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....personally,I don't feel to be in a position to give advice on this by -any- means,,,but I can make observations,,give support.......I've seen how personality aggravations can drag some down,,cause them to stop giving back,which is really sad. It seems like you've got a good program in place...sponsor,,meetings,,giving back on committees,etc,,,,and you mention a 'concept 10' option ,,which I don't know what it is exactly,but assume that's a formal hearing that can be made?.......If there's such a mechanism in place,,,and to hear that you've been trying everything else,,,it would seem that it's your choice to accept things as they are,,,,or proceed carefully with such a process......is there space for witness support in such a process?...In similar,but outside situations,I've seen that the process of collecting witness statements can be quite self informative. You say that ''if I get one word wrong and it seems like its personal I will be shot down in flames.'',,and this seems to be preventing you from moving forwards,,,but if you take the care you have been already,,,,such a result would only be equal to what's already going on,no??

.....you mention 'turning it over',,,,,sometimes I've found that in some situations,,a steak or pancake or problem cooks best when it's flipped a -few- times,,,or the heat adjusted,,,,,,sometimes we're asking for the wrong thing(?).......the Dalai Llama would likely suggest that thinking,praying a deep compassion towards one's adversary could be helpful,,,,,,,be sure to be working for the -best- result for the other,,as well as your self........maybe 1000x isn't enough,,,maybe it takes one more try!....don't give up,,,you know the perfect truth will come out in the end,,well beyond what we imagine!!!
...you're already a miracle,,,you can hope for more!

Hate hurts us in the fellowship and so does gossip . People have to remember where they came from . We are all addicts , no one is better than the other , if they think so there head is up there ass . My sponsor told me if I'm judging another addict at a meeting , I'm seeing my own character defects popping out .As Dave says work on ourselves , and keep our side of the street clean. Gossip is what can break groups apart .In my Area we have these little clicks of addicts that think they are above us others . The truth is none of them participate in the Area .Just always worry about your own recovery , you are number one in your program of recovery.

Dave R wrote:

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I try not to worry about what other people think of me.
If I'm staying clean, working the program and doing the next right thing, that's what matters.

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 .....yes every time I turn around,,I'm reminded how simple this program really is!