I have a question. It's a little hard to word though.
Can you think of any 'horrible' event or circumstance in your life, that hasn't set you on a road to a treasure that you would have gladly paid the price of that event?
For instance, active addiction. If you haven't been there, words are of no use. If you have, words are unnecessary. And yet, it led me to the program, the program led me to the steps, the steps led me to my HP. Finding my HP and enjoying the life I have now were worth the almost certainly mundane existence I would have had if I had never found drugs. Drugs are just a symptom of our disease. Before I found drugs I was miserable and clean. Drugs found the addict that already existed and would have screwed up my life one way or the other anyway. But instead, I get a life second to none.
I can't think of a single one...nothing 'bad' has ever happened to me. I just needed perspective.
...ahh,yes...that which breaks the heart can open it to a whole new world!
.....though I wonder how much of a gift addiction would be if there wasn't an NA program and it's wonderful alchemy??
...I suppose the surprise and inexplicable loss of a loved one might be one of those 'wordless' events I'd never wish on anyone...I had such a shattering ~22 years ago....I guess I could say that the loss became part of what took me into the world of addiction I 'needed' to find my answers. Certainly the event was so strong an experience that it became a cornerstone event to my falling into addiction,,but it could be argued that without that tragic event,,I might not have needed to go there,,and I wouldn't have found the bigger answers that recovery brings. ....My life would have remained as a -half-burn- instead.........I guess it's one of the larger 'life-on-life's terms' situations,,but sometimes I would have preferred the 'half-burn'
...thanks for helping me remember Jocelyn--my 'Shams'...let the healing continue.
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
