Our disease always resurfaced or continued to progress until, in desperation, we sought help from each other in Narcotics Anonymous.
Basic Text, p. 13
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When we think of being desperate, we envision an undesirable state: a poor, bedraggled soul frantically clawing at something sorely needed, a desperate look in the eyes. We think of hunted animals, hungry children, and of ourselves before we found NA.
Yet it was the desperation we felt before coming to NA that compelled us to accept the First Step. We were fresh out of ideas, and so became open to new ones. Our insanity had finally risen higher than our wall of denial, forcing us to get honest about our disease. Our best efforts at control had only worn us out; hence, we became willing to surrender. We had received the gift of desperation and, as a result, were able to accept the spiritual principles that make it possible for us to recover.
Desperation is what finally drives many of us to ask for help. Once we've reached this state, we can turn around and start anew. Just as the desperate, hunted animal seeks a safe haven, so do we: in Narcotics Anonymous.
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Just for today: The gift of desperation has helped me become honest, open-minded, and willing. I am grateful for this gift because it has made my recovery possible.
-- Edited by Dave R on Friday 18th of July 2014 06:31:24 AM
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...ahh yes--Desperation......I'm glad as I make some time,,I get sensitive to that feeling of desperation......today,,I feel a discomfort,,,an uneasy feeling,,,,a GRRRattitude........I've come to see these feelings as a cue to 'do some work',,,call someone,,,,pray,,meditate.............all things I've learnt to do that save me from falling into that -desperate- place of active addiction!!
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
Oh yes , I sought help when I came into the rooms.I knew nothing else had worked,if so only shortly.Being desperate to change made me humble , honest , open - minded ,and willing . This gift I receved made my recovery possible .
