Good question Don.......
Basically i see this wonderful forum with all you lovely folks as as spacec where i an be shamelessly self.serving.
Ye.....u read that right.....self.serving....serving the self, all these.
I can feel the sadness too: how newcomers share a bit of their sob stories, get responses from all us, and then theyre gone
.........the sad thing really is that if they had any self interest at all, theyd stick.....
Im running near a decade at M.I.P. This is the same old story. But thers the bright part...
Thats why im very greatful to Don, Colin, the Mike's, Vin, the Dave's, Liz, Stacey Manon etcetc
and the many that only read........
Keep coming back yall......ill need u always in my recovery.......God Bless you....
(((((((((((((((((((((Cyber recovery hugs to each and every one of you))))))))))))))))))))
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
I haven't posted here for a long time if ever (I can't remember). I often read the posts. My goal is to be more involved in my recovery. To date I have been clean from all prescription meds for 90 days. I still have some other issues with chemicals, however my biggest demon; opiates, I haven't used in 7 months. I call that a miracle. For the first time in 7 years I feel free and optimistic that I really can recover completely. I will be coming back.
Thank you. I'm having difficulty making a meeting as I am very resistant. I don't really understand my resistance, perhaps today I can move past it and get on with it.
IMHO resistance can come from alot of different sources.
In my case a big source, was low self esteem...I wasn't worthy of being successful at anything, including recovery.
I knew my life would get better, but I for some sick reason i was afraid of the very thing I craved.
Working the steps has helped me overcome this form of self defeating insanity.
I got up the courage to go to some meetings, got up the courage to ask someone to sponser me,
worked the steps with my sponsor and continue to live them on a daily basis.
My life has never been better.
Namaste
omg!!! I think you may have nailed it. Only, I think I'm afraid I can't be successful in recovery because every time I've been made to go into "the rooms", I've relapsed. I've been attempting recovery since 2004. In my head I know I just have to take the plunge and do it. Because I've been mostly unmedicated, I do feel more hopeful than I have in a while. I am interacting here which I know isn't the same as face to face meeting, but progress over perfection. It's a step forward albeit a small one. :)
You are always welcome here.
A big step for you would be to go to meetings because you CHOOSE to,
rather than being "made to go".
No one can make an addict want recovery.
Only we can.
You are always welcome here. A big step for you would be to go to meetings because you CHOOSE to, rather than being "made to go". No one can make an addict want recovery. Only we can.
+1
Go to meetings because YOU want a better way of life. NA can work for you like just like it is working in the lives of countless others including myself. 32 years Clean by the Grace of my Higher Power whom I choose to call God by the Power of NA and even sometimes serene!
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
