a life of addiction is surely the cancer of death....my brother was relieved of his life recently from nicotine cancer,(his lungs gave out) just another "ine" addiction this alkoloid kills, as in cocaine,morphine etc. just another reminder for me that the ine drugs are a dead end.
Robert, I am sorry for the loss from your life, losing a loved one truely hurts. I have come to equate addiction (all drugs, not just the "ines" ) to having diabetes. It is a lifelong disease which effects every area of life, but that can be lived with if you take care of yourself. Checking your blood glucose = honestly working with your sponsor. Insulin = working the steps. Exercise = meetings, being a sponsor. Watching your diet = doing a daily inventory. Regular checkups with your physician = speaking with HP. Anyway it works for me. Diabetes, like addiction, when left untreated is a lingering, ugly way to die. It's good to have you here Robert.
Lon
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Thanks lion for the welcome i truly appreciate your warmth as well as your condolences..... but i must add that after 45 years of addiction..including 12 years in prison for drug related charges addiction is 'cancer' to me with all the viable symptons...."diabetes" is serious...but not serious enough i can not express in words how serious and progressive addiction is...if you get my drift.....we know from studies that this disease is natured nutured....for example "the cocaine monkey he was plaCED IN a cage with exclusive access to barbituates after 100 pulls on the lever to receive this drug he finally quit, the second monkey had the same option with heroin, he too quit after 200 pulls......the cocaine monkey continued to pull and pull,killing himself...finally a wired floor was establised in his cage electricity his feet were bare to te bone......and he continued
Rob, I guess what I was trying to get across was that cancer is killed or you die. Addiction never dies, I haven't used for more than 10 years-but I will always be an addict. I need to do the daily maintainance to keep addiction at bay, just like a diabetic has daily maintainance necessities to keep the symptoms of their disease at bay. Not to argue, I just wanted to clarify what I meant, everyone interprets the program and their disease in terms they understand.
Lon
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Courage is not the towering oak that sees storms come and go; it is the fragile blossom that opens in the snow.----Alice Mackenzie Swaim