Take my will and my life. Guide me in my recovery. Show me how to live.
Basic Text, p. 26
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How do we begin the process of letting our Higher Power guide our lives? When we seek advice about situations that trouble us, we often find that our Higher Power works through others. When we accept that we dont have all the answers, we open ourselves to new and different options. A willingness to let go of our preconceived ideas and opinions opens the channel for spiritual guidance to light our way.
At times, we must be driven to the point of distraction before we are ready to turn difficult situations over to our Higher Power. Anxiously plotting, struggling, planning, worryingnone of these suffice. We can be sure that if we turn our problems over to our Higher Power, through listening to others share their experience or in the quiet of meditation, the answers will come.
There is no point in living a frantic existence. Charging through life like the house is on fire exhausts us and gets us nowhere. In the long run, no amount of manipulation on our part will change a situation. When we let go and allow ourselves access to a Higher Power, we will discover the best way to proceed. Rest assured, answers derived from a sound spiritual basis will be far superior to any answers we could concoct on our own.
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Just for today: I will let go and let my Higher Power guide my life.
I had a dream last night very vivid, i dont usually dream because my BP meds stop all that but i got off them for a few days, so i dreamed last night of a thing im not letting completely go of, made me sad and blue this morning but theres other things on my mind about the franticness i sometimes live with, work and stuff, Anxiously plotting, struggling, planning.
Ive been needing advice, the other day i saw myself talking to a wise old man, i never had a grandfather but thats the type, im 52 looking for a wise old grandpa HAH HAH, the things we never had sometimes in life we still wish it, even old I guess, we wish these things.
So i've been out of the dating scene a year or so, im by myself a lot i go to meetings, but not often, i have my 6 cats and now a dog but man needs woman, i'm feeling very alone amongst the crowds, i need my house cleaned, ok i'll hire a cleaning girl LOL.
I havent let go because i still have hope and maybe a little faith God will work things out my way HAHAHAH just kidding, sometimes i have to suffer awhile with a thing, i have to digest the truth and the truth is, i spent so much time locked up in prison, so much time not getting attached and just using people, not trusting others, not giving myself honestly, not taking risks unless that meant getting high, not opening my heart , just staying closed and cold, lying and never telling the truth, staying numb, staying loaded.....nothing was more important and now, i am clean but i am still that person without drugs, i hope that changes before i die...i turn my will and my whole life over to the care and love of God, for him to do with me what he will, i pray he guides and protects me and shows me how to live today..Amen
