ,some of my own and my sons I at times felt so worn but never without HOPE,,,our message..I keep you lifted up in thought and prayer and am truly happy for your daily journey of LIFE,,not just existence as sometimes it seems all WE do...I lift your son up in support and prayer and all those in your support group.I am a firm believer in Pain shared is Pain lessened..WE are all Newcomers to each day,it is all WE have at that moment...keep doing the work guided by that Power that helps keep you free of active addiction and brings the 'Peace that surpasses all understanding....You know how to reach me if you ever need to share...One Love in God's grace and mercy......The Journey continues...................
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Thanks Mike! You've been the most amazing source of encouragement and support.
There's so much to be said for being able to relate to someone... being able to connect offers a sense of kinship that I need to continue moving forward.
In return, if I've provided a "positive message of HOPE and unconditional LOVE", then I'm extremely pleased and humbled.
Yes, The Journey continues!
kd
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"The Greatest Possession We Have is The 24 Hours Ahead Of Us"