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Mike M


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Welcome to the NA MIP forum. Now GET your ass to a face to face meeting, no excuses. Can't afford the gas, then hoof it. I did when first Clean. An hour and half trek each way. Ya gotta want Recovery like it's your last breath and do what ever it takes. You'd do anything for that next fix when using, go after Recovery the same way. And then it works.

Clean by the Grace of my Higher Power whom I choose to call God through the Power of NA for 32 years 8 months 26 days worth of One Day At A Times.

Keep Coming Back, NA Works IF YOU Work It.

We didn't even have a Basic Text let alone a Step Working Guide when I first got Clean. Doesn't matter. Had the Little White Book, a few IP's. The Power of the Group and One Addict Helping Another is what it's all about.



-- Edited by Mike M on Tuesday 13th of August 2013 03:40:10 PM

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PopTart


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I've been clean for just over 4 months now, I've really been struggling these past few days, i haven't been to a meeting in weeks. I guess i felt maybe just checking in some where would do me some good for now. Ive planned my relapse, from beginning to end, although honestly it usually ends in my head with me feeling ashamed and trying to get the pills out of my system. I just want to go back to being numb, no care in the world. I havent slept right in days, I can feel a slight touch of anxiety quite frequently now. I still haven't fully engulfed myself into the program even though i have people that are doing everything they can to reach out to me. I haven't been able to connect with anyone since becoming clean. I don't even have a step working guide, not because i dont want one, my home group didn't have any and now that they have one, that they have held onto for me i still haven't been able to make the 45 minute drive back to the meeting. I know that gas is cheaper then the price i was paying to get high, but not by much when you have a v8. 

 

My life feels like a whirlwind right now. Getting high is the only thing on my mind, it scares me. I know i love the feeling, but i hate who i am when i'm using. Nothing about my life is ok when im using. I keep trying to hold onto that thought, but i feel it slipping through my fingers. I have a lot of personal stuff going on in my life, i know thats why the thoughts are there, i'm really struggling with how to manage my life right now. I'm sorry for the long rant, i have a lot on my mind right now and honestly can't type as fast as i am thinking. Thank you all for your time. 



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Hello Keisha and Welcome to MIP!

I am an addict named Mike. Awesome on 4 months clean, truly a miracle for addicts. Good work in reaching out when you are getting sparky about your recovery .You  can GOOGLE  www.na.org/ FOR literature info and other information. .You have tasted the beginnings of recovery and this is the part where WE decide to do whatever it takes to remain clean a day at a time...You can also call the NA hotline in your area and speak with a recovering addict and get help in that sense. You know meetings and taking part in your own recovery is very important ,especially in this early stage so again, WE do whatever necessary to remain free. The Basic Text is online ,if you don't have one, there are even copies of the STEP WORKING GUIDE(not conference approved but from other fellowships throught the states that may be of help at least reviewing your first STEP)THIS IS OUR step WHERE WE CAN WORK IT 100%. WE learn that this is a 2 part process our acceptance and admittance that we are powerless over our using and also our lives are unmanageable...WE put the substance down and then the work begins...You may want to seek medical help for any other issues you may have etc...Try and concentrate on what you DO have and not on what you don't, ,,most  importantly another day free of the monster of addiction. WE suggest being honest with yourself and take a deep look inside and decide if "being numb and having no cares in the world" is for real or just an illusion,  can certainly rationalize many things(keep it on me here) we ARE ALWAYS HERE and John keeps the light on so please let us know how you are doing .WE  can truly  identify. .Others  will be on to share their ESH hope to hear more from you, Just For Today, don't pick up and the hours will grow to days ,months  and years our message is HOPE AND OUR PROMISE IS FREEDOM FROM ACTIVE ADDICTION, A DAY AT A TIME. .Clean   time does not equal recovery  but on any given day it can be our best asset, ,In  support and prayer.....smile



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avid


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HI Keisha and welcome to MIP
One of the main symptoms of the disease of addiction is obsessively thinking about using drugs.
4 months is huge, but as you can see, the desire to use has not yet been lifted.
This liftng of the desire to get high has happened for millions of addicts around the world and can happen
for you too, but 'the solution is in the steps'.
I urge you to go to a meeting, find a sponsor and start working the steps with her.
The price of gasoline is the least of it. Addiction ruins our health, destroys our finances, crushes relationships,
and literally destroys lives. The ultimate cost of addiction is jails, institutions, or death.
Give yourself a break. Please, get to a meeting.
We here at MIP are willing to share our experience strength and hope with you.
just keep coming back.

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PopTart


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Well Thanks Everyone, I know that i do need to get to a meeting, i am going this evening at 7, the hoofing it thing is hard since i do work full time and have a son. Not making excuses, i just feel i have a lot going on in my life right now, i really do feel compulsive when thinking about using, or while i was using. Sometimes my pain is so unbearable, my emotions are all over the place, as well as my thoughts.  I am still living with repercussions every day from while i was using. Financially, Emotionally, Mentally, Physically. I still have a lot to sort out, I just don't think i have started anywhere, nor do i know where to start. I know my #1 priority right now is for me to stay sober, just for today.

 

I appreciate the advice as well, Thank You

Keisha Ann



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The journey of a thousand miles starts with the first step.
Going to a meeting of Narcotics Anonymous is the first step.
Reaching out to other women is another important step.
You may find that there are other recovering addicts who you can car pool with.
Your right about staying clean being your #1 priority. Everything else will fall by the wayside
if you don't.
Let us know how you're doing.

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LizC


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I am feeling the same way right now. This too shall pass. Stay strong. You've got this!

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Raman


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Hi Keisha.
My name is Raman...im an addict. Clean and serene in NA.

Congrats..a day clean is a day won.

NA promises that an addict, any addict, can stop using, lose the desire to use and find a new way of life.
Ive seen thousands for whom this is true....seems like youre in that list too...

Keep going to NA meetings and keep coming back here. Share your heart out and everything will be alright.

All tbe best.

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Welcome. Don't use and go to meetings.

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