How to act from now on?

IsraeliWoman51 · Newbie

How to act from now on?

Dave R · Guru

Welcome.
I was a daily pot user. I was never able to moderate my pot use. Every time I tried, I would just go back to using it every day, all day.
If I had a bag of weed in the house, I was smoking it. The bag would not just sit there untouched.
I started to think I had a problem with pot and other drugs and alcohol and started going to NA meetings.
It was the best decision I ever made.
In the meetings, I found people who were like me.
They shared their experience, strength, and hope, and showed me how to stop using drugs and find a new way of live.
Only you can decide if you have problem with mari and other drugs.
Try going to some meetings.

avid · Guru

It's not which drug, or how much of it you use that is the problem.
It's what it does to you.
Being obsessed about the drug is very common symptom of what is called "the disease of addiction"
Using the drug even when you really don't want to is another common symptom.
If you think you might have a problem, then attend a few meetings of NA.
Listen to people share ...I suggest that you do NOT focus on the drug they may have used.
Listen instead to the feelings they are expressing. Lonliness, isolation, fear, self centeredness etc.
If you can relate to the feelings then you are probably in the right place.
Speak to other women in the program and ask for help.
Not easy to do, I understand that. But it just may be the best decision you ever make.
peace.

cdbuckberry · Guru

I was a heavy mari smoker , each time I tried stopping it never lasted ..I smoked for 39 years , up to almost 9 years ago when I realized I had had enough.I had to lose associates go to NA meetings ,90 in 90 days found a sponsor .I will have 9 years on January , 10 , 2014 .

Mike M · Guru

IsraeliWoman51 wrote:
I used mari. for intensive 12 years of daily use. I suffer from tendency to get depressed. I was treated to stop by taking SSRI and speak with therapist. After 3 months of therapy I quit the use Totally.
Six months later I started to smoke again from time to time with freinds. Did not feel I am falling again because the day after I went back to the 'non smoking' life style without any problem.
A week ago, a friend has forgotten here, in my house, some stuff. I smoked it like a lunatic. One week of intensive smoking DID reminded me what is so bad in not being able to enjoy anything but the smoking.
Yesterday I through all the rest to the garbage and today I feel great.
The problem is only when I have the material at home. Otherwise I dont see a problem with smoking from time to time with others.
What do you think?

What do I think? My name's Mike, I'm a Recovering Addict. Are you an addict, only you can answer that question. For me one is two many and a thousand never enough.

Maybe this will help you answer that question: Check out http://na.org/admin/include/spaw2/uploads/pdf/litfiles/us_english/IP/EN3107.pdf

Raman · Guru

Shalom friend.
You are in the right place, at the right time.

My name is Raman, im n addict.
Using grass like you was my lifestyle for many years of my addiction.
And even though it was getting unmanageable, i could not stop.
I wS depressed if i did not use, but got paranoid when i used.

And i think i would have become totally psychotic if i hadnt stopped and got NA.
I suspect you are headed in the same route,.so stop. Stop, look and listen.
Go to NA meetings, find people who will help you.

Staying clean and serene, just for today...

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