If it is helpful, there are five meetings a week that are relatively close. Three in Marshfield and two in Black River Falls.

Welcome. A couple of things stuck me about your post.
You said you were in AA recovery then became a social drinker. In my experience, this does not happen. Once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic. If you are/were really an alcoholic, then if you started drinking again you would eventually have problems again.
Since you now says you have problems with pills, this suggests that you are an addict.
In my experience, if you are an addict and want to recover, going to meetings is essential. Online meetings are helpful but they are no a substitute for in person meetings.
If you go to meetings, you will be able to find a sponsor there and begin working the other parts of the program (steps, service, fellowship, etc.).
If there are no NA meetings locally AA meetings will work.
You seem to be really concerned about not letting your in laws know about this. You are trying to hide your problem.
Which is worse: your addiction or letting other people know you have a problem with drugs?
If you really want to get clean, you will be willing to do what it takes, which includes going to meetings.
Best wishes to you.

  Thank you Raman for your feedback.  I do understand that I need to go to any lengths to get my sobriety.  I am trying to grasp the little differences between aa and na.  I was a recovering acoholic for 4yrs and just threw it away to and abusive realtionship.  I now have come to a point in my life where for the first time i am discovering I am an adict and it makes me feel good i'll use it if its near.  I replaced my alcohol with pills because i had the pain pills and not the acohol.  I do however need to talk to my daughter.  My husband doesnt want me to but I have to do it for me and she will help if she sees i need it.  I tried to make the online meeting last night but couldnt get my server to work.  Now i got into chat but no one talks to me im really confused on what i need to do.  I did pick a user name momswings but when saying hi i get no response and that is unsual in a chat room.  ANyhow.  Thanks for the message and i totally agree with u but have got to be secretive to a degree because i cant afford to lose my marriage over my disease and stupidity.  If you know of anything else to help or know of someone in the neilsville wi area that is willing to sponsor me let me know please.  Thank again Candi

Hi Candi.....

Maybe you already know this but seems like this ones the nearest;

LE Phillips Treatment Center 2661 County Highway I
Chippewa Falls, WI 54729-5407
Google! Map
Sunday 6:00 PM
(18:00) Yes TOP Estimated Miles: 4.96


The other avenue for sharing with other addicts is;
chat@1na.org.

copy/type this onto the address bar of your browser.
The search engine will take you to www.1na.org, and then to the meeting room......

\Best of luck,,,,,, love of one addict for another......

(p.s; in the meanwhile, Im trying to get you the contact number of an NA member that may give you a drive to and drop back from an NA meeting thats a "safe distance away" !)

-- Edited by Raman on Wednesday 17th of October 2012 02:43:45 PM

  Thank you for your input.  I however can not travel that distance due to the cost of gas and no employeement  I would however be able to meet with an sponsor two til three times a week for coffee and discussion.  I am doing aa and na meetings as many as possible a day.  If you know of any sponsors in the neillsville wi area please let me know thanks again candi

I am an addict named Mike.Do whatever it takes to get clean and keep your recovery first.It really does take more than just putting the substance down,thats the beginning but we work a daily process of recovery that keeps us from that next one.Alcohol is a drug,there really is no such thing for using just a little for an addict.If you went to program you know what we do to remain free,daily.I lift you up in prayer and support.Hopefully you will follow thru on the suggestions given here.WE can truly identify.There are pamphlets at NA.ORG that go over use of medications in recovery and IN TIMES OF ILLNESS. Check em out...

Thanks for the feedback.  I have told my father in law which means he probably told my mother in law.  I also told my daughter.  I just know my husband does not want my mother in law knowing because shes going to blow it all our of proportion.  I have told my mother who lives in fl which is hard but i have the phone.  Shes also in recovery but not an active meeting goer.  My uncle is also an active recovery and does meetings.  but he lives 3hrs from me.  I did find a meeting here in town its on monday nights at 7pm at a church but its aa.  I am happy to be able to go to one meeting.  nervouse again but happy.  I have been trying really hard to get to the online na meeting but i keep falling asleep before hand.  I usually go to bed at 7pm cause im up at 1-3am in the morning.  Have a terrible sleep patern cause of my back injury.  I can say today is three days i am clean and i will stay clean that i know of just for today.  Its been hard because im withdrawling and keep reaching for them in the middle of the day when the pain starts.  But i cant get a refill and dont know where they are so its all good.  I started by only giving my trazadone to my husband and then yesterday found my codine and gave both bottles of those to him.   I feel better untill the caose starts with my daughter or mother in law she likes to pick fights.  I wished there was more support from my husband but I have to just let him do his thing i guess as his last girlfriend put him through hell with medications.  I cant change what i am but i can make my  future better for everyone.  Anyhow thanks for the posting.  I appreciate it a lot they always seem to come just when i need one.  but when i dont get one i get on line with the web.  Have a great Day :)  thanks again Candi

Thanks for the post.  Im not in denial my mother in law takes everything over the top.  She is a major bitch and my husband doesnt do anything to support me.  So till we all sit down as a family and discusse this she wont know.  The most imortant people in my life know.  Addiction is a very serious disease and yes it runs in my family  all but me are alcoholics im both.  I have gone four days without a pill or drink im very proud of myself with the pain i live with many people could not do it.  Others could.  there has also been four days ive cried for the pain and frustration.  I have tried hot baths and cold packs neither work on it is bone that is deteriorating not muscles or anything like that but thanks for the info.  I know how addiction spirals out of control Ive done my prison time and lost my family and been through three abusive reltationsips.  you name it i been there.  Talk soon Candi

Hye Man I am a sober AA member for 8 plus years and have not picked up booze for that time but during my 4th year in AA I develoed anixety meds addiction and for next 3 years life was hell.Inspite of AA ,AA meetings, AA steps and AA sponsor I ran away from home twice,lost 9 jobs,got bpxers fracture and became penniless.,I also tried willpower,Psycology,Religion,Counselling,Self help books,Miracle places ,schizophrenics anonymous,Dual recovery anonymous etc.
By God's grace some 18 months back I found NA and that drug addiction has stopped.I kept going to AA meetings and I started NA meetings (not too much) but I was intouch with NA member daily for a year and I have been reading NA Basic Text since day one in NA.The first chapter from that book "who is an addict" answered all my questions and also The introductaory NA book and the Pamplet Am I an addict cleared my all doubts.
I was confused but the AA pamplet" Problems other than alcohol" by Bill W helped me.He in that pamplet states clearly to AA members with legal or illegal drugs addiction to take help of NA.
as said my drug addiction has stopped since 18 months and I was able to hold a job for over a year and tomorrow I am starting a new job.
So please read NA Basic text esp the 6th edition.The recovery story from 6th edition of NA basic text FEARFUL MOTHER gave me cent percent identification.So all the best and welcome to NA and keep coming here and to NA.
Hugs and love